-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- All glories to our loving Spiritual Master, His Holiness Nav Yogendra Maharaj. The year was 1986 in Chandigarh. Here was a highly qualified man (by worldly standards), working as Vice President in a well-known company, with all material comforts that go with such positions. He enjoyed smoking, drinking & meat eating as his status symbols. He often visited the temple, but only to take his wife (Mohini Devi Dasi) over there. He sat in the car while his wife went in to have darshan. If he ever went in, it was only as a tourist, to admire the architecture _ never with any devotional feelings. This man was I, then! Let me take you down the memory lane and share with you my experiences with Maharaj and how he transformed me into what I am today. It is an amazing journey. We met Maharaj in our Chandigarh temple. I liked him as a warm and friendly person, nothing more. Mohini invited him to our house for a satsang programme, knowing fully well that I may not even attend the programme. I decided to attend only out of courtesy. I listened to him with skeptism but found a lot of unanswered questions coming to my mind. I asked him if I could have a private sitting with him, at his convenience. He readily agreed and said that we could sit `right now'. It was 9 p.m. then! We sat in a closed room for 4 hours, till 1 a.m. I put question after question to him, and he answered each question patiently and with logic. Some were simple questions which come to our mind, but never get answered to our satisfaction _ what is the significance of arti, why do devotees have to shave their heads, why can't I just be a good honest person and do my duties etc. For the first time I was made to think of the all important questions: — Who am I? — What am I doing here? — Where am I heading? — Who is Krishna? — What is my relationship with Him? Just as there are consequences of violating man made laws, I also learnt about Divine laws and the consequences of violating them. Maharaj very convincingly demonstrated that I am not this body but the Soul inside the body. That day was the turning point in my life. Everything Maharaj said made sense. I gave up meat eating and smoking immediately. I started chanting with one round a day, but regularly. I attended my first Mangal Arti at the temple. However, occasional social drinking still continued. One day, I was driving in my car with Maharaj. Suddenly, we saw a man lying in the roadside gutter. Maharaj told me to stop the car. We went over to him to see what was wrong. The man was dead drunk. Maharaj asked him if he was enjoying himself. "Yes, I am in heaven" said the man. Maharaj turned to me and said, "See, this is called maya - that which is not. This man thinks he is in -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- That was the end of my drinking habit. I had an enviable bar at home, with a large variety of expensive foreign drinks. So convincing was Maharaj's illustration of the point, that I smashed all the liquor bottles on the road, the next day. Why didn't I just give them away to my neighbours or friends? Because what was not good for me was also not good for anybody else. Maharaj was a true follower of Srila Prabhupada's teachings. However, his growing popularity could not be accepted by some powers in the organisation. They tried to make his life difficult and started putting conditions on him, which he found to be unacceptable. Rather than compromise his standards of preaching, Maharaj decided to come down to his hometown, Udhampur in 1987, and make a new beginning, all on his own. Maharaj had the vision of building his own temple, in this very land, which was then nothing, more than a piece of farmland. It had only a small broken down kitchen by way of any constructed area. The Bhog Bhandar area had his father's bungalow. His father was still alive then and Maharaj cared for him a lot. However, since Maharaj had already renounced material life at a very early age, he refused to stay with his father and chose to stay in a very small room, near the `farmland' all by himself. The room was so small that it could just accommodate one bed. Prasad was prepared for him in the broken down kitchen. We often wondered how Maharaj was going to build a temple in this isolated place. Where will all the money come from? Will any devotees stay with him and lead such a difficult life, where there was no protection from the bitter cold in the winter and no light in the summer. He had only one devotee with him- Sudarshan Das, who stuck with him inspite of all the difficulties. I still remember seeing Sudershan taking his early morning bath in the open in the bitter cold of the winter months, without complaining. But, Maharaj had full faith in Krishna's mercy through his spiritual master Srila Prabhupada. Maharaj knew that one day his dream would come true _ a dream to build a model temple where standards of purity set by Prabhupada would be strictly followed, where this would become the training centre for new devotees and where visitors would feel a `difference' in the vibrations and would like to come back again and again. Each time we visited Udhampur, Maharaj's `atithi satkar' was unmatched. He would take us to visit different places. We would sit under the trees on the hills in front of a breathtaking view, under a huge waterfall, near a lake or an abandoned airstrip. He played with our children in the snow at Patnitop like a child. We would all chant loudly to purify the surroundings, perform the evening arti at different places and listen to his pravachan attentively. He would answer our questions patiently because we wanted to learn and not to argue. We were fools in front of our Spiritual Master. But, every moment of his association was precious. We felt really energised. We moved to Chennai in 1988, at the south end of India and far away from Udhampur. This turned out to be a blessing for us. Every year we invited Maharaj to visit us. We got the opportunity of doing exclusive seva and had the privilege of dedicating time & association with him. Each year we traveled to a different state by car and visited the glorious temples -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- It was in one of these visits, when we were traveling by car, that I got the inspiration and courage to request Maharaj to give me `diksha'. It was all from within me and not known to anybody. Luckily for me, Maharaj very graciously agreed. He gave me `diksha' at the next Vyas Pooja, along with my wife, Mohini Devi Dasi. That was in 1990. The occasion was really a `rebirth' for me. It felt so different. Then, Maharaj did something very special for me _ something not many people know about, but which I cannot help sharing with you, now. Back in his room, he closed the door and embraced me. I felt like crying with happiness. Earlier, the construction of the temple and ashram had started, bit by bit, slowly but surely. Maharaj traveled tirelessly in India and overseas .This was the only way to mobilize funds. He was all-alone in this effort. But he kept on with all his enthusiasm, day and night. On certain days he gave pravachan after pravachan continuously, with all his enthusiasm. His audience participation was amazing. Everybody clapped and sang bhajans behind him. Everyone danced behind him, happily. Never a dull moment in all his programmes. In 1993 we moved to Nigeria. We were amazed to find that even in an African country Maharaj was as popular as in India. His Nigerian devotees were thrilled with joy when we invited him to Lagos. Everyday we would have Mangal Arti with him, followed by his pravachan. In the evenings, he would give pravachan in the local Geeta Ashram. Wherever he went, the hall was full of listeners. Everybody sang and clapped. The climax of his visit was giving `diksha' to one of his Nigerian devotees, with havan and all the rituals of the diksha ceremony. Even today after so many years, Maharaj is fondly remembered by those who got his association in Nigeria. From Nigeria to Indore and Indore to U.K., Maharaj was always there for us. It has been a long journey. We have failed him time and again, but he has never failed us. He has been very consistent in his preaching. With his computer sharp memory, he remembers in minute detail every incident of our life, everything that we have discussed with him over the years and every instance when we have failed him. Sometimes we feel irritated when he keeps reminding us our mistakes of the past. But then, even after that we do not improve. We are so fallen souls. His patience is really amazing. We think that Maharaj has a special love for our family. But ask any devotee. He will tell you the same thing _ that Maharaj has a special love for him. The fact is that Maharaj makes anybody who comes in his association, special. He remembers his name, even after years, and all his life history _ truly amazing! Maharaj has a personalised relationship with each one of us, something that is unique and not easily found in other Gurus. Over the years, we have seen many devotees come and leave our Udhampur ashram. Very few have survived the toughness of Maharaj's standards and the rigors of ashram life. Some have come here thinking that they will have an easy life over here, with everything -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Maharaj's dream of the Udhampur temple is now a reality. He has built the most beautiful temple, probably the biggest temple in this part of India. His dream that visitors should feel `different' over here is also a reality _ ask any visitor and he will tell you that the vibrations of our Udhampur temple are so pure, unmatched by any other place of worship. He has also set the standards for making this a model-training centre for devotees. But, there is something, which even Maharaj cannot do. He cannot force you into Krishna Consciousness. It is your choice whether you want to go back to God Head or go back into the cycle of rebirth. Think about it and decide what only you can decide. Let us be thankful to Krishna for giving us a Guru like Maharaj. Let us train under him to be an ideal devotee so that others can get inspiration from us. Let us support Maharaj in spreading pure Krishna Consciousness all over the world. This is the only way we can show our appreciation for what he has done for us. This is our only way forward, before it is too late. Hari Bol Subal Das Cardiff U.K. Naveen Krishna Das Please accept my humble obeisances at your lotus feet. All glories to your Divine Grace on this occasion of your most auspicious Vyasa-puja! I would also like to thank my God brothers and God sisters for giving me a chance to submit this Vyasa-puja offering at your lotus feet although I know that I am not qualified to do so. For the past six years, I have always been looking forward to celebrate your Vyasa-Puja together at Udhampur but it looks like that I am being punished for not keeping my 2 promises that I made to your Divine Grace; first that I will always remain a Brahmchari and second I will never leave India. Nevertheless, out of your magnanimous mercy, your Divine Grace has been continuously blessing us by allowing us to have your Darshan here at Potomac Temple, almost every year. What make us still going on are your powerful instructions and realizations that we all strive to follow and to understand. In my life, you have gifted me with many presents and teachings that I have taken to my heart. First, you taught me to surrender to Lord Krishna. How can I forget the very first day when you showed mercy on this fallen soul by chanting this bhajan which completely -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- What more can we ask, you are our eternal well-wisher, saviour and guardian! We are eternally indebted to your Divine Grace and we are so grateful to their Lordships Sri Sri Gaur Radha Krishna, Sri Sri Sita Ram Laxman Hanuman, Sri Sri Gaur Nitai and Srila Prabhupada to have sent you on this planet to save such fallen souls like ourselves. All glories to your most auspicious Vyas-puja celebrations 2007 !!!!! Your most insignificant son, daughter, and grand children Naveen Krishna Das Hari Priya D.D Jhanavi D.D Tulsi Moksha D.D Washington D.C. U.S.A. Makhan Chor Das At Gokul, Brijvasis are celebrating Nandosava with dancing and singing. Alms are being distributed to all the sadhus, bramhacharis, tapasvis and to whosoever has come to take part in the celebration to bless the new born. Shiva arrived on Nandishwar. He dismounted and moved towards the main entrance the abode of Nand-Jasoda- Krsna. Shiv spoke "Alakh Niranjan! Alakh Niranjan! Alakh Niranjan!" A beautiful Gopi enquired "Yogi what do you want?" Shiva said "I am Shiva. I have come from Kailash to have darshan of Jasodalal". The gopi conveyed the message to Jasoda and described his peculiar outfit of Yogi-ash all over the body, loin cloth around the waist, garland of human skulls and black cobras wraped around the neck and the arms. Josoda requested gopi to offer him whatever he needs. Shiva said that he is not interested in any kind of worldly offerings, as he is satisfied with whatever he has. He has come just to have darshan of Jasodalal. Jasoda felt surprised at the outfit of Yogi, refusal for any wordly objects and insistance for darshan of the new born, and that too on the second day of his birth which is not permissible in vedic culture to an outsider. Jasoda said, "Yogi accept what ever you desire and bless my son whom I have got after years of spiritual penance and by the grace of Sri Narayana, but I cannot offer you darshan of my son, because he will get a shock on seeing your outfit of garland of human skulls and black cobras around your neck and arm". Shiva is being consistantly refused for darshan of Shyamsunder because uptil now he has only given his biodata and purpose, but not yet said even a word in praise of Sri Krishna. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- fcu xqu xk;s vJq cgk;sA ';ke Nfcu dkscq fujf[k u ik;sA "No one can have even a glimpse of Shyam without reciting the divine deeds of Parmatma and shedding tears of love and devotion for Him". At this Shiva had a hearty laugh and said to Jasoda : tkds Hk; Hk; gw¡ MjikbZA yky frgkjks lksbZ lq[knkbZA lksbZ czã rc lqr cfu vk;ksA okusb eksfga iqdkfj cqyk;ksA "Parmatma Himself has manifested as your son. He himself gave a call to me for darshan". Jasoda contemplated for a few moments in her heart, how a child of two days can give a call?. How does he know that Parmatma has manifested as her son: Feeling perplexed and confused, this time Jasoda flatly refused him for darshan of her son. She closed the door and went on the side to look after Sri Krishna. Saints say: —Though Shiva praised Parmatma, yet darshan was not available to him though spiritually powerful, yet could not change the mind of Jasoda Sutra for Darshan—No one can have glimpse of Parmatma unless he sheds love tears for him. Now Shiva had no choice but to wait and contemplate. He saw a big and old baniyan tree in front of Nandalaya. He went there and sat down under the Baniyan tree to contemplate. cV r: tk; è;ku mu dhUáksa fdu vijk/ u njlu nhUáksA "Narayana! What wrong have I done? Why Jasoda refused me flatly for Your darshan. I never asked you to give me this outfit which is fearful. It is you, who have endowed me with this kind of dress code." mr gj fut uSuu Hkkfj yk;ksA br gfj mufgr :nu epk;ksa While contempelating, Shiva's heart got filled with Bhaktirasa which over flowed out of the eyes as Premashru; Parmatma cannot see the devotees in a mental state of distress. Sri Krishna, being a child, had no other power to express except emiting a Divine cry. So He suddenly started crying at the top of his voice with sobs in between. At this Jasoda felt concerned and troubled at the crying of Sri Krishna. eS;k dg] jh gkS xbZ ekjhA tksxh dfj x;ksa Vksuk HkkjhA She felt that it is due to the spell, casted by the Yogi whom I showed disrespect. She immediately came out running and bowed at the feet of Shiva who was contempleting under the Baniyan tree. She said, "Yogi pardon me Nandlal is crying. as if he is under some kind of spell. Kindly come and grace Nandalaya with your lotus feet and relieve me of this mental agony". She further said, "Yogi you have darshan of Nandlal to your heart's content and play with him as long as you desire. Be kind to relieve me of this spell, casted upon my son." Sutra for darshan:- fcu xqu xk;s] vJq cgk;sA ';ke Nfcu dksm fujf[k u ik;sAA -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Shiva contemplated and got immersed in Premashru-inner Ganga. Then only Jasoda came and allowed darshan of Sri Krisna. Shiva followed Jasoda. His smiling eyes with full Premashru met the lotus feet of Krishna. At this Krishna emited kilkaria sound of delight from his body. Jasoda said-"Krishna never gave a kilkari. He was crying and in a moment he saw you he has become extremely delightful., as if he knows you." Yasoda further said "Yogi! Do me a favour and cast your boon on him so that he will never cry like this any more, any time." And then Shiva said "Yasoda let me have your son in my lap." Shiva with Krishna in his lap danced and danced Saint say, "No one can have even a glimpse of Him without shedding love tears for Him. The Divine deed of Shiv-Krishna darshan has conveyed the message that sutra for Krshna darshan is Universal." The above illustration of Sri Vrindaban Dham conveys us that all Dhamas, Tirath raja's including Sri Udhampur Dhama have a universal recognition being the birth place of our beloved Guru Maharaj where he spent his childhood and youth .We all God brothers and sisters are really very lucky to celebrate Vyasapuja along with Udhampur niwasi. I remember my personal experience ,on one instance when my younger sister alongwith her husband came to Udhampur to seek blessing of Guru Maharaj. She told Guruji that her brother this is me, daily performing his spiritual task and puja regularly at home. At this Guru Maharaj at once said that all this is nothing and unless and until he obeys me and fulfill his spiritual commitments made to me, I will not be happy. So what I mean to say is that unless and until we obey our spiritual master totally there is little chance of our liberation from the cycle of repeated birth and death. All of us must pledge today to obey the commandments of Guru Maharaj and get passed with His divine love and causeless mercy. It is well said that experience leads the way. So the wise man or disciple is one who takes advantage of the experiences made by others who tred the path of spirituality. A very vivid example is that of Lord Shiva who tried to have darshans of Lord Krsna. Just by explaining his personal identiy and bio-data viz he has come from Kailash Parvat and that he does not require any worldly pleasure or wealth, he was refused the darshan of Lord Krisn. Then what did Shiva do? He sat under an old Baniyan tree in the court yard of Nandyala. He began to repent with his eyes full of tears of love and sang songs in His praise. Only then Lord krsna was moved and began to cry loudly. Jasoda was very much upset and went to Shiva for relieving her from the mental agony caused due to the crying of child Krsna. It is this Krsna who made His devotee Shiva to have His darshan and take Him in his lap. Thus it is clear that we must act according to the instructions of our spiritual master His Divine Grace Nitya Nandpada Navayogindra Swami ji Maharaj if we want to meet Krishna and get free from the circle of life and death. The importance of Udhampur Dham is no less than Sri Vrindavan Dham, as here our Gurumaharaj Srila Nava Yogendra Swami ji Maharaj appeared, spent his child hood, youth and started his spiritual journey. He with the grace of Lord Krisna met his pure and real master, Srila AC. Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabhupada: and attained the highest state of spirituality in Vaishnav Sampardaya. Due to some noble deeds of our previous birth, we are able to find Srila Nav Yogendra Swami ji maharaj as our spiritual master (Guru ji): -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Govind Jai Jai Gopal Jai Jai Radha Raman Hari Govind Jai Jai Hari Bol Your most obedient servant Makhan Chor Das Chandigarh Radha Madan Mohan Das I offer my most humble obeisances unto you, my spiritual master. I bow before your lotus feet. I am so unqualified, by your mercy alone I can approach Krsna. You have saved me from this material world. May I always be engaged in your service. All glories to Srila Prabhupada. All glories to you Guru Maharaj. Maharaj you gave us the most valuable thing in our life. You care and direct us even though we are so far and so fallen, like a caring father your love is so unconditioned. Even a few words from you can lift us up from the deepest place of Maya. Please Guru Maharaj, bless this servant of yours so that I can live up to your expectations and continue serving your lotus feet forever. Your most fallen servants Radha Madan Mohan Das U.S.A. Radhika Devi Dasi Please accept my most humble obeisances at the dust of your lotus feet on this most auspicious day of your Vyasa-Puja. All Glories to Srila Prabhupada. All Glories to you Guru Maharaja. Guru Maharaja thank you for showering your causeless unlimited mercy upon me and planting the seed of Krishna Bhakti in my heart. It is my biggest fortune to have a spiritual master like you. Guru Maharaja you have always taken care of me by helping me remain in my spiritual life. Your humbleness and jolly nature can never be forgotten. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Guru Maharaj, I need your guidance and presence forever in my life, please never leave this worthless servant alone. Your eternal servant Radhika Devi Dasi U.S.A. Ram Krishna Das srimate bhaktivedanta-swamin iti namine namas te sarasvate deve gaura-vani-pracarine nirvisesa-sunyvadi-pascatya-desa-tarine Om ajnana-timirandasya jnananjana salakaya caksur unmilitam yena tasmai sri gurave namah. Respected H.H. Nav Yogendra Swami Maharaj Ji Please accept my humble obeisances at your Divine lotus feet. You are my spiritual master and you always reside in my heart And you are always aware of what I am doing in my material life. Since I met you 20 years back ( approx in 1985) till today I am in touch with you and what you have given me a spark of light due to which I am remembering you and Lord Krsna. I felt so fortunate when I visited your ashram in 2004 and I got your mercy and blessings as your highness accepted me as your servant. Gurudev you are so merciful that you guided me all the time but I am Moodha and don't understand and make offences many times due to my ignorance and polluted position in this material life. Even then Guru Maharaj you are so merciful that you revealed the most wonderful secret to me and kept on inspiring me to do something worthwhile for your Divine grace. I tried to do small projects that I thought I did them but no that was my mistake. They happened because of your blessings and Lord Krsna's mercy. He is the one who can do everything. I am greatly flawed, Gurudev. It gives me much pain to see my shortcomings, my mistakes and my inability to serve you and your mission properly. Yet I must try to serve you and not abandon your orders. I was afraid to commit for big projects but now I know my gurudev and Lord Krsna is always there and I am only an instrument for namesake. I pray at your lotus feet and beg -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- sri-krsna-caitanya prabhu doya koro more toma bina ke doyalu jagat-samsare patita pavana-hetu tava avatara mo sama patita prabhu na paibe ara. You're unworthy servant Ram Krishna Das (Roshan Khandpur) U.S.A. Ramai Das Please accept my humble obeisances. All glories to your continuous and uninterrupted,humble ,unselfish service at the lotus feet of Srila Prabhupada. Sri Chaitanya Mahaprabhu said "jare dekho take kaho Krishna updesh". This is the essence of your spiritual life. When ever I talk with you, listen to you talking with others; you are always glorifying Srila Prabhupada, Lord Chaitanya and Lord Shri Krishna. You are always encouraging every spirit soul to chant Hare Krishna. You are always engaged in spreading the holy name of Lord Shri Krishna. On this most auspicious day of your Vyas pooja celebration, I humbly beg for your mercy, so I can also do some service at the lotus feet of Srila Prabhupada. Your humble servant Ramai Das Sanfrancisco U.S.A. Sachi Suta Das (Dr. Vashishtha) I offer my humble obeisance at your lotus feet and All glories to Sri guru and Gauranga. Maharaj. I am extremely grateful for your association and guidance for last 10-15 years and by your blessing I am able to taste some joy of Krishna consciousness. By your constant encouragement I am still able to chant Mahamantra. You are totally dedicated to Srila Prabhupada and have given everything for His service, which is example for me to follow, -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Hare Krishna Sachi Suta Das/ Dr. Vashishtha California, U.S.A. Nandakishore Das Krsna prestaya bhu-tale Srimate Nava Yogendra _ Svamin Iti namine. Nameste Prabhupada deve Nama sankirtan pracarine Nirivisesa- sunyavadi samasta-desa-tarine Please accept my humble obeisances at the dust of your lotus feet, All glories to your Divine Grace, on this most auspicious day of your vyasa-puja. All glories to, His Divine Grace, AC Bhaktivedanta Swami Srila Prabhupada. All glories to all the vaisanava's in Udhampur Dham! Dear Gurudev, Gurudev, you are Srila Prabhupada's most dear servant - following in his foot steps and spreading the holy name all over world. This is how I met Gurudev in 1995, being the masterful arrangement, of the Supreme Controller, Sri Krsna Caitanya, I folded my hands, begging like a miner in search for the diamonds of sanatana dharma, every day from 1978 to 1994 to meet a Pure devotee like Gurudev. The Lord is extremely merciful to the fallen, thus seeing my desire to follow the instructions set forth by Lord personally, my dream was fulfilled. Gurudev over the years I have met and served many Gurus, and was offered diksa, however my heart was longing for something more, for a spiritual master who is just like Srila Prabhupada, with very high standards and a bold character in every aspect. So many years later I stand in front of my beloved Gurudev. Gurudev spiritual life, is not an easy task, as many of us initially contemplate, especially in the material world, where Maya has made her nest everywhere. But you are the one who -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- All glories to you Gurudev on this most auspicious day of your vyasa-puja. I beg for your mercy so, that we can be with you for every vyasa-puja. Please forgive me if I have committed any offences, at your lotus feet. Gurudev ki Jay Your most fallen servant Nandakishore Das South Africa Kishorie Radha Dasi Krsna prestaya bhu-tale Srimati Nava Yogendra _ Svamin Iti namine. Nameste Prabhupada deva Nama sankirtan pracarine Nirivisesa- sunyavadi samasta-desa-tarine Dear Gurudev Please accept my humble obeisance's, at your lotus feet, which is like the jasmine flower that Lord Jagannath adores so dearly. All glories to Sri Sri Gour Radha Krishna, All glories to Sri Ugra Nrsimgha dev and Prahlad Maharaj. All glories to Sri Sri Sita, Rama, Laxmana and Hanuman All glories to Srila Prabhupada. Maharaj your short association in Udhampur dhama, is still so fresh in my mind, you are so kind and extremely thoughtful- in your dealings with all your disciples. You are the spiritual master, who can smash Maya's domain and purify ones heart. The sound of your name. H.H Nava Yogendra, flows like, nectar eternally situated, at the lotus feet, of Sri Sri Gour Radha Krishna. The depth of your compassion goes beyond my imagination. On this most auspicious day of your Vyasa Puja, I appreciate your qualities, and your profound greatness, as a true spiritual master... acharya. I beg for your mercy, and for your forgiveness, for any offence I might have made against you. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Guru Maharaj Ki Jay!!! Your eternal servant Kishorie Radha Dasi South Africa Balabhadra Das Hare Krishna. Maharaj, it is said, that the demigods watch from the heavenly planets, how the vaisnavas share loving bonds with each other, how the separation from the spiritual master tears the heart of the disciple in many pieces scattering it, into the melancholy atmosphere. It has been, just a few months since, I have drowned in the ecstasy of your association, and yet it feels like an entire life of Lord Brahma. In this age of Kali yuga, which is tormented by quarrel and hypocrisy, Maya is always playing tricks on my inferior mind, and it is very hard, to protect oneself from such obstacles. You have become a strong inspiration in my life, being my role model in Krsna consciousness, giving me strength to fight maya, with our most powerful weapon, the Holy name. I can never repay you for the memories and service you have given to Srila Prabupada and Iskcon, however Maharaj, there is one thing that I can do, and that is, to glorify your name in this material world till my last breath has surpassed. It is only, the most special souls, which the Lord sends to this material abode, to help cleanse the fallen of the fallen, like myself. I pray by the mercy of Lord Gauranga Mahaprabhu, that the Lord lets me relish your association, for many life times, so that I may serve you, as my unconditional master. In this way the Lord shall be pleased with me, and by your mercy, consider me the servant of the servant of Krsna. Please forgive me if I have committed any false acts against you. Thank you, for being so kind to a useless soul like myself, I wish I could try and become only a fraction of the vaisnava you are, and in this way my life will be successful. H.H Navayogendra Swami Ki Jay! Your aspiring servant Balabhadra das South Africa -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Krishna Prestaya Bhutale Srimati Nava Yogendra Swami iti Namine. It is always nice to receive a call of Kunti Mataji anytime as she is always enthusiastic and inspires me to be more spiritual. Few days back when I received the call, I expected it to be another regular inspiration calls, but it had a rocket booster on that day. She asked me to write something for the "Vyasa Pooja" book she is planning to publish this year. I really felt very happy that my dearest God-Sister has taken up this special offering for our Guru Dev for his 61th Appearance Day. All glories, All glories to Kunti Mataji. I was aspiring to be our Guru Maharaj's disciple for almost 3 years. I thought I am doing my 16 rounds regularly and following 4 regulative principles, so Guru Maharaj will/should give me initiation. There should not be any problem. Even temple president gave Green Signal. But when Maharaj was in Vancouver and interviewed me, my train got derailed, in spite of the Green Signal. I felt as if I fell down to the ground from the sky. That's how the Guru Maharaj first killed my "False Ego" in me. That's the time I have realized how fallen conditioned soul am I. I became humble. But believe me, Guru Maharaj did give me the initiation in my dream. When I called Guru Maharaj and told him the same, he said "Tere pe Krishna Baghavan ki aur Prabhupada ki KRIPA hai". Those were the best sweet words I ever heard. You can see from this our Guru Dev's causeless mercy upon all of us. When we need to be disciplined he is very strict and heavy, but other times he is very kind and soft. I might be the new disciple of Guru Maharaj. Just few months old I got initiated on my 50th Appearance Day December 5, 2006 in Vancouver, Canada. I called him sometime in November 2006 and requested him to come to Vancouver and give me the initiation. In spite of his busy schedule and even cancelling one marriage appointment, he came to Vancouver to uplift this fallen conditioned soul. Thank You - Guru Maharaj, Thank You very much for your mercy upon me. As every disciple aspires, I want to be one of your pet disciples and win over your heart by serving you humbly all the time. First time I visited Udhampur in June, 2006 - I thought of staying 2 days and go to Vrindavan to get inspired at Srila Prabhupada's Samadhi to be more committed to ISKCON. When I told my plans, Guru Maharaj immediately said - "Stay here only. Is this not Vrindavan?" As I learnt never disobey the orders of Guru Maharaj, as he is the true representative of Lord Sri Krishna himself. So I said to myself _ "if you want to be his disciple, you better follow his instructions." Believe me, had I not listened to him then, you wouldn't have found this Manu Das as he is now. Once again Thank You Guru Dev, Thank You very much. Those 5 days of my stay at Udhampur was very memorable. I got a chance to mix with my would be God-brothers and God-sisters. The love and affection of everyone has really made me feel that it is my own home, sweet home. Especially the way Bharati Mataji took care of me. Of course as everyone knows the best way to reach someone's heart is through his or her stomach. She is ever ready to feed any number of stomachs at -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- During those same 5 days, I have seen Mullahs (Muslim preachers) coming with their disciples to listen to Guru Maharaj's discourses. They even enjoyed our prasadam. I have served myself to all the Muslim members who came to the temple. That was the first time I saw Muslims in our temples. So you can imagine the purity our Guru Dev has in his heart for every fallen conditioned soul without any discrimination of caste and creed. During the same time, I have noticed that we never appeal for the donations at our temple's functions. But in other temples we do appeal. Still lots of activities keep going on over here at Udhampur. Lots of people, buses loaded with people come night and day. All are very well taken care. This shows the confidence of our Guru Maharaj and how much he depends upon his Guru Maharaj, our grand father, Srila Prabhupada and Their Lordships Sri Sri Gaur Radha Krishna. `Grand Father' word reminds me what Guru Maharaj mentioned to me just few days after my initiation ceremony. It seems Prabhupada once told to his disciples - "you are more dear to my spiritual master, Srila Bhakti Siddhanta Saraswati Goswami, than to me, as you are his grand children." So I immediately told to our Guru Maharaj - "I am more dear to Srila Prabhupada than you, Guru Dev." Then Guru Dev said - "No. I am more dear to Prabhupada." But I told with a victorious voice - "No. Maharaj. No. You cannot be, as I am his grandson. I am more dear to him than you." For this our Poojya Guru Dev just laughed and said "Tu bada badmash hai". This shows how lovingly one can interact with our Guru Dev, if he is humble and respectful to him. Another milestone of Guru Maharaj is the most beautiful monument of our Udhampur ISKCON temple itself, which he has built single-handed. Its cost is Rs 5 Crores. I asked how much loan did we take to build such a huge beautiful temple? To my surprise Maharaj said - ZERO. Once again this fallen conditioned soul got enlightened with the power of our dear Guru Dev. During those 5 days of my stay at Udhampur in June 2006, Guru Dev told me about his plans of expanding the temple complex to the adjacent lands on 3 sides of the temple. He wanted to have a FREE Boarding School with 250 children and a girl's hostel too. I do not know what has inspired me then but I told Maharaj humbly that I would try to raise funds for the Boarding School. Now I can say it was Guru Dev who has inspired me to commit to his seva. Now I raise and donate funds for the "Orphanage cum FREE Boarding School". With his kripa let's hope we will build it soon. In any place discipline is very important. That one I have noticed at Udhampur ISKCON temple. All are cordially working. All are very friendly. No one is paid like at other temples in the world. Let me put it this way. There is something in the atmosphere of this temple. There is lots of BHAKTI in their service. As Guru Dev rightly puts - that "PURE BHAKTI" will flow from this temple to other parts of the world. I am convinced beyond any doubt that this will come TRUE soon. If any of you have any doubt what I am writing here - then you must visit and stay at Udhampur temple for at least few days and take part in different services they are offering. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- We need not worry about our present and future as we all have come to the right place, that is the "LOTUS FEET" of our Guru Maharaj. He used to arrange special "Raj Bhoga" for me. That's the speciality of our Guru Dev as spiritual father towards his spiritual children. Thank you Guru Dev. During the same LA trip - I noticed how much he commands respect from others. My stay with him at Dr. Nanda and Urmila Mata's place was also a memorable one. This couple are very opulent yet very humble. This shows how our Guru Maharaj is welcomed by one and all in this society. During this stay I had a great opportunity to learn how a disciple must behave with his Guru Maharaj. He was very kind to forgive my mistakes and teach me the correct ones. This shows his willingness to pick up any fallen condition soul, like me and put them on the right track. Thank You, Guru Dev for your forgiveness and accepting me to be your disciple. Let me tell you all openly that I am his son and he is my father. Now I can fully understand why Kunti Mata always tells me that Guru Dev is her father. Kunti Mataji, we are really very lucky to have a father like him. Let's always stay in his Chatra-Chaya and serve him till we leave this mortal body of ours. As I already mentioned earlier I am really very proud to have such wonderful God-Brothers and God-Sisters. Thank You Guru Dev for giving us such a wonderful "Spiritual Family" on this earth. One more thing I learnt from him - if we commit any sin, he has to take it. So becoming disciple is not an easy thing, especially when we know how powerful the MAYA is in this Kali Yuga. But one thing I am noticing since I took shelter at our Guru Dev's Lotus feet, the same MAYA does not disturb me as much as it used to. This is because I always think of Guru Dev whenever such temptations come to my mind. He made me strong and I could declare the war against this MAYA, under able guidance of our Guru Maharaj. So much strength one gets only when he or she has the blessings of such senior Vaisnava. Let me assure you all that we are all under a very able commander-in-chief to win over the Maya of this Kali Yuga. Coming to his open and kind-heartedness. Maharaj, always distributes gifts wherever he goes. Some people did tell me - "He is a Sanyasi. We should be giving him. But he always brings something for the other and for us." This shows his unlimited love and affection to all the fallen conditioned souls, like me. I must also mention about his tough heartedness too. On my initiation day, he was briefing about the 10 offences one should avoid while chanting the holy names. It was so powerful that all the devotees did praise him. But one couple, which are my family friends, not devotees, felt that he is very tough. Next day she called me and said "Are you sure you want to be his disciple. He sounds very tough. You better keep some exits to come out." I told her that my Guru Dev is very soft and kind hearted. But she insisted that I must plan my exits. That shows how much she and her husband were scared with the preaching of our Guru Dev on the very auspicious ceremony of my real appearance day in this (spiritual) -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I really love and enjoy our Guru Dev's preaching in Hindi. As Maharaj himself puts about me - Yey pagal ho tha hai - mere Hindi pravachan sunke. Once I was literally crying when Guru Maharaj sang Hindi Bhajan "Yeh Duniya Do Din Ka Musafir Khana" at Vedic Cultural Society in Richmond, Vancouver. I was crying not for the meaning of the song …for the happiness that I got such a nice Guru Maharaj. I kept on thanking Radharani and Lord Sri Krishna for giving me such a great Soul as my Guru Dev. He touched all the souls that were listening to him on that day. Aren't we lucky to get him as our mentor in this Kali Yuga? It is time for us to at least start thinking on how can we repay him for all the troubles he is taking to purify our contaminated hearts. "United we stand, Divided we fall." So let's all be united and serve our Guru Maharaj sincerely and pleasingly. This will be our "Guru Dakshina" to our Guru Maharaj. I think I wrote quite a lot. If I keep thinking of our beloved Guru Dev … I can keep writing like this more and more. For now let me stop here with my dandavat pranams to our dear most Guru Dev`s lotus feet. Thank You Prabhupada, Caitanya Mahaprabhu, Radharani and Lord Sri Krishna for giving me such a wonderful spiritual master. This reminds me how I got such a nice Guru Maharaj. Every one said that to choose your Guru Maharaj, you must ask questions and see whether he can satisfy you. This method I rejected saying that I don't want to interview my Guru Dev. So I just kept on praying to Prabhupada and Sri Sri Radha Madhana Mohana to send my Guru Dev to pick me up from this fallen conditioned state. One day I was surprised to receive a "Thanking Letter" with blessings for my very little, insignificant donation for the Maharaj when he was in Vancouver. That was my first spiritual letter and I really felt very happy to receive it, especially the blessings in black and white. I did donate to many other Sanyasis, but I did not receive any letter from them. So I took this as Sri Sri Radha Madhana Mohana's and Srila Prabhuapada's causeless mercy upon me and accepted Nava Yogendra Swami Maharaj as my Diksha Guru Deva. Now let me really end it by sincerely seeking for my Guru Dev`s mercy and guidance till I leave this body and begging him to forgive me for any mistakes I have done so far. I request Their Lordships Sri Sri Gaur Radha Krishna Bhagavan to grant me the strength and courage to serve the lotus feet of my Guru Dev in a pleasing manner to win over his mercy. As Guru Dev always preaches - "one will not get the mercy of Lord Sri Krishna without the mercy of one's Guru and Caitanya Maha Prabhu." Guru Dev you have to teach me even this - how to win over your mercy. I am such a fallen conditioned soul. Please have mercy, have mercy upon all of us. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- His Holiness Nava Yogendra Swami Maharaj ki Jaya. Hare Krishna. With high regards Aap ka sab se BADA Badmash Chela Manu Das Vancouver, Canada Yamuna Devi Dasi Please accept my most humble obeisance offered at your lotus feet. nama om visnu-padaya krsna-presthaya bhu-tale Despite being utterly unqualified to honor you on this most auspicious occasion of your appearance, I am trying to do so anyway, begging for your blessings. Your appearance in this world has been a wonderful benediction, handed to me by the Krishna when I needed it most. You are an ideal spiritual master who teaches not only by his instructions but by his own example as well; an example that I derive great inspiration and strength from; an example that shows an unfathomable faith in Srila Prabhupada, the previous acaryas, and Lord Krishna. In this kali-yuga people fight and quarrel in a world of ignorance, largely devoid of the proper understanding of the basic principle of personal interaction. In this world we all strive for deep and meaningful relationships, but we can't see that such relationships can only exist in relation to the Lord, where purity and compassion are present. Your daily life exemplifies this purity and your endless compassion for the fallen souls proves that it is the core emotion of true devotees. I can only pray that by your mercy one day such compassion will awaken in my heart. Perhaps I can claim some success in spiritual life when I can actually care for my fellow vaishnavas with love and trust, and lift up the conditioned souls from the darkness with the same affection as you have shown me. Please bless me to become free from lust, envy and greed, so that I may start following your example and apply it to every aspect of my life. Please give me strength, so that I, too, may develop these wonderful qualities of spiritual love, faith, perseverance, humility, and compassion that you have imbibed into your whole being. I am simply crying out to you for the benediction that can help me rid myself of the hunger for sense gratification and the false ego. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Your servant Yamuna Devi Dasi Alachua, Florida U.S.A. Satya Das caksur unmilitam yena tasmai sri-gurave namah Today is the most auspicious day, the appearance day of Srila Gurudev, and it only because of Guruji's causeless mercy that I am trying to do some devotional service to the Guru and Gauranga. Having limited senses and inability to glorify guru tattava. I simply beg for their mercy and submit a small realization of causeless mercy of guru padpadma "bhayam dvitiyabhinivesatah syad isad apetasya viparyayo 'smrtih tan-mayayato budha abhajet tam bhaktyaikayesam guru-devatatma" ["Fear arises when a living entity misidentifies himself as the material body because of absorption in the external, illusory energy of the Lord. When the living entity thus turns away from the Supreme Lord, he also forgets his own constitutional position as a servant of the Lord. This bewildering, fearful condition is manifested by the potency for illusion, called maya. Therefore, an intelligent person should engage unflinchingly in the unalloyed devotional service of the Lord, under the guidance of a bona fide spiritual master, whom he should accept as his worshipable deity and as his very life and soul." (Srimad Bhagavatam 11.2.37).] "Tan mayayato budha abajet tam" _ an intelligent person in this world, a fortunate soul who has an opportunity to meet a sad-guru, accepts him in this way. By worshiping his lotus feet and considering him his dear-most friend, lord, and master, just like his own family member, he becomes eligible to approach the lotus feet of Sri Krsna. This is an important instruction. The process of accepting Sri guru, serving his lotus feet with one-pointed devotion, and becoming actually tadatmika with him can reverse this condition of being absorbed in maya. Tadatmika means to consider oneself identical with him, in the sense that one has no separate interest other than to please him. His life is only for serving guru; it has no other purpose. When this comes into the life of a disciple, he can then realize the mercy of Sri guru. At that time all instructions of Sri gurudeva will be manifested within his heart and he will definitely achieve perfection even in this very short span of life. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- By the mercy of guru dev Srila Prabhupada causeless mercy also start flowing. There are many realizations and miracle there after but one small incident or realization that I want to share on this auspicious vyas puja is as below. I title it as "Guru dev is very dear to Srila Prabhupada" and Guruji is always with you to fulfil your spiritual desires " ja prasaday puray sarva asha" Few years back when I was in final year of my BE and was preparing for final exams. Every year we use to celebrate the vyas puja of our beloved Gurudev in hostel and then in our flat in Faizpur Maharashtara. There use to be large gathering of students and local people and a full program of celebrations, kirtan, lectures, glorification, guru puja and then feast. Although I was always feeling separation from Gurudev, as I was not able to attend the vyas puja because our final exams were always during the same time so some how I was managing the thirst by celebrating the vyas puja with full capacity as possible and then sharing the day details with guruji, after a day or more. But this year I was all alone, I was in final year and my exams were going on and all my juniors (college juniors) now god brothers who were attending the regular class decided to take initiation form Gurudev this year as their exams were a few days later, even they dropped one practical exam and went for vyas puja 2004. So I was all-alone. It was the day of ekadashi and I was just thinking all these years we use to celebrate the vyas puja with grand celebrations, but how can I do the same this year as I am all alone and exams are also going on. Who will come to attend?. Still I decided to celebrate with whatever capacity, but how? After some hours I was just leaning to the wall and I fell asleep what I saw was that Srila Prabhupada was organizing some program, he was ordering some people to go and arrange stage telling other some other work and so on. I didn't remember all but this much I clearly remember. I woke up and was just thinking what is it ? Some how day passed and next day was Guruji vyas puja, I attended my practical exam and came back and was sitting and thinking how to organize. I thought Ok let me go and bring the fruits and other items for vyas puja. I was just purchasing thing and a group of students were having cold drinks, some of them use to attend the Sunday program in our room. I thought let me tell them to come but again point was their exams are also within some days day. So just at the same time one boy came and said Hare Krishna, I said hare Krishna well there is a program in our flat you are invited and tell all others also, other boy said yes sir we were thinking to come some day, I said Ok then come today. They all got ready and invited some more of there friends. Within half an hour the hall was full, many students and also some local people arrive, some matajis cooked the Prasadam and others boys did the remaining arrangement and by evening everything was ready. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Srila Guru ji is so dear to Srila Prabhupada that he organized such a program within seconds. I realized surely It was all the spiritual arrangement for the pleasure of pure devotee Srila Gurudev to spread his glories and bless the masses and also giving me a lesson that you can do nothing you are just a instrument in the mission of Prabhupada and only the causeless mercy of gurudev is making you instrument. Therefore I pay again and again my heartfelt obeisances to my spiritual master and simply beg for the causeless mercy. Srila Gurudev Ke Jai Sri Vyas puja 2007 Ke Jai Gaurpremanandi Hari Hari Bol Trying to be your servant Satya Das Banglore Jai Jagdish Das Hare Krishna ! Please accept my most humble obeisances unto the divine dust of your lotus feet, which are transcendental foodstuff for those desiring pure devotion .all glories to your divine grace who is an ocean of mercy and very kind upon the fallen soul like myself. Gurudev! Today is the most auspicious day your divine appearance day. I offer my heartily greetings on the sixty first anniversary of your divine appearance in this planet for showing the real path to conditioned souls with the torchlight of transcendental Krishna consciousness knowledge. Gurudev! Your lotus feet are the greatest treasure with in three worlds, which are especially designed to give cooling shade to all the afflicted souls in this material world. O Nityanandpada! Your lotus feet derive their cooling powers from the lotus feet of Lord Nityananda which are as cool as ten millions full moons (Nitai pada kamala koti chandra susitala).The most secretly guarded hidden treasure of love of Krishna is available to those who take shelter of your divine lotus feet and you are so merciful upon fallen souls and distributing the rare treasure of Krishna prema openly. Lord Krishna if pleased may -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Gurudev! You are elevated soul & personal servitor of Krishna; you have no need to follow vaidhi bhakti, even though your heart is always dripping with the mellows of loving ecstasy, even though your eye are always decorated with the tears of love and your throat chokes up while chanting the holy names. You cover all the ecstasies just to train us. You are acting as a normal person to teach us how to do devotional service or understand Krishna consciousness and get rid from the cycle of birth & death. Gurudev! You are the true representative of Krishna. Holy names delivers one who has committed an offense to Lord but if one commits an offense to you there is no mean of his deliverance because you are very dear to Krishna and Krishna can't tolerate it & not forgive the offender until you forgive him. Gurudev! You are non-different to Krishna, it is stated by Lord and his pure devotees himself in Vedic scriptures "saksad dharitvian samast sastriar" Guru Krishna-rupa hana sastrera pramane Guru rupe-Krishna kripa karena bhakt-gane "According to the opinion of all revealed scriptures, the spiritual master is non-different from Krishna. Krishna in the form of the spiritual master delivers his devotees". Jive saksat nahi tate guru caittya rupe Siksa guru haya Krishna mahant svrope "Since one cannot visually experience the person of super soul. He appears before us as a librated devotee such a spiritual master is none other than Krishna himself". Gurudev! You are very merciful & compassionate to conditioned soul like me, with the causeless mercy of Krishna; fortunately I got such a spiritual master like you. Sometimes when I do any mistake or not do my service properly I feel that you are away from me or unpleased with me & when I mend myself I feel you near & pleased with me. I do many mistakes due to my conditioned nature continuously but you are very compassionate and worried for our conditioned stage. Your saintly nature always forgives us continuously. Sometimes I am lack courage, feel alone or think that so much time has passed but I have not dreamt you, immediately you come in my dream and in this way so many times you have showered your mercy and affection. Gurudev! When I examine myself I find nothing of value. I am low, fallen, and full of vices and devoid of strength. I have only hope of your mercy. Please give me ability to act according to you and could understand your bhawna "Krishna bhawna". I want to purify my self from all contaminations by which I could serve you in this life and after this life in the spiritual abode. I beg to you please save me from the contamination & clutches of illusion and provide me devotional service. Your ineligible servant Jai Jagdish Das Iskcon, Amritsar -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Srimate Nava Yogendra-Swamin Iti Namine Namaste Prabhupada Deve Nama Sankirtan Pracarine Nirvisesa _Sunyavadi Samasta _Desa-Tarine Dear Nava Yogendra Swami Maharaj, Please accept my humble obeisances at your lotus feet, on this auspicious day of your Vyas Puja. All Glories to Srila Prabhupada. All glories to Your Divine Grace. As it is stated in Caitanya-caritamrita: "tata krsna bhaje, kore gurura sevan maya-jala chute pay krsnera caran"[ madya lila c.c. 22.25] "As the conditioned soul engages in the service of the Lord and simultaneously carries out the orders of his spiritual master and serves him, he can get out of the clutches of maya and become eligible for the shelter at Krsna's lotus feet" So, on this day, the commemoration of your most auspicious appearance day, I would like to rededicate myself to your Divine service. I pray that I be given strength and intelligence to properly serve you and please you to the best of my ability. Eleven years back you came to South Africa for four days. The devotees here still hanker for your association, and I am sure that by the mercy of Srila Prabhupada, and Lord Krishna, you would one day be back in South Africa. Some how by some inconceivable mercy I have come in contact with Your Divine Grace, which is undoubtly a great benediction. By your association devotional service becomes very simple because the perfect devotee sets an example of what he preaches. I want to take this opportunity to thank you for being very kind and merciful upon this fallen soul and I humbly pray to always be recipient of your mercy and that by your constant grace, I can make some endeavor in trying to assist you in your most magnanimous mission of making Srila Prabhupada Ashram projects at Jammu and Kashmir areas of India, a big success. Your tape ministry is now well known in South Africa and abroad. All your tape recordings are being transferred onto DVD discs. His Divine Grace, NavaYogendra Swami Maharaj Ki jai!!! Hari bol, Thanks a lot Your servant Krishna Prem Das Port Elizabeth South Africa -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Please accept my most humble obeisances at the dust of your lotus feet. All glories to your Divine grace who is very merciful upon the fallen soul like myself. I was eagerly looking for Krishna Bhakti. But I was not aware of the right path with which I can start my journey to reach my real target Shree Krishna. I was looking for a real devotee of Shree Krishna, to whom I can surrender myself and follow his rules and regulations. By the grace of almighty Shree Krishna I was lucky to watch Your holy self and listen to your spiritual sermon in the year 2000. Your holy self had enough kindness to teach Maha mantra. "Hare Krishna, Hare Krishna, Krishna Krishna, Hare Hare! Hare Ram, Hare Ram, Ram Ram Hare Hare". The spark of bhakti which your holy self has put in me and your instructions to chant the Maha Mantra, generated a fire of truth and power of Sri Krishna in me. I was the happy to have all this and thought in mind to have more of your kindness. I wanted to become your follower. I prayed to Lord Krishna so that I may become capable of serving you as my Guru. During the course of Vyas Puja 2006, I prayed to your holy self to accept my request and give me Guru diksha. Your holy self accepted my request and finally I got initiated. That was the greatest day of my life. I felt great piece of mind and satisfaction. Gurudev as you know that I am the most fallen among your disciples and I have no qualification material or spiritual but still I have a desire to become your true follower. Guru ji only by your mercy this can happen. Please don't ignore me. According to sastra the Guru is non different from Krishna and it is through the Guru that Krishna bestows mercy upon his devotees. Maharaj you are so merciful to all fallen souls, a true disciple of Srila Prabhupada and you are one of most prominent preachers of Iskcon. You are very expert in presenting vedanta philosophy. You are equally attractive to the fallen conditioned souls who do not follow vedic culture. Maharajji by hearing your kirtan and speech we feel very happy. Guru Maharaj we are unable to appreciate all your qualities, but you are the only source of light in our life. Please give us your blessing so that we can spread this Krishna consciousness to our family and the whole world. Gurudev! I hope that in future too you will keep pouring mercy upon me so that I may not deviate from the path of real progress and my ultimate destination. All glories to Guru & Gauranga. All glories to your Divine Grace. At last I beg you to forgive for my offencess if any, committed at your lotus feet. Your lowest servant Achyut Ray Das Udhampur -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Hare Krishna I offer my humble and respectful obeisance's unto your lotus feet. Today is a very auspicious day to glorify your divine personality on your 61th birthday. Being it your 61st birthday this day has become more significant and we all wish you a long life with good health so that your divinity remain guiding the fallen souls like us and many others for many, many years to come. Your servant Vaishno Devi Dasi Toronto, Canada Rishi Isvar Das, Lalita Devi Dasi & Usha Caksur unmilitam yena tasmai Sri- Gurave namah Nama Om Visnu padaya Krisna presthaya bhutale Srimate Nava Yogendra Swami iti namine Namaste Prabhupada deva Nama sankirtan Pracharine Nirvisesa Sunyavadi Samasta desa tarine Our Dearest Guru Dev Hare Krishna. Please accept our most humble obeisances at the dust of your tender, worshipful lotus feet. All glories to you, Oh perfect spiritual master! All glories to this most auspicious day of your Vyasa-puja. All glories to Srila Prabhupada saviour of the whole world. Guru Dev we are very sorry we cannot attend your Vyasa puja in India to get your special mercy on this auspicious day of yours, hoping Lord Krsna will provide us a day for attending your Vyasa-puja in the future in India. Guru Dev thank you very much to give us the opportunity to glorify you, our beloved Guru Dev on this auspicious day. Guru Dev we have great regards for your divine self, you have an ever smiling face. Always charming and chanting, you never forget to give sweet prasadam to all your children. There are countless qualities in your divine self. Guru Dev, you always remind us about your divine devotional service towards your spiritual master (Srila Prabhupada) by preaching the message of Lord Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu around the world, and encourage everyone to chant the Maha mantra: Hare Krsna Hare Krsna Krsna Krsna Hare Hare Hare Rama Hare Rama Rama Rama Hare Hare. Guru Dev as for all of us, fallen soul at home we are all doing well by the grace of the Lord. Once again Guru Dev please accept our humble -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- We remain your humble servants Rishi Isvar Das, Lalita Devi Dasi & Usha U.S.A. Vedya Devi Dasi Dear Guru Maharaj, Please accept my most humble obeisances. All glories to your Holiness. All Glories to Srila Prabhupada. All Glories to all the assemble devotees. Guru Maharaj on this most auspicious day of your appearance, I Vedya devi dasi thank you for accepting me as a disciples of yours and I am attempting to glorifly you even through I am not qualified to do so. Guru Maharaj since I met you and accepted initation from you my whole life has been change in so many ways such as listening to your kirtan, your instruction, your association I find I am becoming more attached to chanting of the holy name of Krishna and reading Srila Prabhupada books. Guru Maharaj, you are the most wonderful person I have ever met. I am very thankful that through you I am getting a chance to chant Hare Krishna in a bonafied way. Guru Maharaj I pray for your blessing. Please see my fallen condition and continue to bless me until I can serve you nicely in the mission of Srila Prabhupada. Thank you Your true servent Vedya Devi Dasi Guyana S.A. Atreya Rishi Das and Anasuya Devi Dasi Srimate navayogendra swami eti namina Namaste prabhupad deve nam sankirtan pracharine Nirvishesh shunya vadi samast desh tarine All glories to our most beloved Gurudev Srila Nityanandpad, -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Please accept our most humble obeisance's unto the dust of your lotus feet. Gurudev, on this very auspicious day of your appearance, we are experiencing very intense feelings of joy and sorrow. Joy, because of the mercy you have bestowed and continue to bestow upon undeserving beings like us. And sorrow, because we feel that we have not been able to come up to your expectations of us. However you are always so merciful and compassionate towards such fallen souls like us, just like a father who always wants good for his children, you give us the realization to see our faults. Deep in our hearts we feel your presence always with us… guiding us at every step. Dear Gurudev, we also take this opportunity to express our deepest gratitude to you for being there as our eternal savior and well wisher. O Gurudev, we pray sincerely at your lotus feet for your mercy, so that we remain steadfast in devotional service Sri guru charan padma Kevala bhakti sadma Bando mui savadhana mate Jahara prasada bhai,e bhava toriya jai Krsna prapti hoi jaha ha te "The lotus feet of spiritual master are the abode of pure devotional service. I bow down to those lotus feet with great care and attention. My dear brother (Mind!) it is through the grace of the spiritual master that we cross this material existence and obtain Krsna. Your children Atreya Rishi Das and Anasuya Devi Dasi (Drs. Arun and Reetika Dhir) Australia Shaligram Das Please accept my prostrated obeisances at Your most merciful lotus feet, where I seek to have my eternal shelter. srimate Navayogendra Swamin iti namine namas te Prabhupad deve gaura vani pracarine nirvisesa sunyavadi Samast Deshe Tarine !! All Glories to Your Divine Grace! How can I describe Your glory? I am just an insignificant disciple. However, one becomes purified by trying to speak something about You. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- As it is said.. "Ei Rupe Brahmande Ghurite Kono Bhagyaban Jiv GURU KRISHNA Kripa Pai Bhakti Lata Beej " All Glories to Merciful Gurudev who is cultivating Devotional plant Seed (Bhakti Lata Beej) to all the fallen souls all over the world taking severe penances and tolerating all physical pains to satisfy the will of Krishna and his devotees. This is evident from the severe hardship Srila Gurudev has taken in his recent visit to Maharahstra (Faizpur, Raver, etc.), Bhopal and other interior cities and villages. Srila Gurudeva has also blessed many people in Western countries like US. People in Washington, Seattle were amazed to see sincere and true follower of His Divine Grace A.C Bhativedanta Srila Prabhupada. People's lives get filled with enthusiasm towards Krishna Bhakti by just a fraction of association with You. "Lava Matra Sadhu Sange Sarva Sidhi Hay ". All Glories to Our Gurudev Whose Bhajans has converted many hardhearted souls into vaishnavas. This is from my recent experiences in Bhopal. I simply distributed Srila Gurudev's Bhajans cassettes to some people, which drastically changed their minds. Now by Krishna's mercy Your Bhajans are widely available on the internet and my humble request to my God Brothers to please, spread Srila Gurudev's Bhajan\Audio Cassettes and CDs. Srila Gurudev's bhajans are also available now at Spanish Fork UTAH internet radio service and other internet sites. All Glories to our most beloved Spiritual Master whose simplicity and dedication towards Gaur Radha Krishna has conquered not only the minds of his disciples but also general mass including children, old people, cows, trees etc. In Lord Caitanya's teachings to Srila Sanatana Goswami, He has said: mahat-krpa vina kona karme a `bhakti' naya krsna-bhakti dure rahu, samsara nahe ksaya "Unless one is favored by a pure devotee, one cannot attain the platform of devotional service. To say nothing of krsna-bhakti, one cannot even be relieved from the bondage of material existence." (CC Madhya 22.51) Srila Gurudev, I am Your eternal servant. Your mercy is what I am made of. Whatever I try to do is only for Your pleasure, and whatever I am able to do is only due to Your causeless mercy. Please bless me that I never deviate from the shelter of Your divine lotus feet and can use all my energy, ability and resources for Your divine mission. Please allow me to remain in Your service eternally. Your insignificant servant Shaligram Das Hyderabad India -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Please accept my humble obeisances at your lotus feet. All glories to you, Srila Prabhupad's favourite servant. Whenever I drive, I listen to your tapes singing bhajans and Praphupada's glories. It encourages me to do service to Srila Prabhupada. And it reminds me that how dedicated you are in spreading the message of Lord Chaitanya Mahaprabhu and Srila Prabhupada, saviour of the whole world. Please keep inspiring me. Your servant Laxman Das Sanfransisco, U.S.A. Trimurti Das Hare Krishna, Today on the occasion of "Vyas Pooja" I am getting a chance to glorify my Guru Maharaj. And I will try to make this a chance a golden chance. First I would like to be thankful to my Guru Maharaj, who is my life saviour. He has saved me from so many sinful activities. Actually I am surprised to realize that how merciful he is, because I can see that I am so much degraded and fallen soul still Maharaj ji has showered his causeless mercy on me and just by this mercy I am trying to clean my heart and also trying to be Krishna conscious. I am also trying to engage myself into the service of "Guru and Gauranga". Because of Guruji's mercy I am trying to be human from demon. I am incapable of doing any devotional service, but because of your love & your mercy I am trying. Srila Prabhupada is very merciful and only because of His mercy, I am getting the mercy of my Guru. I have heard from some Prabhuji that Srila Prabhupada taught us two main things which are as below:- 1. Cleanliness and 2. Devotional service to Krishna. Guru Maharaj is very strict about these things. Guruji also says that "Suddhena satta", means we should make our actions , thinking and existence very pure. Maharaj ji says that Lord Krishna is "Param Suddh" and if we want Krishna then we will have to be much, much, more pure. Here I want to share one of my experience. Once Srila Prabhupada came in my dreams and gave me some instructions regarding how to progress in devotional service. I was simply amazed. One thing is confirmed that one can get Radha Krishna's mercy only and only by Guru's mercy. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- So Guruji Please, Please, Please give your blessings and causeless mercy to this beggar. A Permanent beggar of the dust of your "Lotus feet". Trimurti Das Maharastra Padmanabh Das ¬ vKku frfe'kU/L; tkuktu 'kyk;kA p{kq:fUefyra ;su yLeS Jh xq:os ue%AA I did so many sins during my childhood and I never got happy and was always disturbed. But when I came in contact with Maharaji's disciples, I saw that they were always happy and followed the spiritual principles very strictly. Then they told me about Srila Prabhupada and his mercy on fallen souls. I was very much attracted to Srila Prabhupada & I wanted to have the darsan of Srila Prabhupada. But I got shocked when I heard that Prabhupada is not present physically in this world any more. I really wanted to meet Srila Prabhupada and my heart broke down. I used to admire Prabhupada's teaching of simple living. simple nature, high thinking and his quality to love every jiva. After few months I attended a lecture of Maharajji. I got shocked to see that Maharaj ji's voice vibration was same as Prabhupada's voice. I felt that Maharajji is also simple like a Prabhupada. Ever since I had heard about Prabhupada's disappearance I never felt good but when I heard Maharajji's lecture I became very happy because I saw that Maharajji was a true representative of Srila Prabhupada. From that time I got changed & I started to follow four regulative principles and do 16 rounds of Japa every day. This is the effect of Maharajji's "Vapu Sanga" only, but when I met Maharajji on 16th Jan. 2004, in Mumbai I felt that this bhajan of Narottamdas Thakur reflected my position xaxkj ij'k gksbys i'pkl ikouA n'kZu ifo=k d'kZ ,bZ yksekj xq.kAA Generally we see that in every relation there is selfishness. But I see Maharajji love every person without any selfishness. Nowadays all the so called sadhus have one strategy only that is to rob their disciple of their money but Maharajji robs his disciples of their hearts by giving them so much prem. From that time I decided to become Maharajji's disciples. But I didn't know whether Maharajji will accept me or as I was very fallen from my childhood. But I had faith in my spiritual master and I was accepted by Maharajji. I always did offences on Maharajji's lotus feet. But every time Maharajji excused me. I always try to leave this Krsna consciousness, but Maharajji has caught my hand very tightly and therefore I am able to remain in association of the devotees. Now I am waiting for that day when my spiritual master will take me back to Godhead, VRINDAVAN. Servant of the servant of Srila Gurudev Padmanabh Das Maharastra -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Om Ajnana-timirandhasya Jnananjana salakeya. Chakshur unmilitam yena tasmai Sri Gurave namah. "I was born in the darkest ignorance and my spiritual master opened my eyes with the torch of knowledge. I offer my respectful obeisances on to him." I don't have any words to glorify even one percent of the glories of my spiritual master but still by the mercy of vaishnavas I am trying to glorify the kindness of my spiritual master. I have never seen such kindness which does not have any limit. I had seen that, in this material world, there is nobody who loves the soul, then what about a fallen soul like me. But my spiritual master loves me, which I don't know why. Just as hungry person knows how much hungry he is, similarly I know how fallen I am Still his loves me, that's why in a dream he told me I have taken eight birth in material world to take you back home back to God. Still you are not making yourself serious and this is the last chance for you. So become serious because you have to go back in this life itself. When I told him the same dream, he appreciated this dream by his sweet smile. And I also felt the same relationship when I met him first time in Surat by the grace of Satyadas prabhu in 2001. From that day I decided to spent my life in shade of lotus feet of my spiritual master. On the special occasion of Vyas puja I am begging for blessings of my spiritual master by paying humble obeisances on to the lotus feet of my spiritual master. A permanent beggar of blessings Sachinandandas Das Maharastra Nachiketa Das ALL GLORIES TO OUR GURUDEV We all know that our spiritual progress depends on the mercy of our spiritual master. Without the mercy of "Gurudev", we can't progress on the spiritual path. I would like to share my realizations of "Guru Maharaj". We all know very well. Srila Guru Maharaj is too much merciful. When I met Guru Maharaj in Pune for the first time, I felt so much happiness & peace. It was a time when I was in initial stages as only 14-15 days had passed when I joined with devotees at Faizpur. On my second meeting with Guru Maharaj in "Vrindavan" during "Bhagavat Saptah". I realized that when I am near to Gurudev my mind doesn't wonder here and there but is automatically engaged in Krishna Consciousness and I get ultimate peace and joy. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Nachiketa Das Maharastra Sadhna Devi Dasi Hare Krishna, Regards to you. On the auspicious occasion of your birthday, Please accept my heartiest congratulations. My prayer to God Almighty is to provide you with healthy living and long life. Now to the attention of the readers, I would like to explain an incident in my life. Once, a pravachan by Guru Maharaj was held. I went there, heard his pravachan and told my God sister about the problem of my son who was not getting a job. She went to Guru Maharaj and told him about me. He lovingly gave blessings. Soon my son got a good job and now he is living a happy life with his family. This was a miraculous happening. I am very grateful to Guru Maharaj for his kindness. Always in your service. Your servant Sadhna Devi Dasi Jammu Ranti Dev Das Dandwat pranam in lotus feet of Guru Maharaj ji on the prestigious occasion of Vyas Puja and I pray to Sri Sri Gaur Radha Krishna to keep you healthy and prosperous so that you can spread the message of Krishna Bhakti around the whole world. Our Guru Maharaj Ji is the best, very pious and simple person in this world. By profession I am a doctor and in my practice I have seen many miracles of Krishna Bhakti. I am writing about one of them. About two years back, a 10 years old girl came in my clinic who was suffering from utricaria. I gave her an injection. But I was shocked to see that her pulse collapsed and she turned pale but when I prayed to Guru Maharaj Ji, I was astonished to see that she became alright within 5 minutes without giving any medicine. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- All Glories to Guru Maharaj Ji Yours servant Ranti Dev Das Pundri Tulasi Devi Dasi Srimate Nav Yogendra Swamin iti namine Namaste Prabupad Deve Naam-sankirtan-pracarine Nirvisesa-sunyavadi-samasta-desa-tarine "All glories to Shri Shri Nityanandpad Maharaj" Dear Guru Maharaj Please accept my multiple humble obeisances unto your Divine Lotus Feet on the occasion of your Vyas Puja. Dear Gurudev, who can glorify you? It is not in our capacity to glorify a pure soul like you, and if I'm able to present to you this offering, it is only through your causeless mercy on this fallen soul. Gurudev, I am so fallen with the accumulation of sins of all previous births and this birth that I do not find myself qualified to glorify you. It is up to you to look upon this useless person and shower your blessings so that I can be of some use towards the entire mankind. Without your blessings and happiness I cannot make progress at all in devotion, and chant the Holy name. "The secret of success in spiritual life is in satisfying the spiritual Master and thereby getting his sincere blessings." (Prabupada Lilamrita) It has been one year, in this lifetime, since you have taken me under your wings and I recollect that I have never given you any happiness, and I have committed innumerable offenses at your Lotus Feet. No body will forgive me for the vastness of my offenses, but I have some hope and I pray with folded hands at your Divine Lotus Feet to forgive this fallen atma and give her chance to improve. Since time immemorial you have delivered many fallen souls and have always been merciful to the needy and conditioned souls. This time, please, bless me with your forgiveness to give me strength on the devotional path. I submit myself to you, as a needy and conditioned soul. Gurudev! Please do not leave me alone at any point of time in my life, and I beg you to keep me safe in the dust of your Lotus Feet. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Your most fallen beti Tulasi Devi Dasi Haridwar Rishi Kumar Das Please accept my humble obeisances Maharaj, you are often being described as a devotee with a childs heart, but your preaching activities are like roaring of lion for this material world. When you came to Pune, we have personally visualized that you do 4 to5 programs in a day which counts to almost 6 to7 hours per day, Despite of your advanced age, you are so sincerely dedicated to Srila Prabhupada. You are always a source of inspiration for me & lot of youths in Pune. Maharaj you personally care for us. I would like to share a small incident in this regard. It was last Udhampur Vyas Puja festival (May 2006) that because of my health problem, I was quite reluctant to get up in mangal aarti. It was at about 04:50 am, on 12th may 2006, I dreamed that you had personally come to my room in ashram & seeing for those who are still sleeping & scolded us. I quickly got up & joined in prabhat pheri. It was a wonderful experience alone. I realized that Maharaj you personally care for your disciples. Dear Guruji, Please make me eligible to accept your mercy. A fallen soul Rishi Kumar Das Pune Vishaka Devi Dasi Please accept my humble obeisances. Ever since I met Your Grace. I could see the love you have for Srila Prabhupada. I have learnt from your grace how to follow the foot steps of spiritual master and other Acharyas to achieve perfection in life. You are fearlessly preaching and opening centres in the those parts of India where there is a strong hold of demigod worship. You are certainly pleasing Srila Prabhupada by your service. Please give me your blessings so that I can some day do something to please Srila Prabhupada. OH VAISHNAV THAKUR DAYAR SAGAR Dasdasanudas Vishaka Devi Dasi Washington D.C. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Krisha preshthay bhutale Srimate NavYogendra Swami iti namine Namaste Prabupad Deve Naan sankirtan pracharine Nirvishesh sunyavaadi Samast desh tarriney" Parama Pujya Guru Maharaj Let me wash your lotus feet with tears of my eyes depicting with the transcendental bliss. First of all, please forgive me for any offenses I have committed at your lotus feet. "Kya kahoon men Krishna Kahneyeya ka balpan …………" Similarly, how can I describe the transcendental glories you have showered in my devotional life? "tate Krishna bhaje, kare gurura sevana maya-jala chute, paya Krishnera carana" By worshiping Krishna and rendering service to the spiritual master, one is liberated from the illusory world of maya, and attains the lotus feet of the Lord." Gurudev, my lamentation is that I am such a rascal that I'm unable to serve you properly either by Vani or vapu. So, where is the question of my liberation to achieve the Krishna Prem through his services? "Gurudev, Karuna na haile, Kandia Kandia prana na rakhibo ar." Yes, I can do this which is within my proximity that I will not be able to sustain my life if your mercy will not be upon me. "Pasane kutibe matha, anale pasibo……" "I will break my head and enter into the fire if your mercy will not be there." Guru Maharaj, You have told so many time that your mercy is always there for me, but I am such a stupid that I am not able to have the endeavor for that, what to speak of getting that. Yes, it is the absolute truth. Now I am experiencing it through attaining mangal aroti every day since you instructed me to do so from last couple weeks by your unique desires for this fallen soul. By attaining the mangal aroti everyday without fail through your unflinching mercy, now I am getting the new realizations _ humbleness, servitudes, mistakes done towards senior vaishnavas, and physical benefits such as mental concentrations with nice intelligences. I admit that this benefit of attending mangal aroti is not a mechanical process for any body unless one is so empowered by his or her Guru. This is the secret. Now I am realizing, "how one is empowered by one's guru _ specifically by you _ when one executes the order of his or her Guru." That's why I emphasis on the fact: "tate Krishan bhaje, kare gurura sevana Maya- jala chute, paya krushnera carana." -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- "guru bine koni nai sadhana ……….sri guru carana kamal…………" Guru Maharaj you are so magnanimous and most merciful that you did so much wonderful inconceivable miracles in my life in spite of my so many offenses at your lotus feet; for instance, I recall: when I was in distress and partically had no jobs in New Delhi, you simply glanced over me with your most soothing lotus eyes and asked me if everything was alright. Then I succeeded both materially and spiritually. You holiness removed one of my biggest obstacles through the proper renunciation. Your Divine Holiness blessed me to come to America to execute devotional services at ISKCON CHICAGO. It is a great miracle with wonder that I am able to see the appearance of your Divine Holiness in my dream at my critical time when I think of you so much very often. Once, you came in my dream and predicted that I would be blessed with a son when my wife was pregnant. Then just before my wife's delivery, your Holiness again appeared in my dream and insisted me to find out if your words - dekho tumara beta hua ki nahin, dekhna _ are true or not. After birth, by your mercy this special soul who is my son stared worshiping at the age of one and half years old. His picture given on the website by HH Jyotirmayee Swami of Vivkenanda Society who was much impressed by his activities. You named him as Jagannathdas das when you were at Rathayatra Festival in Vrindavan at the time of his birth. He plays any things he gets as mridanga and gets absorbed in kritan. Jagannath das always singing in his baby language and insisting to hear only Prabhupada kirtan songs. Even when I am forgetting to play your tape or Prabhupada song, he will remind me and tell, "Paa Paa _ means put Prabhupad's song." In the Chicago temple, he takes the Lord's flower and shows to everybody in the temple on Sunday programs. My daughter who is also a special soul sent by you took birth a day before your birthday, named as Mohini by you. She is at her age 6, has been worshiping the family deities at evening every day since three years. Every night she is offering milk to you with deities and making sleep through the Nursing prayer. It is amazing that she is now able to blow conch for the puja. By your mercy she is getting "A" grades in her first grade classes. Another glories to you that I got a wife who never complains for executing the devotional service at our ISKCON Chicago since last 8 years. One of the most important miracle happened in my life here in Chicago through your unalloyed mercy that I was able to buy two Tow houses with in 10 months. One of the Town houses has been donated to your Holiness. Recently when I was in much distress, your Holiness appeared in my dream and solved the problems. Every body here is jealous about my property. They don't know "how I am empowered by my Guru". Who knows my Gurumaharaj better than me?" "Yadyapi amara guru _ caitanyera das Tathapi janiye ami tanhara prakasa" Although I know my guru is a servitor of Sri Caitanya, I know that he is a full manifestation of the Supreme Personality of Godhead Himself. (C.C. adi 1.44) In conclusion, my dear Guru Maharaj ji, I am praying at your lotus feet on your auspicious Vyasa Puja day that If Your Divine Holiness so wish, let me be free from all material entanglement and make me your own personal menial servant who can accompany with you all the time wherever you may be on the preaching mission of Lord Sri Chaitanya, and also empower me to renounce all worldly affairs as soon as possible to have sannyasa in your physical presence before you depart to join in Madhurya lila in Goloka Vrindavan, and also facilitate me the privilege to carry your words in my heart to execute without any -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Thanking you Your humble servant- dog Karunanidhi Das ISKCON, Chicago Krishna Das srimate navayogendra swamin iti namine. namaste prabhupada deva naam sankirtan pracharne, nirvishesh sunnyavadi samasta desa tarane." Please accept my most humble obeisances at your divine lotus feet. All glories to your divine grace for carrying forward the divine instructions of the Bhagavad Gita, Sanatana Dharma as it was previously layed out by Srila Prabhupada. All glories to you again and again. Guru Maharaj please accept these few words as I do not have enough words to glorify your exalted personality. We are once again celebrating Vyasa - Puja in Udhampur. You are a pure devotee from Birth. Lord Krsna says in Bhagavad Gita "One who knows the transcendental nature of my appearance and activities, does not upon leaving the body, take his birth again in this material world, but attains my eternal abode, O Arjuna." (ch. 4: 9) You have painstakingly done so much to uplift me, but I am so useless I have not headed to your instructions, still you do not give up the effort of uplifting and correcting me. Maharaj, you are cent percent surrendered to the lotus feet of Srila Prabhupada, following his instructions to the point. Please make us worthy servants to help you in your mission to save the soul. Your pastimes are so sweet with the dealings with different devotees and so it makes us wants to recall them again and again. Cow mata's statue is lying on your altar and it is time to leave for Jammu to catch the flight. Devotee says. "Maharaj, this cow is so fortunate she travels with you everywhere you go" and to this you replied "Yes, don't be jealous of her" - so witty. I am reading aloud to you from Nectar of Book Distribution and Srila Prabhupada is emphasizing the point of being strict with his disciples otherwise they won't change for their betterment. From that day, you started enforcing your command even to those who had never been chastised. Bhaktivikas did not turnoff the lights during the day, and you chastised him "why you cannot turnoff the lights - you cannot see it is daytime". Being chastised made him my letter skelter - so funny. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- To end, a quote from Rig Veda. "Om tad visnoh paramam padam sada pasyanti surayo diviva Caksur - atatam tad vipraso vipanyavo Jagramsah samindhate Visnor yat paramam padam". "Just as the sun's rays in the sky are extended to the mundane vision, so in the same way the wise and learned devotees always see the supreme abode of Lord Visnu. Because those mightly praiseworthy and spiritually awake brahmanas are able to see the spiritual world, they are also able to reveal that supreme abode of Lord Visnu". Krishna Das Udhampur Sudarshan Das My Dear Srila Gurudev (Srila Nityanandapada) Om ajnana-timirandhasya Jnananjana-shalakaya Cakshur unmilitam yena tasmai Sri-Gurave namah I offer my respectful obeisances unto my spiritual master, who has opened my eyes which were blended by the darkness of ignorance, with the torchlight of knowledge. All glories to your Divine personality. All glories to Srila Prabhupada saviour of the whole world by spreading Sanatana Dharma throughout the whole world. All glories to Srila Bhaktisiddanta Saraswati Thakur, All glories to Srila Babaji Gour Kishore Das Maharaj. All glories to Sacchidananda Bhakti Vinod Thakur Maharaj. All glories to Srila Jagannath Baba ji Maharaj, All glories Namacharya Haridas Thakur. All glories to Sri Sri Gaur Nitai, All glories to all vaishnava devotees of Lord Sri Krishna. All glories to Ganga Mata, Yamuna Mata. All glories to Panchtatva. Jai Sri Krishna Caitanya Prabhu Nityananda Sri Advaita Gadadhar Srivas adi Gaur Bhakta vrinda. All glories to Sri Sri Gaur Radha Krishna. All glories Sita Ram Laxman Hanuman. All glories to Sri Narsimadeva, Sri Prahalad Maharaj. Dear Gurudev you are giver of this wonderful parampara to this most fallen soul. You are most compassionate vaishnava and I am devoid of any vaishnav qualification inspite of this you have raised this servant of yours in this wonderful parampara system. I salute to your Lotus feet Gurudev, please accept my humble prayers. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Krpa-bindu diya, Koro ei dase trnapekha ati hina Sakala Sahane, bala diya koro nija-mane sprha-hina Sakala sammana, Korite sakati deho natha Jatha jatha tabe to gaibo, Hari-nama-sukhe aparadha ha be hata Kabe Heno krpa, labhiya e jana, Krtartha hoibe, natha! Sakti-budhhi-hina ami ati dina, Koro more atma-satha Jogyata-Vicare-Kichu nahi pai, tomara Karuna-Sara Kaurna na hoibe, Kandiya Kandiya prana na rakhibo ara. Gurudev! By a drop of your mercy make this servant of yours more humble than a blade of grass. Give me strength to bear all trials and troubles and free me from all desires for personal honor. O Lord and master ! invest me with the power to properly honor all living (entities) beings. Only then will I sing the holy name in great ecstasy and will all my offences cease. O Lord and master! when will this devotees be blessed by obtaining your mercy! I am low fallen and devoid of all strength and intelligence. Please make me your beloved servant. When, I examine myself, I find nothing of value. Your mercy is therefore essential to me. If you are not merciful, I will constantly weep, and I will not maintain my life any longer. I have no qualification to glorify a divine personality like yourself but this much I have experienced in your association that your compassion is not in any way less than the compassion of Sri Krishna Caitanya Mahaprabhu. So your appearance is definitely to save the most fallen soul like myself and to keep this sankirtan movement (which like mother ganges) flowing, & unpolluted. You are most pure and you can give pure love of Sri Krishna to anyone.You are a bonafied distributer of puru love of the Supreme Personality of Godhead Lord Sri Sri Radha Krishna. Your teachings and your life is my only hope of survival. Please make me (instrumental) capable in following this process of "Suddha Bhakti". Pure devotional service. Please forgive my offences which I am bound to commit out of myself being eternally conditioned. I remain your servant birth after birth. Sudarshan Das Dehradun Uttranchal -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Please accept my humble obeisances.All glories to Srila Prabhupada .All glories to your Divine grace. How can I glorify such a great personality as you are? All glories to your wonderful service and love for Srila Prabhupada. I simply pray and beg for a drop of your mercy so that I may continue to progress in Krishna Consciousness and offer whatever service I may capable of rendering. Thank you for the opportunity to serve you, Srila Prabhupada and ISKCON. Happy Appearance Day. Your servant Jai Jagdish Das Alachua, Florida USA -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Jhers uo;ksxsUnz Lokfefu bfr ukfeusA ueLrs izHkqikn&nsos uke&ladhrZu izpkfj.ks] fufoZ'ks"k 'kwU;oknh leLr ns'k rkfj.ksA vki ifrr&ikou xq:nso] vkidk vèke nkl vkids vkfoHkkZo fnol ij cèkkbZ nsrk gSA tc ls vkids pj.kksa dk vkJ; fy;k gS] rc ls vkRek] eu] fpÙk cM+k izlUu gSA vki ije n;kyq xq:nso! tc ls vkius lsok esa yxk;k gS] rc ls eksg&ek;k ls NqVdkjk ik;k gSA fnO; lsok Hkxoku dh nh vkius] rc ls vkRek dk vkuUn ik;k gSA 'kq¼ HkfDr dk nku nsdj izse&:ih vatu esjh vk¡[kksa esa yxk;k gSA eSa vèke tho dqN ugha tkurkA vkius vius pj.kksa esa Lohdkj fd;k gS eq>dksA rc ls eu dks eSaus yxk;k gSA igyh ckj tc vki eq>s o`Unkou ys x;sA o`Unkou dh ;k=kk] lqUnj Bkdqj th ds n'kZu djk;s vkiusA rc ls ;s tho lsok esa vk;k gSA fnO; izlkn fn;k vkiusA rc ls gs xq:nso! ân; ifjorZu gqvk esjkA xq# dh Ñik ds fcuk thou gS vaèkdkjA xq# feys thou gks x;k izdk'kA vkids pj.kksa esa izhr yxkbZ] ;s eu dh gS cèkkbZA eu dks idM+&idM+ dj lsok esa yxkvks] lnk xq# pj.kksa dk gh xq.k xkvksA xq# nsrs gSa uke dk lgkjk] eksg&ek;k ls ik yksxs NqVdkjkA xq# dk izse gS fnO; vuks[kk] dHkh thou esa feys uk èkks[kkA xq# pj.kksa dk ys ys lgkjk] thou cny tk; rqEgkjkA xq# izse dh xaxk cgkrs] ifrrksa dks idM+&idM+ dj xksrs yxokrsA nsrs fnO; lsok Hkxoku dh] eu dks blesa gh yxkvksA vkvks&vkvks esjs HkkbZ vkvks] xq# pj.kksa esa vkvksA xq# dh Ñik ls Hkxoku feysaxs] xq# dh vkKk esa gh vkuUn gSA xq# pj.kksa esa yxkvks viuh jfr] gks tk; mÙke xfrA xq# nsrs gSa 'kq¼ HkfDr] fu"dke lsok djks Hkxoku dhA 'kq¼ HkfDr gS rks ru ghjk] ugha rks gkaM+ ekal dk dhM+kA xq# dh Ñik ls gh] 'kq¼ HkfDr gks ik;sxhA HkfDr ds fcuk] vaèkdkj gS thou esjkA HkfDr djks] lsok djks esjs HkkbZA xq# pj.kksa esa vkvks] viuk thou liQy cukvksA deks± dk gS tky esjs lj ij vkids pj.kksa esa vkus ls deZ dV jgs gSa esjs] eu dh izlUurk gS lsok esa] blesa gh gksxk dY;k.k esjk] d#¡xk vkidh vkKk dk ikyuA d#¡xk fuR; lsok] HkfDr djus ls gh deZ dVsaxs] izse Hkko ls d:¡ lsok] lsok ls xq# izlUu gksaxs] vaèkdkj feysxk esjk] xq# pj.kksa dk xq.kxku d:¡A xq#nso] xq#nso] xq#nso] xq#nsoA ;s vèke vkids pj.kksa esa n.Mor iz.kke djrk gSA t; xq#nso] vkidk pj.kkfHkyk"kh cynso nkl mèkeiqj -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- vkids pj.k&deyksa esa esjk n.Mor~ iz.kkeA gjs Ñ".kA xq#nso! eSa vkidks tUefnu ds 'kqHk volj ij cgqr cgqr <sj lkjh cèkkbZ nsrh gw¡ vkSj vk'kk djrh gw¡ fd vki esjh cèkkbZ Lohdkj djsaxsA eSa JhJh xkSjjkèkkÑ".k Hkxoku ls izkFkZuk djrh gw¡ fd vki ges'kk LoLFk jgsaA ge tSls ifrr thoksa ij vkidh Ñikn`f"V ges'kk cuh jgsA esjs ikl] xq#nso! dksbZ 'kCn ugha gSA u dksbZ Hkko gS fd bl 'kqHk volj ij izdV dj ldw¡A xq#nso! eSa cgqr HkkX;'kkfyuh gw¡A eq>s vki tSls xq# feysA lkjk thou esjk O;FkZ pyk x;k gSA xq#nso! ,slh n;k dj nhft,] ;g thou fujFkZd u tk;A vki n;k ds lkxj gSaA eSa rqPN tho gw¡A xq#nso! eSa vkils ckjackj izkFkZuk djrh gw¡ fd eSa ges'kk bu pj.kksa esa lsok djrh jgw¡A esjk vkids flok; vkSj dksbZ ugha gSA esjs vijkèk {kek dj nsaA xq#nso rqEgkjh iwtk djus eafnj esa vkbZ xq#nso] uo uo dfy;k¡ pqu miou ls] vk¡py esa Hkj ykbZ xq#nsoA iwtk djus eafnj esa vkbZ xq#nso dapu dk rks Fkky ugha gS ?kh dk tyrk nhi ugha] ekVh dk y?kq nhi gFksyh] ij gh eSa j[k ykbZ xq#nsoA iwtk djus eafnj esa vkbZ xq#nsoA eSys oL=kksa dks er ns[kks] u ns[kks lw[kh iydsa] Hkkoksa dh xgjkbZ ns[kks] igys yks mrjkbZ xq#nso] iwtk djus eafnj esa vkbZ xq#nsoA iQwy vHkh dqEgyk tk,axs jk[k vHkh gksxh ckrh iwtk ds fel esa rks dsoy ân; p<+kus vkbZ xq#nsoA rqEgkjh iwtk djus eafnj esa vkbZ xq#nsoA -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- xq#nso! vkius Åèkeiqj dks o`Unkou èkke cuk fn;k gSA tc eSa Hkxoku ds n'kZu djrh gw¡ rks yxrk gS] o`Unkou esa cSBh gw¡A tUew&d'ehj ij vkidh cM+h gh Ñik gSA xq#nso! vkidh t;&t;dkj gksA vkidk ;'k rhuksa yksdksa esa iQSys] Hkxoku ls esjh ;gh izkFkZuk gSA gjs Ñ".k vkidh viuh csVh Hkkjrh nsoh nklh JhyizHkwikn vkJ; mèkeiqj jkt y{eh nsoh nklh ue% Å¡ fo".kq iknk; Ñ".k izs"Bk; Hkwrys] Jhers uo;ksxsUnz Lokfeu~ bfr ukfeusA loZizFke ije vpZuh;] oanuh;] ije iwT; izkr% Lej.kh; xq: egkjkt th ds pj.k deyksa esa bl ifrr rqPN nklh dk dksfV&dksfV iz.kkeA eSa ifrr nklh vkidh gh Ñik ij fuHkZj gw¡A vki eq> nklh ij Ñik cuk;s j[kukA loZizFke eSa lHkh xq: HkkbZ &cguksa dks bl ikou fnol ij gkfnZd 'kqHk dkeuk;sa nsrh gw¡ vkSj Jh Jh xkSj jkèkk&Ñ".k ds pj.kksa esa vkidh nh?kkZ;q dh dkeuk djrh gw¡A vki eq> tSls yk[kksa ifrrkRekvksa dk m¼kj djus ds fy, bl èkkjkry ij vorh.kZ gq, gSaA vki izHkqikn~ th ds vkns'k ls ns'k&fons'k esa uke ladhrZu dk izpkj dj jgs gSaA vkius bl nklh ij bruh Ñik cjlkbZ fd eSa bldk Í.k dbZ tUeksa rd ugha mrkj ldrh gw¡A vkius eq> ij bruh Ñik dh gS fd eSa bldk o.kZu eq[k ls ugha dj ldrh gw¡A eSaus iwoZ tUe esa dksbZ FkksM+k lk vPNk deZ fd;k gksxk ftlls vki tSls 'kq¼ oS".ko xq: th dh 'kj.k izkIr gqbZ gSA ugha rks gekjs thou esa vUèkdkj ds flok, dqN Hkh ugha gSA vkidh Ñik ls eq>s vusd peRdkj rFkk vuqHko gq, gSA vki eq>s rqPN nklh tku dj viuh vgSSrqdh Ñik cuk, j[kuk ftlls ge lsok HkfDr djrs jgsaA xq: th! vkids xq.kksa dk xq.kxku bl eq[k ls ugha dj ldrh gw¡A -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- jkt y{eh nsoh nklh yfyrk nsoh nklh xq: egkjkt th] vkids pj.kksa esa esjk dksfV &2 iz.kke! gs ¶Ñik flUèkq¸ tc ls eSa vkidh 'kj.k esa vk;h gwa eq>s vkuUn dh ,slh vuqHkwfr gqbZ gS fd gj le; vkidh Nfo esjh vka[kksa esa lekbZ jgrh gS tks esjs eu dks lq[k lkxj esa ,sls Mqcksrh gS tSls dksbZ ¶ehu¸ ikuh esa Mwc dj vius vkuUn dks vuqHko djrh gSA gs ¶'kqHk n`f"V¸! esjs thou ij viuh 'kqHk n`f"V Mkydj gfj uke dk Kku esjs thou esa ,sls Hkj nks fd ;g thou fdlh vkSj oLrq fo'ks"k dke] Øksèk] eksg] yksHk vkfn fouk'kdkjh rRoksa ds fy, [kkyh u jgsA eq>esa ,slk fo'okl LFkkfir djks fd gs ¶fo'okl ik=k¸ eq>s fdlh vkSj fo'okl dh vko';drk u jgsA gs izHkq! vkids pj.kksa esa esjk ckj ckj iz.kke gSA ¶rqEgha esjh uS;k rqEgha esjh irokj] Hkolkxj esas Mwcrs fyUgs thou mHkkj¸ vkidh f'k";k yfyrk nsoh nklh tkyaèkj y{eh nsoh nklh Jhers uo;ksxsUnz Lokfeu~ bfr ukfeusA ueLrs izHkwikn nsos uke ladhrZu izpkfj.ks] fufoZ'ks"k 'kwU;okfn leLr ns'k rkfj.ksAA -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- n.Mor iz.kkeA vkt vkidh 'kqHk vkfoHkkZo frfFk ij vkids pj.k deyksa esa eSa vkidh ifrr nklh lknj iz.kke djrh gwaA eSa rks ,d ,slh rqPN thokRek gwa fd eq>esa u HkfDr vkSj u gh dksbZ la;e gSaA tcls eSa vkidh 'kj.k eas vkbZ gwa] rc ls eq>esa ,d ,slk Hkko lk izxV gks x;k gS fd vc Jh gfjuke ysus ds flok dqN lw>rk ugha gSA xq:nso! ;g lc vkidh Ñik dk lk{kkr~ vuqHko gSA tc ls eq>s vkidk vkJ; feyk gS];g esjs fy, ,d ojnku cu dj x;k gSA vkius gh gesa Jh xkSjkax egkizHkw dk vuwBk o fnO; HkfDr izse jl iznku fd;k gSA gs xq:nso! eq>s cl ;gh ojnku nhft, fd eSa vkidh fuR; lsok d:a vkSj vkils dHkh Hkh nwj ugha tkmQaA vkidh vèke nklh y{eh nsoh nklh mèkeiqj Ñ".k eksgu nkl xq# egkjkt ds pj.kksa esa vkfJr Ñ".k eksgu nkl Jhy~ izHkqikn vkJe] mèkeiqj -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- ue% ¬ fo".kq iknk; Ñ".k izs"Bk; Hkwrys] Jhers uo;ksxsUnz Lokfeu~ bfr ukfeusA ueLrs izHkqikn nsos uke ladhrZu izpkfj.ks] fufoZ'ks"k 'kwU;oknh leLr ns'krkfj.ksAA ije iwT; xq:nso] vkids pj.k deyksa esa n.Mor~ iz.kkeA eaxy ewjfr ln~xq: fcuokS ckjEckjA eaxye; eaxydju feyokS lokZèkkjAA ije vjkè; xq#nso! vkids vkfoHkkZo fnol ij vkidks eaxy dkeuk vfiZr djrk gw¡A ,slk 'kqHk fnu ges'kk vkrk jgs] ftlls lEiw.kZ txr Ñ".k izse dh ck<+ esa Mwc tk;sA xq:nso! bl 'kqHk dk;Z esa eSa fdlh lsok ds dkfcy cuw¡ rks esjk thou Hkh liQy gks tk;sA vU;Fkk esjk thou rks iki dk;ks± esa gh O;FkZ lekIr gks tk;sxkA esjk vgksHkkX; gksrk vxj eSa viuh vk;q Hkh vkidks ns ldrkA ¶lB lqèkjfga lrlaxfr ikbZA ikjl ijl dqèkkrq lqgkbZA¸ xq#nso vkids Ñik izlkn ls gh eSa fdlh dkfcy cu ikÅ¡xkA vkidh efgek vikj gSµ ¶fofèk gfj gj dfo dksfon okuhA dgr xq# efgek ldqpkuhA lks eks le dfg tkr u dSlsA lkd cfud efu xqu xu tSlsAA¸ D;ksafd ¶xq# fcuk u lal`fr rjfUrA¸ xq#nso ds Ñik ds fcuk tUe&ej.k dk pØ ugha NwV ldrk! lalkj ds gj {ks=k esa xq: dh vko';drk gS vkSj O;fDr fofHkUu {ks=kksa esa xq: xzg.k dj lq[k] ,s'o;Z] flf¼ izkIr djrk gS] ij ,slk xq# vius f'k"; dk okLrfod dY;k.k ugha dj ldrkA blfy, Jhen~ Hkkxore~ esa vk;k gS& ¶u rs fonq% LokFkZxfra fg fo".kq] nqjk'k;k ;s cfgjFkZekfuu%A vUèkk;FkkUèkS:iuh;ekuk Lrs¿ih'krU=;keq#nkfEu c¼k%AA¸ tks yksx HkkSfrd thou ds Hkksx dh Hkkouk }kjk n`<+rk ls c¡èks gSa vkSj ftUgksaus vius gh leku czÞ; bfUnz; fo"k;ksa ls vklDr vUèks O;fDr dks viuk xq# Lohdkj dj j[kk gS] os ;g ugha le> ldrs fd thou dk y{; Hkxon~ èkke tkdj Hkxoku fo".kq dh lsok esa yxs jguk gSA ftl izdkj vUèks O;fDr }kjk ys tk;k x;k nwljk vUèkk O;fDr lgh ekxZ Hkwy ldrk gS vkSj x<~<s esa fxj ldrk gSA vr% Jhen~Hkkxor~ dk gh dguk gS& -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Lreks}kja ;ksf"krka lafxlaxe~A egkUrLrs lefpÙkk% iz'kkUrk foeU;o% lqân% lkèkoks ;sAA¸ egkRekvksa ds Jh pj.kksa dh èkwfy esa Luku fd;s fcuk euq"; Hko&cUèku ls NqVdkjk ugha ik ldrkA ;s iq#"k ijksidkjh rFkk HkDr gksrs gSaA bZ'oj ls rnkdkj gksus vFkok Jh Hkxoku dk lax izkIr djus ds bPNqd euq"; dks egkRekvksa dh lsok djuh pkfg,A vr% gs xq#nso! eSa vc vkids pj.kksa dks NksM+dj dgk¡ tkÅ¡? vki ls c<+dj egr~ iq#"k dksbZ ugha gS] rHkh rks Hkxoku Jh Ñ".k ds ije fiz; ik"kZn Jhy~ izHkqiknth us vkidks uo;ksxsUnz Lokeh uke iznku fd;kA ukS;ksxsUnz&dkoZ] izcq¼] gfj] vUrfj{k] vfoZgks=k] nzfey] foIyk;u] pel vkSj djHkktu izR;sd esa txr dY;k.k djus dk lkeF;Z FkkA vki esa bu ukSoksa dk xq.k] oSHko JhizHkqikn us ns[kk] rHkh rks ,slk uke iznku fd;kA fiQj la'k; dgk¡ gS? ,sls xq#nso ds pj.kksa dk vkJ; NksM+dj tks viuk dY;k.k pkgrk gks] os ew[kZ iRFkj dh uko ls leqnz ikj gksuk pkgrs gSaA fiQj vki rks n;k ds lkxj gh gSa D;ksafd eq> tSls nhu&ghu] ikih] fuÑ"V] dks Hkh 'kj.k iznku dh ¶eks le dkSu dqfVy] [ky] dkeh¸ ij vki nq"Vksa ds nks"k] iki] ;ksX;&v;ksX; ij fopkj fd;s fcuk 'kj.k iznku djrs gSa] ;s rks vkidk lgt LoHkko gh gSA fu%lansg Hkxoku ije n;kyq gSa] ij gekjs xq#nso Hkxoku ls Hkh vR;fèkd n;kyq gSaA rHkh rks fdlh lar us Hkxoku dh miek firk ls vkSj xq# dk miek ek¡ ls nh gS D;ksafd firk] cPpksa ds xq.k&nks"k nksuksa dks ns[krs gSa] ij ek¡] cPps ds xq.k&nks"k ij è;ku u nsdj dsoy dY;k.k pkgrh gSA ;s rks lalkjh ek¡@ij gekjs xq:nso rks vgSrqdh Ñik dj nks"k dks Hkh vkRelkr dj xq.k esa ifj.kr dj dsoy dY;k.k pkgrs gh ugha] dY;k.k dj nsrs gSaA blfy, dchj th dgrs gSa& ¶dchjk rs uj vUèk gS] xq# rs dgrs vkSjA gfj :Bs xq# BkSj gS] xq: :Bs ugha BkSjAA¸ ftl izdkj ,d f'kYidkj dk"B dks ,d uko dk vkdkj nsrk gS] oSls gh esjs xq:nso ge tSls fuÑ"V dk"B rqY; c¼tho dks ftlesa dke] Øksèk] eksg] vgadkj :ih nhed [kks[kyk djus esa yxs gq, gSa] ij Ñikyq xq:nso fuiq.k f'kYidkj ds leku ,d uko ds :i esa ifj.kr dj nsrs gSa vkSj bUgsa ikj yxkrs gh gSaA vusdksa dks ikj yxkus esa fufeÙk Hkh cuk nsrs gSaA ;kfu ftl ij Ñik djrs gSa] mUgsa vius gh leku cuk ysrs gSa vkSj vius lkFk Ñ".k dh lsok esa yxk nsrs gSaA ¶ikjl v# lar esa] Hksn ,d dj tkuA ,d ykSg dks Lo.kZ djsa] ,d djs vki lekuAA¸ vr% ;g lc tkuus ds ckn ,d gh fu"d"kZ fudyrk gS fd ije n;kyq vfr Ñikyq ln~xq#nso ds Jh pj.kksa esa lEiw.kZ leiZ.k dj Ñik dk ik=k cuwA ge rks Ñik ds ik=k Hkh ugha gSa] ij ,sls egku oS".ko lar tks czãfu"B ,oa ijEijk esa vfèkdkjh gSaA gesa vk'kk gS] vo'; ik=krk Hkh iznku djsaxsA ¶tks djuh leq>s xq# eksjhA ufg fuLrkj dyi lr dksjhA tu voxq.k xq#eku u dkÅA nhu caèkq vfr e`nqy lqHkkÅAA ukFk ldy lkèku eSa ghukA dhUgh Ñik tku tu nhukAA¸ -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- ¶ea=k ewya xq# okD;a] iwtk ewya xq# ine~A è;ku ewya xq# ewfrZ] eks{k ewya xq# ÑikAA¸ esjk loZLo xq#nso gh gSaA ,d rw gh vkèkkj lr~xq: ,d rw gh vkèkkjA 1- tc rd feyks u rqe thou esa] 'kkfUr dgk¡ fey ldrh eu esaA [kkst fiQj lalkj lr~xq#] ,d rw gh vkèkkjA 2- dSlk Hkh gks rSju gkjk] feys u tc rd pj.k lgkjkA gks u ldk ml ikj lr~xq#] ,d rw gh vkèkkjA 3- rqe gh gks izHkq fofoèk :iksa esa] gesa cpkrs Hko dwiksa lsA ,slks ije mnkj lr~xq#] ,d rw gh vkèkkjA 4- Nk tkrk tx esa vafèk;kjk] rc ikus izdk'k dh èkkjkA vkrs rsjs }kj lr~xq#] ,d rw gh vkèkkjA 5- ge vk;s gS }kj frgkjs] vc nq%[k nwj djks nq%[kgkjsA dj nks Hko ls ikj lr~xq#] ,d rw gh vkèkkjA Jhy~ xq# egkjkt dh t; Jhy~ izHkqikn dh t; gfj cksy vkidk pj.k jt vfHkyk"kh Ñ".k xksiky nkl mèkeiqj lfg".kq nkl ftu pj.kksa esa ge vkfJr gSa] vkids mu pj.k deyksa esa esjk dksfV'k% lk"Vkax n.Mor~ iz.kke gSA xq#nso! vkidk xq.kxku esjs tSlk ew[kZ dSls dj ldrk gS\ ¶VwVh gqbZ ok.kh ls xq.kxku dsls xkÅ¡¸ fiQj Hkh vkidh efgek o.kZu djus ds fy, FkksM+k lk dye pykus dh iz;kl djrk gw¡A xq#nso! vkt vkidk 'kqHk vkfoHkkZo fnol gSA vkt ds Lof.kZe fnu esa vki izdV gq, gSa] ge ifrr thoksa ds m¼kj ds fy, vkSj vkt ds fnu gh vkius eq>s f'k"; :i esa vaxhdkj fd;kA xq#nso! eq> tSls cqf¼ghu dks ^vuqHko* 'kCn dk vFkZ ugha ekyqeA fiQj Hkh vkidh Ñik ls dqN&dqN vuqHko crkus dh iz;kl dj jgk gw¡A xq#nsoA mèkeiqj vkus ls igys eq>s Mj Fkk fd eSa ;gk¡ dqN Hkh dke ugha dj ikÅ¡xkA ij vkidh Ñik ls FkksM+h&FkksM+h lsok dj ik jgk gw¡A vkidh Ñik ls ;gk¡ eq>s dqN Hkh deh ugha gSA eq>s ;g¡k ?kj ls Hkh T;knk vPNk okrkoj.k eglql gks jgk gSA -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- xq#nso! esjs thou dk LoIu Fkk fd Hkxoku dh lsok d:¡A og rks ugha gks ldk] ysfdu vkidh Ñik ls Hkxoku ds eafnj dh ns[kjs[k djus dh lsok dj jgk gw¡ vkSj Hkxoku ds 'kq¼ HkDr] gekjs nknk xq: egkjkt Jhy~ izHkqiknth dh lsok izk;% nks lky ls dj jgk gw¡A xq#nso! esjh bPNk Fkh fd eSa iDdk czãpkjh cuw¡A og rks ugha gks ldk] ysfdu vki Ñik djds esjk lqèkkj djrs gq, L=kh&:i ek;k ls esjh j{kk dj jgs gSaA xq#nso! tc Hkh vki esjs lqèkkj ds fy, izo`Ùk gksrs gSa] rc ujflag&:i esjs lkeus vk tkrk gS vkSj eq>s Jhy izHkqikn th ds xq#nso Jhy HkfDrfl¼kar ljLorh Bkdqj egkjkt dh og ok.kh ;kn vk tkrh gS & "You have to be cruel to be kind." xq#nso! esjk LoIu Fkk fd eSa Hkh cM+s HkDrksa ds rjg vkids lkFk&lkFk jgdj vkidh lsok d:¡A esjs vius izkjCèk&deZ] nqxqZ.kksa dh ekStwnxh vkSj v;ksX;rk ds dkj.k og rks ugha gks ldk] ysfdu tc vki efUnj esa vkrs gSa] rks eq>s FkksM+h FkksM+h lsok djus dh ekSdk feyrk gSA tSls&ekbd yxkuk] vklu yxkuk] gkjeksfu;e j[kuk] ikuh ykuk] eksj ia[k >yuk vkfnA xq#nso! eSaus lkspk Fkk fd vius 'kjhj ds mi;qDr NksVh&NksVh lsok d:a ftlls eq>s dksbZ d"V u gks] ij vkidh Ñik ls eq>s ,slh ftEesnkjhiw.kZ cM+h lsok feyh fd blls vkuUn Hkh gksrk gS vkSj 'kjhj dks Hkh dksbZ d"V ugha igq¡prkA xq#nso! Ñik dhft, fd vkxs blls Hkh vPNh rjg ls lsok vkSj HkfDr dj ldw¡A xq#nso! xq#dqy ds cPpksa dh rjg eq>esa Hkh izopu esa cSBus dh #fp ugha FkhA ysfdu vkidh Ñik ls vkt cSBus esa #fp gSA vkt ls izk; rhu lky igys eSa ,dfnu] fnu esa lks jgk FkkA LoIu vk;k fd vki iqjkus efUnj esa Hkkxore~ izopu dj jgs gSa vkSj eSa ml le; dejs esa lks jgk gw¡A vkius ns[kk] eafnj esa 'kqHkozr ugha gSA rks vkius mlh le; Øksfèkr gksdj esjs dejs esa vkdj dqlhZ mBkds esjs ihB ij tksj ls ekjhA eSa vpkud mB x;kA rc ls izopu esa cSBrk gw¡A xq#nso! tc eSa u;k&u;k Fkk] rc vkids izopu esa Hkh cSBus dks eu ugha djrk Fkk vkSj vkidh ok.kh Hkh eq>s le> esa ugha vkrh Fkh] ysfdu èkhjs&èkhjs lc Bhd gks x;kA vkids izopu esa vc eSa fu;fer cSBrk gw¡ vkSj ftl fnu] ftl le; vki izopu djrs gSa] mlh fnu eSa Lihdj ds lkeus cSBrk gw¡ vkSj vkids Jheq[k ls fudyrh ok.kh Hkh eq>s bruh vPNh yxrh gS fd eSa vius izopu esa ;k izpkj dk;ks± ds nkSjku vkids 'kCnksa dks nksgjkus dk iz;kl djrk gw¡A xq#nso! ge lc ij vkidk izHkko bruk T;knk gS fd ftl fnu vki eafnj dh vkjrh esa] fo'ks"kdj eaxy vkjrh esa ugha vkrs gSa] ml fnu ge lc nq%[kh gks tkrs gSaA vkSj ftl fnu vki vkrs gSa] ml fnu gesa vikj vkuUn gksrk gSA izHkqikn vkjrh esa vkids izHkko dh ckr gh D;k dgw¡\ lcdks vki u`R; djus esa etcwj dj nsrs gSaA -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- xq#nso! vki eq> ij ,slh Ñik dhft, rkfd eSa dke&Øksèk&yksHk vkfn voxq.kksa ls cprk jgw¡A xq#nso! vkidk xq.kxku djus dh eq> esa u rks ;ksX;rk gS] vkSj u vfèkdkj gSA vkids fnO; xq.kksa dk c[kku eq>ls ugha gks ldrk gSA blhfy,] gs xq#nso] bPNk u gksrs gq, Hkh esjh dye dh xfr ;gh #¼ gks xbZ gSA vkids pj.k&deyksa esa iqu% lk"VkÄ~x n.Mor iz.kkeA vkids pj.kkfJr lfg".kq nkl mèkeiqj HkfDrfodkl nkl Jhers uo;ksxsUnz Lokfeu~ bfr ukfeusA ueLrs izHkqikn nsos uke ladhrZu izpkfj.ks] fufoZ'ks"k 'kwU;oknh leLr ns'k rkfj.ksAA eSa Ñ".kÑik Jh ewfrZ Jh Jhen~ uo;ksxsUnz Lokeh fuR;kuanikn egkjkt dks lknj iz.kke djrk gw¡] tks Hkxoku JhÑ".k ds fnO; uke dh 'kj.k ysus ds dkj.k bl i`Foh ij Hkxoku dks vR;Ur fiz; gSaA gs xq#nso! Jhy izHkqikn ds nkl! vkidks esjk fouez iz.kke gSA vki Ñik djds uke ladhrZu dk izpkj dj jgs gSa rFkk fujkdkjokn ,oa 'kwU;okn ls O;kIr leLr ns'kksa dk m¼kj dj jgs gSaA ije iwtuh; xq#nso] vkids pj.k&deyksa esa lk"Vkax n.Mor~ iz.kkeA vkt bl ikou fnol ij vkidk ;g rqPN nkl vkidks D;k vfiZr djsa\ ;g le> esa ugha vk jgk gSA esjk tSlk vèke rFkk ifrr] tks vkidh Ñik ij gh fuHkZj jgrk gSA eq>s ;dhu gS fd vkids Jhpj.kksa esa jgdj Ñik dh ,d cwan ikdj èkU; gks tkÅ¡xkA xq#nso! eq>s lEHkky ds j[kukA vki esjs ije vkjkè; nso gSaA xq#nso! vkidh t;&t;dkj gksA -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- vkids Jhpj.kksa dk nkl HkfDrfodkl nkl d`".k eqjkjh f=kikBh lk"Vk¡x n.Mor iz.kkeA vki Hkxoku~ Jh d`".k ds 'kq¼ HkDr gSaA vki ikjlef.k ds leku gSaA vki lkjs lalkj esa tu&tu esa tkx`fr ykus vkSj mRlkfgr djus esa iw.kZr% l{ke gSaSA vki lHkh thoksa ds izfr iw.kZr% fu"i{k fu.kZ; djrs gSaA izR;sd O;fDr dh ;ksX;rk vkSj {kerk ds vuqlkj Hkxoku~ dh vkRekvksa dks fufer cukrs gSaA vkids pj.kksa esa iz.kke rFkk n.Mor djrs gq, Hkxoku~ xkSjakx egkizHkw] Jh Jh xkSj&jkèkk d`".k Hkxoku~ ls vkidh nh?kZvk;q dh dkeuk djrk gw¡ ftlls fcuk HksnHkko ,oa i{kikr ls jfgr vkids vè;kfRed ,oa fnO; dk;Zdykiksa }kjk c¼ vkRekvksa dks eqDr djk dj Hkxoku ds ikl tkus dk ekXkZn'kZu iznku djsaA vkidk d`ik vfHkyk"kh d`".k eqjkjh f=kikBh fuR;kuUn nkl Jh xq#egkjktth ds tUefnu ds ikou volj ij eSa viuk vuqHko fy[k jgh gw¡A oSls rks lky esa cgqr ls fnu vkrs gSa pk¡n vkSj flrkjksa dh rjg] ysfdu Jhxq#egkjkt th dh O;kl iwtk gekjs fy;s J¼k vkSj leiZ.k ysdj vkrh gS lwjt dh rjgA tsls xaxks=kh ls fudyus okyh HkkxhjFkh xaxk] fgeky; dh pV~Vuksa ls Vdjkrh gqbZ mBrh&fxjrh gqbZ xaxklkxj esa tkdj ije 'kkfUr dks izkIr djrh gSA mlh rjg bl lalkj esa ek;k eksg esa HkVdk gqvk izk.kh lrxq# dh 'kj.k esa tkdj gh lPps lq[k vkSj vkuan dks le> ikrk gSA tc eSa lrxq# dh [kkst esa lu~ 1998 esa ?kj ls fudyk rks bl lalkj esa cgqr ls lkèkq&egkRekvksa dks ns[kdj] muds ikl jgdj] lR; vkSj vlR; dh igpku djrs gq, Jhxq#egkjkt th ls vkdj feyk rks eSaus tks ns[kk] og bl Hktu esa fy[k jgk gw¡A -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- LoxZ le jkg gks ;k gks pDdjA buds nj is gS njtk cjkcjAA bu dh Ñik dks gS ftlus tkuk] dksbZ nqfu;k esa oks vutku ughaA yk[kksa larks dks nj cnj [kkds Bksdj] tks Fkddj vk x;k vxj dksbZ buds nj ijAA bUgksaus utjksa ls tks jl fiyk;k] oks crkus ds dkfcy ughaA yk[kks larks dk deZ gS budh fu"dke lsok] èkeZ gS budh bPNk esa bPNkAA lkSai nks buds gkFkksa esa Mksjh] ;s n;kyq gSa lHkh thoksa ijA uxjh mèkeiqj clh igkM+ ioZrks ds Åij] tues gS tgk¡ Jhxq#nso lR;] iwT; j.kèkhjAA dfy;qx esa vk, gS ysdj Ñ".k lans'k] tM+ psru vkSj thoksa dks Jo.k djkus tkrs gSa ns'k fons'kAA lw;Z rst èkwi fc[ksjs 'khryrk fc[kjs pk¡nA xq#nso rks vkReKku fc[ksjsa lqudj vk;s fuR; vkuanAA eksrh feysaxs lkxj esa] ckxksa esa feysaxs iQwyA ge rks lnk xq# pj.kksa esa feysaxs] nqfu;k dks tk,¡xs HkwyAA vlR; lax u dhft,] djks xq# dk lkFkA rqEgsa os rkjsaxs t:j] idM+ksa mudk gkFkAA vkidk nkl fuR;kuUn nkl tEew lkèkq lsok nkl ue% ¬ fo".kqiknk; Ñ".k izs"Bk; Hkwrys] Jhers uo;ksxsUnz Lokfeu~ bfr ukfeusA ueLrs izHkqikn~ nsos uke ladhrZu izpkfj.ks] fufoZ'ks"k 'kwU;oknh leLr ns'ks rkfj.ksAA -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- vius iki deks± ds dkj.k eq>s pkjksa rjiQ Dys'k gh Dys'k fn[krk gS] blfy;s eSa vius vkidks vukFk lk eglwl djrk gw¡A dke] Øksèk] yksHk] eksg] vfHkeku vkSj izfr"Bk] ;g lc eq>s viuh rjiQ [khap jgs gaS vkSj esjk eu vaèks O;fDr dh rjg gSA tks viuk lqiFk ugha tkurk vkSj ges'kk vlR; esa jek jgus ds dkj.k vki ds Jh pj.kksa esa lefiZr ugha dj ik;kA gs xq#nso! vius deks± dks ns[k dj eq>s cM+k Mj yx jgk gSA vc vki gh eq>s cpk dj vius Jh pj.kksa esa yxk ysa] ftlls eSa udZ dh ;krukvksa ls cp tkÅ¡A eSa vkidh Ñik dh vkl yxk dj cSBk gw¡A vèkeksa esa egkvèke lkèkq lsok nkl dVM+k jkes'oj nkl t; xq#nso] Jhy xq#nso ds pj.kksa esa dksfV&dksfV iz.kkeA xq#nso ds vkfoHkkZo fnol ij yk[k&yk[k cèkkbZ rFkk xq#nso dh iwjs lalkj esa t;&t;dkj gksA gs xq#nso! tcls vkius vius pj.kksa esa eq>s vkJ; fn;kA eSa vkJ; dk ik=k rks ugha gw¡] ysfdu vki ije oS".ko gSaA vkius esjs Åij fcuk dkj.k Ñik dh gSA rc ls gj iy gh vuqHko gksrs gSaA eSa D;k&D;k vuqHko fy[kw¡\ fiQj Hkh vkidh Ñik ds nks vuqHko fy[k jgk gw¡A tc (Jhy~ izHkqikn vkJe] Jh Jh xkSj jkèkk Ñ".k eafnj] ijek gYnqpkSM+] mÙkjk[k.M) vkJe dk fuekZ.k ,oa bl {ks=k ls izpkj&izlkj py jgk FkkA og ,d xkao dh txg gSA ;gk¡ ds yksx nsoh nsorkvksa ds mikld FksA lkèku dqN ugha FkkA {ks=koklh fojksèk djrs Fks fd ;g eafnj ugha cuuk pkfg,A dbZ ckj izpkj dk;Z esa ekj Hkh iM+hA yksxksa us vkJe dks Hkh ?ksj fy;k FkkA rc eSa ,d fnu cM+k fpafÙkr gks jgk Fkk fd vc D;k gksxk\ dSls gksxk\ esjk lkFk nsus okyk dksbZ ugha gSA lc fojksèkh -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- eq>esa u vdy gS] u 'kDy dk gw¡A ij xq# Ñik ls lc vius vki Ñ".k dk;Z gks jgk gSA xq#nso 'kq¼ HkDr gSaA mudh Ñik ls lc gks jgk gSA eSa ckdh D;k dgw¡\ Hkxoku ls ;gh izkFkZuk djrk gw¡] tc Hkh eq>s tUe nsaxs] bUgha xq#nso ds pj.kksa dk vkJ; nsukA budh iwjs lalkj esa t;&t;dkj gksA ;gh ojnku eq>s nsukA gjs Ñ".k gfj cksy vkids pj.kksa dk nkl jkes'oj nkl Jhy izHkqikn vkJe] ijek gYnqpkSM+ gY}kuh] mÙkjk[kaM -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- pyrk gS lPpk rhj lnk] >wBs nke ugha pyrsA ds'ko rks fy[krk] ijarq d'ehjh gkFk ugha fy[krsAA o¡nmQ xq# in dat] Ñik flaèkq uj:i gfjA egkeksg re iqat] tklq opu jfc dj fudjAA (jk-p- ekul) eSa xq# egkjkt ds pj.kdeyksa dh oUnuk djrk gwa] tks Ñik ds leqnz vkSj uj:i Jh gfj gh gSa vkSj ftuds opu egkeksg:ih ?kus vUèkdkj dks u"V djus ds fy, lw;Z&fdj.kksa ds lewg gSaA eSa xq# egkjkt ds pj.kdeyksa dh jt dh oUnuk djrk gwa tks lq:fp (lqUnj Lokn)] lqxUèk rFkk vuqjkx :ih jl ls iw.kZ gSA og vej ewy (lathouh tM+h) dk lqUnj pw.kZ gS] Hkojksxksa dks uk'k djus okys gSaA Jh xq# egkjkt ds pj.k&u[kksa dh T;ksfr ef.k;ksa ds izdk'k ds leku gS] ftl ds Lej.k djrs gh ân; esa fnO; n`f"V mRiUu gks tkrh gSA og izdk'k vKku :ih vUèkdkj dks uk'k djus okyk gSA og ftlds ân; esa vk tkrk gS] mlds cM+s HkkX; gaS vkSj ân; ds fueZy us=k [kqy tkrs gSa vkSj lalkj :ih jkf=k ds nks"k&nq%[k feV tkrs gSaA Jh xq# egkjkt dh Ñik ls xwaxk cgqr lqUnj cksyus okyk gks tkrk gS vkSj yaxM+k&ywyk nqxZe igkM+ ij p<+ tkrk gS] os dfy;qx ds lHkh ikiksa dks tyk Mkyus okys n;kyq Jh xq# egkjkt eq> ij nzfor gksa (n;k djas)A gs xq#nso! d#.kkflUèkq rFkk ifrr vkRekvksa ds fe=k! vki ge lc ds xq# ,oa lHkh yksxksa ds thou izk.k gaSA gs xq#nso! eq> ij Ñik dhft, rFkk eq>s vius pj.kksa dh Nk;k nhft,A vkidk ;'k rhuksa yksdksa esa iQSyk gqvk gSA le;≤ ij eq>s dqN vuqHko gks jgs gaSA eSa ;g lc Jh uo;ksxsUnz Lokeh th egke.Mys'oj egkjkt th dh Ñik gh le>rk gwaA ftruh d`ik esjs ij gS] mruh fdlh ij ugha gSA ;g eq> ij 100 izfr'kr Ñik rc rd jgsxh] tc rd eSa xq# egkjkt dh vkKk esa jgwaxkA rHkh xq# Ñik jgsxh ugha rks iru vo'; gksxk vkSj ;ejkt dh ;kruk lguh iM+sxhA xq# dk ;'k dksbZ ugha xk ldrkA eSa D;k xq# efgek dk c[kku dj ldrk gwa\ dHkh ugha dj ldrkA tc Hkh ladV dh ?kM+h vkbZ] izHkqikn th vkSj xq# Ñik us eq>s ladV ls fudkykA blds dqN vuqHko fuEufyf[kr gSa%& igyk vuqHkoµ26 ebZ 2005 dks gqvk] tc eSa v[kaM tki&dj jgk FkkA jkr ds 12 ct jgs Fks vkSj uhan dk izdksi vk x;kA eSaus izHkqikn egkjkt ls izkFkZuk dh fd tki iwjk gks tk;s] Ñik djksA mlh le; izHkqikn th ds foxzg us flj fgykdj rhu ckj Åij mBus dks dgk rks eSa [kM+k gks x;k vkSj izHkqikn th dh Ñik ls eSa v[k.M tki iwjk dj ldkA nwljk vuqHkoµ27-8-06 dks dVjk esa lsok djrs le; ?kqVus esa pksV yxh vkSj iyLrj yxk gqvk FkkA cSM ij gh ysVk gqvk FkkA eaxy vkjrh ugha tk ldkA brus esa gh Jhy xq# egkjkt vkSj Jhy~ -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- rhljk vuqHkoµ9 iQjojh 2007 dh jkr dks egkjkt uo;ksxsUnz Lokeh th dqN [kkus dks ckaV jgs Fks LoIu esaA eq>s cqykdj nsus dks dgkaA eSaus dgk] eq>s dqN [kkus dks pkfg, eq>s vkidh Ñik pkfg,A rks nwljs fnu egkjkt eqV~Bh esa izksxzke] dhrZu djds 'kfDr uxj esa vkdj eq>s iSdsV fxÝV fn;kA ;g gS xq# Ñik dk mnkgj.kA eSa egke.Mys'oj Jhy~ uo ;ksxsUnz Lokeh th egkjkt ds pj.kksa dk nkl cuk jgwa vkSj mudh vkKk dk ikyu dj ldwa vkSj mudh izlUurk ds fy, dqN dj ldwa rks og mudh Ñik gksxhA igys Hkh gksrh jgh gS] vkt Hkh gS] Hkfo"; esa Hkh gksrh jgsxhA rHkh esjk tUe ysuk lkFkZd le>wxkA lky ds fnu gks lkB gtkj vkSj xq# egkjkt ds pj.kksa dk nkl cuk jgwaA ;gh vUr rd vfHkyk"kk cuh jgsaA vUr esa n.Mor iz.kke Lohdkj djsaA vkidk nkl ds'ko d'ehjh nkl tEew gfj HkDr nkl txn~xq# Jhy~ izHkqikn~ egkjkt th dh t; gks! loZizFke eSa vius ije vknj.kh;] vpZuh;] oanuh; o izkr% Lej.kh; lrxq#nso Jhy~ uo;ksxsUnz Lokeh egkjkt th ds pj.k deyksa esa lknj n.Mor~ iz.kke djrk gwaA xq#nso egkjkt th dh 'kj.k esa tc ls vk;k gwa] esjk rks thou gh cny x;k gSA eSa Ñ".k HkfDr ds fo"k; esa dqN ugha tkurk Fkk ysfdu eu esa bl ckr dks tkuus dh izcy bPNk Fkh fd okLro esa Hkxoku~ dkSu gSa\ D;ksafd Hkxoku~ o nsoh nsorkvksa dks ,d leku le>rk FkkA eSa lPps xq# dh [kkst esa Fkk tks fd eq>s okLrfod Kku nsosaA Hkxoku~ dh Ñik ls 1996 esa tc igyh ckj ve`rlj bLdkWu eafnj esa ln~xq#nso egkjkt th ds n'kZu fd;s rks rHkh ân; ls izsj.kk gqbZ fd ;gh esjs xq# gSaA xq# egkjkt th dk lRlax lquk ftlesa egkjkt us gesa Ñ".k HkfDr djus ds fo"k; esa crk;kA egkjkt th us cryk;k fd gesa viuk izR;sd dk;Z dsoy Hkxoku JhÑ".k dh izlUurk ds fy, djuk pkfg,A vxj ge Hkxoku JhÑ".k dh HkfDr djsaxs rks nsoh nsork vius vki larq"V gks tk;saxsA eq>s thou dk okLrfod y{; irk py x;kA egkjkt th us pkj fu;eksa dk ikyu djus] eaxyk vkjrh vkus o 16 ekyk ti djus ds fy, dgkA eSaus viuh vksj ls xq# th dk vkKk ekuus dk iz;kl fd;kA igys tgka esjk eu dsoy fo"k; fodkjksa esa o Vsyhfotu ns[kus -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- xq# egkjkt th dk ifrr nkl gfj HkDr nkl ve`rlj v}Sr vuqt nkl Jh xq# egkjkt ds pj.k deyksa esa v}Sr vuqt nkl dk n.Mor~ iz.kke Lohdkj dhft,A ;s ifrr vkids pj.k deyksa esa iz.kke djrs gq, vkils vkids Jh pj.k deyksa dh èkwyh dh dkeuk djrk gS D;ksafd vkids pj.kksa dh èkwyh gh eq> ifrr ds fy, lkj oLrq gSA vkids Jhpj.k deyksa dh èkwyh ls ;s ifrr ifo=k gks tk;sxkA eq> ifrr ij Ñik djrs gq, vius 'khry pj.k tks fd esjs fy;s HkfDr dk ,dek=k lkèku cy gaS rks Ñik djds eq>s vius Jh pj.kksa esa LFkku iznku dhft;sA vkids Jh pj.kksa dh bruh m|kr efgek Jo.k djus ds ckn Hkh ;s ifrr dk vkids pj.kksa ds izfr vuqjkx mRiUu ugha gks ikrkA ;gh Hkxoku~ ds Jh pj.kksa esa fdlh dk vijkèk gkssus ij gfjuke ml vijkèk dks u"V dj ldrk gSA ijarq vkids Jh pj.kksa esa vijkèk gksus ij ml vijkèk ls dnkfi fuLrkj ugha gks ldrkA ;s tkurs gq, Hkh ;s ifrr ckj&ckj vkids Jh pj.kksa esa vijkèk djrk jgrk gSA -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- esjs tSls nqjkpkjh dh Jh xq# pj.kksa esa ys'k ek=k Hkh jfr ugha gqbZA vr% eSa fdl izdkj Hkxoku dh lsok izkIr d:axk\ ij tc eSa vkidh n;kyqrk dks ns[krk gwa rks eq>s vk'kk gksrh gS fd vkidh Ñik ls ;g ifrr Hkh HkfDr ekxZ ij py ldsxkA gs xq#nso! 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vius xq# thds ije HkDr gksus ds dkj.k vkidks Jhy~ izHkqikn~ dh fo'ks"k Ñik izkIr gS vkSj izHkqikn~ th ds fiz; f'k"; gSaA bldk izR;{k izek.k izHkqikn~ th us eq>dks fn;k] eq>s vDlj izHkqikn~ ds LoIu vkrs jgrs gSaA 13-1-07 dks esjs dks izHkqikn~ dk LoIu vk;k] mlesa eSaus D;k ns[kk\ izHkqikn~ xq# egkjkt th dks dg jgs gSa fd bldks le>kvks fd lalkj esa dqN ugha j[kkA ns[k dgha ;g ek;k esa u pyh tk,\ izHkqikn~ th] xq# egkjkt ds ekè;e ls eq>dks crk jgs gSaA fiQj tc xq# egkjkt vius vklu ij cSBus yxrs gSa rks izHkqikn xq# th dks dgrs gSa fd rqe esjs ikl vkdj cSBksA xq# th cksyrs gSa fd eSa vkids cjkcj dSls cSB ldrk gwa\ rks izHkqikn~ dgrs gSa fd -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- eSa vius vkidks cgqr lkSHkkX;'kkyh le>rh gwaA eq> tSlh vèke ij vkius Ñik dh o"kkZ djds viuh 'kj.k nh gSA xq# egkjkt eq>esa lgus dh 'kfDr fcYdqy ugha gSA vki eq>s 'kfDr nsuk rkfd eSa ?kkl ls Hkh dksey rFkk fouez cu ldwaA xq# egkjkt eq>ls cgqr xyrh;ka gksrh gSa eq>s {kek djukA xq#nso vkids 'kqHk tUefnu ij eSa vkidks gkfnZd cèkkbZ nsrh gwa vkSj Hkxoku~ ls vkidh yEch vk;q dh izkFkZuk djrh gwaA vkidh mez gks gtkj cjl gj cjl ds fnu gksa ipkl gtkj Jhy~ uo;ksxsUnz Lokeh egkjkt dh t;! vkidh nq"V csVh lUurh nsoh nklh ve`rlj tqxy fd'kksj nkl lknj iz.kke vuqHko rks cgqr gSA ijarq dqN vuqHko tks eq>dks gq, gS] muesa ls dqN fy[kuk pkgw¡xkA xq# th vkius bu izHkq dh j{kk dh] mudks dSls idM+ dj j[kk\ ;g eSaus Li"V ns[kk gSA vkius eq>s lius esa nh{kk dh ekyk nh tks ghjksa dh cuh gqbZ Fkh xq# th vki èkeZjkt ds :i esa esjs lius esa vk, vkSj esjk ys[kk yks[kk ns[kk vki lius esa gekjs ?kj dbZ ckj vk, vkSj eSa bruk o¼ tho gwa fd vkidks ,d ckj Hkh vius ?kj ugha cqyk;k vkt jkr dks Hkh vki gekjs ?kj vk,s Fks vkSj eSaus fliQZ viuh izksCye gh vkidks crkbZ vkSj vkidh dksbZ vkoxHkr ugha dh ftldk eq>dks cgqr viQlksl Hkh gqvk vki dbZ ckj esjs lius esa vk, dHkh liQsn oL=k igu dj dHkh ihys oL=k esaA xq#th vki cgqr n;kyq gksa eq> o¼ tho dks {kek djuk eq> ij lnk Ñik n`f"V cuk, j[kuk vki gekjs tUe tUekraj ds xq# gS vki gekjs ân; esa fnO; Kku Hkjrs gS] vkSj gekjh can vka[k dks [kksyrs gS ijarq] ge o¼ tho [kksyuk ugha pkgrs ge ij Ñik djksA -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- vkidk vkKkdkjh tqxy fd'kksj nkl ve`rlj nhukukFk nkl t; Jh Ñ".k pSrU; izHkq fuR;kuUn Jh v}sr xnkèkj Jhoklkfn xkSj HkDr o`anA gjs Ñ".k gjs Ñ".k Ñ".k Ñ".k gjs gks gjs jke gjs jke jke jke gjs gjs esjs ikl 'kCn ugha ftlls eSa xq# egkjkt th dh Ñik dk O;k[kku dj ikÅ¡A fiQj eSa viuh rjiQ ls iwjh dksf'k'k d:¡xk ftlls eSa xq# egkjkt th dh Ñik izkIr dj ldw¡A ok¡PNk dYir:H;{kp Ñik flaèkqH; ,o pA ifrrkuke ikousH;ks oS".kOksH;ks ueks ue%AA xq# egkjkt th ifrr tho vkRekvksa ds izfr vR;Ur n;kyq vkSj vè;kfRed bPNkvksa dks iw.kZ djus ds fy, dYi o`{k ds leku gSaA xq# egkjkt th dk ân; n;k] d#.kk ls Hkjk gqvk gSA eSa tc xq# egkjkt th ds lEidZ esa vk;k rks xq# egkjkt tkurs Fks fd ;g vkRek cgqr Hkkjh ladV ls xqtjus okyh gSA xq# th us vius in dh izfr"Bk ls Åij mB dj eq>s nh{kk nh rkfd eq>s vkus okys ladV ls cpk;k tk ldsA tcfd eq>s vkus okys ladV dh dksbZ tkudkjh ugha Fkh vkSj eSa nh{kk ugha ysuk pkg jgk FkkA og ladV Hkh dSlk Fkk fd lkjk tekuk nq'eu] flj ij dtZ] vkenuh dk dksbZ lkèku ugha] lsgr fcydqy MkmuA xq# egkjkt th us nh{kk nsdj eq>s bl rjg vius vkapy esa Nqik fy;k fd dksbZ Hkh t+ekus dh pksV eq> rd ugha igqap ikbZA tc vkenuh dk dksbZ lkèku ugha gksrk rks xq# th cknyksa ls fudy dj -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- xq#th vè;kfRed bPNkvksa dks iw.kZ djus ds fy, dYi o`{k ds leku gSaA ,slh dksbZ Hkh (vè;kfRed) bPNk ugha tkss xq# th ds le{k izdV dh gks vkSj og iw.kZ u gqbZ gksA xq# egkjkt ftl thokRek dk dY;k.k djus dk ladYi dj ysrs gSa] mldk dY;k.k djds gh NksM+rs gSaA dbZ ckj gekjs eu esa vagdkj vk tkrk gS fd ge xq# egkjkt th dh lsok dj jgs gSaA ge cgqr cM+k midkj dj jgs gSaA ,slh ckr ugha gS actully esa xq# egkjkt gels FkksM+h lh lsok ysdj ge ij bruk midkj djrs gSa fd ge mldk vankt+k ugha yxk ldrs vkSj ml dtZ dks tUe tUekrjkas rd ugha mrkj ldrsA gekjh Hkxoku~ ls ;gh izkFkZuk gS fd xq# egkjkt th dk ;'k rhuksa yksdksa esa iQSys vkSj ge xq# egkjkt th dh Ñik ls ekxZ ij izxfr djrs gq, thou esa dksbZ ,slk deZ u dj cSBsa ftlls ge xq# egkjkt th ds ;'k dks Mqcks nasA vUr esa eSa ;gh dgwaxk fd xq: egkjkt gekjs vijkèkksa dks {kek djrs gSaA Hkolkxj ls mckjrs] gekjs iki deks± dks dkVrs gSaA HkfDr dk nku nsrs gSaA vUèkdkj dks nwj djrs gSaA gekjh cUn vka[kksa dks [kksyrs gSaA gekjh xq# egkjkt th ls izkFkZuk gS fd vkidh Ñik ge ij lnSo cuh jgsA xq# th ds pj.kksa esa iz.kke nhukukFk nkl ve`rlj lefiz;k nsoh nklh egkjkt th vkidks tUe fnu dh cgqr&cgqr cèkkbZ gksA egkjkt thA vki cgqr Ñikyq gSA tc ls eSa vkidh 'kj.k esa vkbZ gwa eq>s cgqr 'kkafr vkbZ gSA tc eSaus 'kq#vkr esa eafnj vkuk 'kq: fd;k rks eq>s egkjkt th dss izopu cgqr vPNs yxsA vkSj esjs eu us vkokt nh fd eSaus ;gh xq: èkkj.k djus gSA ckn esa vkidh Ñik ls gh eq>s eafnj esa FkksM+h lsok feyh vkSj fiQj vkils nh{kk Hkh feyhA tc Hkh eq>s dksbZ ?kjsyw ijs'kkuh gksrh gs rks eq>s vkids lius esa n'kZu gksrs gS vkSj ekxZn'kZu Hkh djrs gSA vkidks tc Hkh viuh ijs'kkuh crkrh gwa rks mlds ckn eu rukoeqDr gks tkrk gSA dqN le; igys gekjs ?kj esa ehV] v.Mk] I;kt vkfn curk FkkA ijarq tc ls eSaus nh{kk yh gS ,slh dksbZ Hkh pht gekjs ?kj esa ugha curh gSA ;s lc dqN vki dh Ñik ls gh lEHko gqvk gSA var esa eSa ;gh dgrh gwa fd xq# th eq>s lnSo viuh lsok esa yxk, j[ks vkSj viuh Ñik eq> ij cuk, j[ksA vkidh csVh lefiz;k nsoh nklh ve`rlj -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- n.Mor~ iz.kke! eSa xq#nso ds pj.kksa esa n.Mor~ iz.kke djrk gwaA egkjkt th dks muds tUe fnol ij yk[k&yk[k cèkkbZ gksA egkjkt th ,d ,slh 'kq¼ vkRek gSa] ftuds vkus ls fdlh Hkh euq"; ds thou esa cnyko vk ldrk gSA ,slk cnyko esjs thou esa Hkh egkjkt th ds vkus ls vk;kA eafnj ls eSa u;k&u;k tqM+k Fkk] rc eSa Job Computer dh djrk FkkA bUnzkuqt ve`rlj eafnj ds izcaèkd th us crk;k fd cVkyk esa egkjkt th dk fdlh ds ?kj ladhrZu gSA ;g lqudj eSaus vkSj esjs lkFk nks yM+dksa us (HkfDr&fodkl rFkk fo|k lkxj) us tkus dh bPNk trkbZA ge lHkh nksigj dks cVkyk igqapsA egkjkt th dk dhrZu lquk rFkk ckn esa egkjkt th ge lHkh yM+dksa dks fdlh ds ?kj ys x;sA geus lqcg dk uk'rk fd;k gqvk Fkk rks geus egkjkt th dks dqN ugha crk;kA ogka ij igqapus ij egkjkt th us ?kjokyksa dks dgk fd vki esjs cPpksa dks izlkn f[kykvks] ;s Hkw[ks gSaA budks izlkn f[kykvks A;g lqudj ge LrCèk jg x;s fd egkjkt th dks dSls irk pyk fd geus izlkn ugha xzg.k fd;k\ ;g dsoy Hkw[k dh ckr ugha Fkh cfYd ,d xq# dh vius f'k";ksa ds izfr muds ns[kHkky dh lksp FkhA ftl rjg eka&cki vius cPpksa dk è;ku j[krs gSa] mlh rjg xq# vius f'k"; dk è;ku j[krs gSaA ckr ;gha ij [kRe ugha gqbZ] 'kke gksus okyh FkhA gesa irk pyk fd ;gka 'kke dks ,d fuf'pr le; rd clsa ve`rlj dks tkrh gSaA gekjk lalkfjd eu gksus ds dkj.k egkjkt ds izfr 'kadk FkhA geus ckj&ckj egkjkt th ls iwNk] D;k ge tk;sa\ ysfdu egkjkt th us euk dj fn;kA geus lkspk fd egkjkt th rks viuh dkj esa vk;s gSa] egkjkt th rks viuh dkj esa pys tk;saxsA ge dSls ve`rlj igwapsxs\ gesa cVkyk esa ijs'kku gksuk iM+sxkA rHkh egkjkt th ls ,d Family feyus vkbZA mUgksaus dgk fd egkjkt th gekjs ikl dkj gSA vki gekjs lkFk pysaaA rHkh egkjkt th us dgk fd esjs ikl dkj gSS vkiyksx esjs cPpksa dks viuh dkj esa ve`rlj ys pyksA ;g ckr lqudj ge LrCèk jg x;s fd dSls xq#th vius nq"V HkDrksa dk [;ky j[krs gSaA eq>s vuqHko brus gq;s gSa fd vkidks eSa lkjs vuqHko fy[kdj ugha crk ldrkA lkjk lky gh vuqHko gksrs gSaA jksT+k ,slk izrhr gksrk gS fd egkjkt th esjs lax gh gSaA igyh ckj eSa O;kl iwtk ij mèkeiqj x;kA ogka ij esjs ikl HkksysukFk dh lsok (iSls ds :i esas) iM+h gqbZ FkhA og lsok eSaus 'kadj Hkxoku th ds fy;s j[kh FkhA esjs eu esa vk;k fd ;g lsok eSa xq# th dks ns nwaA fiQj eSaus ;g lsok xq#th ds pj.kksa esa j[k nhA ij esjs eu esa ;g iz'u ckj&ckj mBrk jgk fd ;g lsok eSaus 'kadj Hkxoku ds fy;s j[kh FkhA ijarq ;g lsok eSaus xq#th ds pj.kksa esa ns nhA esjs eu esa ;g iz'u ckj&ckj mBrk jgkA eSaus eu esa xq#th dks izkFkZuk dh fd eSaus dksbZ xyrh rks ugha dh\ rc ,dne esjk ,d xq# HkkbZ ujflag nkl iaMky esa vk;k vkSj mlus dgk fd egkjkt th Hkksys ckck gSaA egkjkt th 'kadj Hkxoku gSaA ujflag nkl us egkjkt th ds tSdkjs yxkus 'kq# dj fn;s fd -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- eSaus fiQj egkjkt th ls nh{kk Hkh yhA esjk lalkfjd uke xksLokeh jfoUnz dqekj gSA vkidk nkl jke fdadj nkl jke fdadj nkl dk eryc lnk lsok esa rRij ve`rlj xkSajkx nkl n.Mor iz.kke! xq#nso th dks muds tUefnu ij yk[k&yk[k cèkkbZA xq# nso ds bl fnu ds ckjs esa tc eSa lksprk gwa rks esjs eu esa vnHkqr izdkj dh 'kkafr feyrh gSA tc eSaus igyh ckj O;kl iwtk mèkeiqj èkke esa tkdj] bldk NksVk lk fgLlk] tks u ds cjkcj Fkk] cudj cgqr izlUurk gkfly dhA eSa bu rhu fnuksa dh ;kn djrk gwa tks eSaus mèkeiqj esa fcrk,A vius vki dks HkkX;'kkyh le>rk gwaA eSaus vuqHko fd;k fd eSaus ,d ,sls egku~ O;fDr ds tUe fnu esa Hkkx fy;k] ftUgksaus esjh ftanxh esa ugha cfYd fo'o ds dbZ thoksa dh ftanxh esa ,d vyx izdkj dh lkspus dh 'kfDr ;k fdlh nwljs O;fDr ds lq[k&nq[k esa fgLlk ysus dh ,d {kerk iznku dh ftlls lHkh thoksa dk thou lqj{kk rFkk HkfDre; cu ik,A eSa vkidks ,d vuqHko crkus tk jgk gwa ftluss eq>s egkjkt th ds ckjs esa esjs eu dh lkjh 'kadkvksa dks nwj dj fn;kA ve`rlj esa gekjs egYys esa egkjkt th dk dhrZu Fkk rks esjs eu dh bPNk Fkh fd egkjkt th gekjs ?kj ij ièkkjsA ysfdu rc ge fdjk, ds edku esa jgrs Fks rFkk gekjk dejk pkSFkh eafty ij FkkA ;g lkspdj viuh bPNk nck nh fd dgka brus cM+s lar gekjs ?kj eaft+yas p<+ dj tk,saxs\ eSa egkjkt th ds fy, vkbZlØhe Hkh yk;k gqvk FkkA tc dhrZu [kRe gqvk rks eSaus vius cM+s HkkbZ jfo (jkefdadj) ls ckr dh ysfdu oks Hkh pqi jgkA brus esa esjh cM+h cgu us egkjkt th dks ?kj ij vkus ds fy, dgkA rc egkjkt th us gka dj nh rks geus Hkh lcls uhps okyh eafty ij fdjk,nkj jgrs Fks] mudk dejk [kqyok;k rHkh egkjkt th us dejs ds vanj tkus ls igys gh dg fn;k fd eq>s vius Åij okys dejs esa ugha ysdj tkvksxs\ eSa ;g lqudj gSjku gks x;k fd egkjkt th dks ;g ugha irk Fkk fd ge pkSFkh eaft+y ij jgrs gSaA egkjkt th pkj eaftysa Åij x;s vkSj 10&15 feuV rd cSBs jgsA blls Li"V gksrk gS fd fdl rjg egkjkt th vius f'k";ksa dk è;ku j[krs gSa\ pkgs f'k"; egkjkt th dh vkKk dk ikyu djsa ;k u djsaA -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- egkjkt th dk f'k"; xkSajkx nkl ve`rlj] iatkc ljLorh nsoh nklh vkids pj.k deyksa esa lknj n.Mor iz.kke! Jh xq: egkjkt! tUe fnol ds volj ij ge lcdh vksj ls gkfnZd cèkkkbZ Lohdkj dj yhft,A Jh xq: egkjkt! tcls geus vkils nh{kk yh gS vkSj tc ls vkils feys gSa] gekjs thou esa lq[k vkSj 'kkfUr vk xbZ gSA Jh xq: egkjkt th! ge ij vkidh cgqr d`ik gSA vkils feydj rFkk vkids n'kZu dj ysus ek=k ls ,slk yxrk gS fd tSls gesa lc dqN fey x;k gSA Jh xq: egkjkt! esjs fy, esjs ekrk firk lc dqN vki gh gSaA Jh egkjkt th! eSaus 1iQjojh ls 10 Qjojh ds chp nks lius ns[ks gSaA igyk % ,d fnu lqcg egkjkt th dks 'kadj Hkxoku ds eafnj esa ns[kkA egkjkt th f'kofyax ij iQwy ekyk,a p<+k jgs Fks vkSj f'kofyax dks vius gkFkksa dh dkSfy;k esa Hkj j[kk FkkA nwljk% nks&rhu fnu ckn eSaus txnxq: Jhy~ izHkwikn~ dks ns[kk] ijUrq muds cky yEcs Fks rFkk muds ihNs lat; izHkw th [kM+s FksA Jh xq: egkjkt th! ge ij bruh Ñik dj nhft, fd gels tkus vutkus esa cgqr iki] vijkèk vkSj xfYr;k¡ gks tkrh gSa] ;s lc vijkèk gels u gksa rFkk ge vkids crk;s gq, jkLrss ij 'kq¼rk vkSj lPpkbZ ls py ldsa rFkk Hkxoku~ dh vkSSj muds HkDrksa dh lsok izse ls dj ldsaA Jh xq: egkjkt~ esjs eu esa ckrsa vkSj fopkj cgqr gSa] ij eSa mu lcdks O;Dr ugha dj ik jgh gw¡A eq>s rFkk esjh xfYr;ksa dks {kek dj nhft,xkA vkidh csVh LkjLorh nsoh nklh Eqkjknkckn -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Jh Jh fuR;kuanikn egkjkt th dh t; ! xq:nso! vkids pj.kksa esa Ñ".kHkkouke`r Hkko esa bl uoo"kZ dh O;kl iwtk 2007 ds volj ij dqN 'kCn g`n; ls dye }kjk izxV dj jgk gw¡] iz;kl dj jgk gw¡A eSaus vkids Hktuksa dh dSlsV Trinidad W.I. esa igyh ckj lquh FkhA eq>s ;kn gS vkSj ges'kk ;kn jgrh gSA og xq: vkSj xksfoUn ds izfr tks izse HkfDr ds Hkko mRiUu gksdj] g`n; dks Nw dj] g`n; ds Hkhrj vUr%dj.k dh xgjkbZ esa mrj dj] izse iq:"kksÙke Jh Ñ".k pSrU; egkizHkw dh Ñik ds izlkn ds vkuUn dk vuqHko fd;k djrk gw¡A tc&tc mu {k.kksa esa jgrk gw¡] rks lalkj dk vuqHko de gh gksrk gS] D;ksa\ bldk tokc esjs ikl ugha gSA xq:nso! eq>esa cgqr dfe;k¡] detksfj;k¡ gSaA ÑI;k djds budks vuns[kk djus dh Ñik djsaA vkidk nkl] vkids izfr bZekunkjh ls lPpk o 'kq¼ HkDr cuus dk iz;kl dj jgk gSA dqN leL;k;sa Lor% gh vk tkrh gSaA x`gLFk vkJe esa gw¡] LoèkeZ vkpj.k dk iz;kl dj jgk gw¡A ;qDr oSjkX; dk ;Fkk lEHko iz;kl dj jgk gw¡A xq:nso! esjs fy;s ;g dguk cM+k vklku gS] ij djuk cgqr dfBu gSA esjh xnZu dh ukM+h rax djrh gS] blds dkj.k ftruh lsok djuk pkgrk gw¡] dj ugha ikrkA xq:nso! eSa tc vkids Trinidad Sanfremando Hill ls vkids Hkxon~xhrk izopu ds ckn vkids lkFk ykSV jgk Fkk rks vkius dgk] viuh xfYr;ksa dks jkst+ ns[kks vkSj mudks Bhd djus dk iz;kl djksA eSa ;FkklaHko iz;kl dj jgk gw¡A vkidks tks 'kCn vPNs yxsa] Lohdkj djsa vkSj tks vPNs u gksa] mUgsa Ñik dj dkV nsaA vkidk nkl lukru xksLokeh nkl 'kkgknjk o`Unkou nkl ije J¼s; Jhy~ fuR;kuanikn egkjkt th ds pj.kksa esa lknj n.Mor iz.kkeA vc ls yxHkx 7&8 o"kZ iwoZ eSaus dHkh Hkh fdlh èkkkfeZd izopu vkfn dks lquuk ilUn ugha fd;kA eafnj Hkh ;nk& dnk fdlh R;ksgkj vkfn ij ?kweus ds mns'; ls pyk tkrk FkkA yxHkx 5&6 o"kZ iwoZ egkjkt th dk gekjs 'kgj eqjknkckn esa izFke ckj vkxeu gqvkA igyh ckj egkjkt dks lqukA muds eq[k ls bl euq"; thou dk mns'; D;k gS\ bl ckjs esa tkukA egkjkt Jh ds n'kZu ek=k ls gh ,d -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- ;|fi eSa blds ;ksX; fcYdqy Hkh ugha Fkk fd eq> tSls O;fDr dks lRlax dh izkfIr gks ldsA ysfdu u tkus D;ksa rHkh ls fdlh u fdlh lkèkq&lUr dks ?kj ij cqykus dk volj eq>s feyrk jgkA ysfdu esjs xq:nso Hkh ,d fnu esjs ?kj vk;sA vk;as] ;s bPNk esjs eu esa nch jghA ,d fnu jkr dks lksrs le; LoIu esa eq>s egkjkt th ds n'kZu gq,A cl] eSa egkjkt th ds pj.kksa esa vijkèkh dh HkkfUr cSBk gw¡A egkjkt us esjs flj ij ,d pir ekjhA eSa jks jgk gw¡ fiQj egkjkt us dqN iqLrdsa eq>s nha vkSj dgk] budks Ik<+k djksA jksrs&jksrs esjh vka[kas [kqy xb±A bl Loiu ds ckjs esa eSaus viuh iRuh dks crk;kA mUgksaus iQkSju eq>s egkjkt dks iQksu djus dksA dgk mu fnuksa egkjkt lEHkor% ukfld dqHHk esa FksA eSaus iQksu fd;k] gfj cksy dh eèkqj èofu lqukbZ nhA egkjkt th dh vkokt lqurs gh u tkus D;ksa fiQj esjh vka[kas Nyd vkb±A eSaus mudks vuqjksèk fd;k fd tc Hkh eqjknkckn vk;sa] pkgs FkksM+h nsj dks gh lgh] esjs ?kj Hkh vo'; vk;saA gkykafd eq>s ;dhu ugha gks jgk Fkk fd brus cM+s egkjkt D;k eq> tSls rqPN ds ;gka vk;saxs\ fiQj dqN le; ckn egkjkt esjs ?kj vk;s] lqcg gekjs ?kj eaxy vkjrh Hkh dhA muds vkus ls esjk lkjk ?kj ifo=k gks x;kA bl rjg èkhjs&èkhjs gfjuke ds izfr esjk fo'okl iSnk gksrk x;k A Lo;a dks ;g eglwl gksus yxk fd okLro esa gfj o gfj ds uke esa dksbZ vUrj ugha gSA xq:nso dh ,slh Ñik vuk;kl eq> ij gksus yxhA èkhjs&èkhjs geus vius ?kj esa furkb&xkSj ds foxzg j[k fy;s vkSj ifjokj lfgr fuR; izfr mudh lsok djus yxsA fiQj vius ?kj ij eaxy vkjrh Hkh izkjEHk dj nhA bl lcls eq>s cgqr vkfRed 'kkfUr dk vuqHko gqvkA fuR; izfr tc Hkh eq>s volj feyrk] vius ifjokj lfgr furkbZ&xkSj ds lkeus cSBdj dhrZu fd;k djrkA ftlls esjs lkjs fnu dh vkWfiQl dh Fkdku iy esa nwj gks tkrh FkhA dqN le; i'pkr eq>s iqu% egkjkt th ds n'kZu LoIu esa gq,A gekjs ?kj ds ftl dejs esa Bkdqj th fojkteku gSa] mlh dejs esa egkjkt dhrZu mijkUr foJke dj jgs gSaA ml dejs esa Bkdqj th ds vykok dksbZ ugha gksrk gSA ,slk LoIu eSa ns[k eSa vius dks cgqr èkkU; eku jgk gw¡A eSa fcYdqy Hkh bl ;ksX; ugh gw¡ fiQj Hkh xq:nso dh bruh Ñik gSA eSa bl ;ksX; ugha fd xq:nso dk izse ik ldwa ysfdu fiQj Hkh esjs xq:nso viuh Ñik o izse fujUrj eq> ij cjlk jgs gSaA vHkh Hkh eq>esa cgqr nks"k gSa ftudks pkgdj Hkh eSa nwj ugha dj ik jgk gw¡A xq:sno ds pj.kksa esa esjh fcurh gSa fd eq> ij dqN ,slh Ñik gks tk;s fd eSa vius nks"kksa dks NksM+dj vius vki dks lUekxZ dh vksj vxzlj dj ldwaA o`Unkou nkl eqjknkckn -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- iwT; xq:nso] vkids pj.k deyksa esa eq> nklh dk ckjEckj iz.kkeA xq:nso! vkidh t; gks! vkidk ;'k lkjh nqfu;k esa iQSys vkSj vkidh yEch vk;q gksA eq> tSls ifrrksa dk m¼kj djus ds fy, vki bl nqfu;k esa vk;s gSaA vkidh cgqr t:jr gSA vkidh vuUr efgek dk eSa dSls o.kZu dj ldrh gw¡\ tSlh Hkh gw¡] eSa vkidh nklh gwaA eSaus cgqr vijkèk fd;s gSaA xq:nso! {kek djuk vkSj vgSrqdh Ñik cuk, j[kukA ije iq:"k xq:nso th] HkfDr] eqfDr] nkrkjA Jh ;qxy pj.kkj esa] ckj&ckj ueLdkjAA 'kj.kkxr oRly izHkks] d:.kk ds vkxkjA J¼k iw.kZ] ee oUnuk] izHkw djks LohdkjAA Lkr&fpr&vkUun :Ik gSa] ije iq:"k xq:nsoA Lkgts gh lq[k ikb;s] ftudh fueZy lsoAA vkids pj.kksa dh nklh lqfe=kk nsoh nklh lR;orh nsoh nklh gjs Ñ".k gjs Ñ".k Ñ".k Ñ".k gjs gjs gjs jke gjs jke jke jke gjs gjsAA Jh xq: egkjkt th dks 'kr~ 'kr~ iz.kke! gekjs xq: egkjkt Jhy~ uo;ksxsUnz Lokeh th dks] eSa lcls igys 2004 ds] eghus esa o`Unkou esa feyh FkhA mlds ckn eSa ogka ls rqjar gfj}kj vk xbZA o`Unkou esa xq: egkjkt ls Hkkxor dFkk rFkk muds Hktu lqudj] ogha ls esjs g`n; esa lksbZ gqbZ Ñ".k HkfDr tkx`r gqbZA eq>s yx jgk gS fd og vius egkea=k dh èkqu ls ge lcdks gj le; iqdkj jgs gaSA Jh xq: egkjkt th ds egkea=k dh èkqu vkSj Hktu bruk izseHkko vkSj lalkj ds izfr fojDrh -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- tc esjs bl uothou dk 'kqHkkjaHk gqvk] rc tqykbZ eghus esa rqjUr xq: egkjkt nks ckj gfj}kj vk;sA gfj}kj ls cnzh& dsnkj tkrs vkSj vkrs le;] os gfj}kj esa ,d&nks fnu foJke ds fy;s :ds vkSj ge lcdks mudh lsok dk lqvolj feykA mlds ckn] flrEcj ds eghus esa] eSa cgqr vLoLFk jghA esjk LokLF; vpkud fxj x;kA eSaus ml voLFkk eas nks&rhu ckj xq: egkjkt dks lius esa ;k dHkh tkx`r voLFkk esa ns[kkA ;enwrksa dk lkeuk djus ds fy, vFkok esjs d"Vksa dks nwj djus ds fy, mUgksuas x:M+ :Ik esa eq>s nks ckj n'kZu fn;sA mudh izHkko'kkyh ukd vkSj rstLoh O;fDrRo] pedhys js'ksnkj dkys rFkk lqugjs oL=kksa ls x:M+ Hkxoku~ tsls gh lq'kksfHkr FksA esjk ladV Vy x;k Fkk vkSj eSa ianjk fnuksa esa gh fcuk fdlh nokbZ ds Bhd gks xbA mlds ckn dHkh dHkh eSaus ns[kk fd mudh dgha Hkkxor~ dFkk gks jgh gS vkSj eSa tYnh&tYnh pydj ogka igqapuk pkgrh gwaA mlds ckn] tc jkethou izHkw th nh{kk ds fy;s x;s gq, FksA eSaus lius esa i.Mky ltk gqvk ns[kkA xq: egkjkt O;kl ihB ls] jkethou izHkq th dks xqs:ok oL=k ns jgs gSaA ckn esa jke thou izHkq th vpkud xs:ok igu dj gfj}kj okil ykSVsA fiQj ,d ckj ;gka ge lc cgqr fpafrr FksA dkj.k] egkjk"Vªª ls nks clsa Hkjdj vLlh HkDr rFkk ekrk,a nks fnu ds fy, vkus okyh Fkha A jgus dh O;oLFkk gks xbZ Fkh fdUrw muds izlkn dh O;oLFkk] ,d leL;k cu xbZA eSa igys gh ,d liuk ns[k pqdh Fkh fd eafnj ds ikl okys esjs dejs esa ckfYV;k¡ Hkj&Hkjdj izlkn j[kk gS vkSj xq: egkjkt tYnh&tYnh mldks ckgj ijkslus ds fy, eq>s dg jgs gSaA rhu fnu ls jke thou izHkw th cgqr fpafrr Fks fd vpkud mUgsa ,d dkUVªsDVj fey x;k ftlds iQyLo:Ik lkjh Hkkstu dh O;oLFkk dk vk;kstu de ls de O;; esa fufoZZ?u rFkk lqpk: :i ls] Lokfn"V Hksktu ds lkFk lEiUu gqvkA fcuk fdlh d"V ds bruk cM+k izlax] ,d vkuan dh vuqHkwfr] Le`fr cu xbZ tks fd gekjs xq: egkjkt dh vlhe Ñik ls gesa izkIr gSA eSa xr o"kZZ 2006 esa] O;kl iwtk ds fy, mèkeiqj xbZ FkhA gfj}kj ls esjk fjVuZ fVdV Fkh tks dsoy nks fnu ds ckn fy, FkhA esjh mèkeiqj esa jgus dh izcy bPNk FkhA nwljs gh fnu nh{kk ls iwoZ] esjs gkFk essa pksV yxhA esjs xys dh ,d gM~Mh VwV xbZA MkDVj us ,d eghus ds fy, VªhVeSaUV dh lykg nhA tcfd nnZ ugha ds cjkcj Fkk vkSj eSa eu gh eu vkuanfoHkksj gksdj Jh xq: egkjkt dks rFkk mèkeiqj ds foxzgksa dh vlhe Ñik dh vuqHkwfr esa eXu gks xbZA ,sls gh fdruh ckj] esjh lc bPNk,a lkdkj gqbZ gSaA bls eSa] gekjs xq: egkjkt dh Ñik dk peRdkj ekurh gwaA iQyLo:i mèkeiqj esa eq>s mudh 'kj.k esa ,d eghus rd jgus dk lqvolj feykA ml le; eafnj esa tki djrs le;] jkst+ gh egkjkt th dks è;ku esa Jhy~ izHkwikn~ th ds lkFk okrkZyki djrs gq, eSa ns[krh jghA -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- vc ,sls vufxur n`"Vkar bu nks&<kbZ o"kZ dh vofèk esa] esjs thou dk HkfDr ekxZ iz'kLr dj jgs gSaA Jhy~ izHkwikn~ egkjkt dh t;A Jh lnxq: egkjkt dh t;A vkidh ÑikfHkyk"kh lR;orh nsoh nklh jkfèkdk nsoh nklh ije vkjkè; Jhy~ xq:nso] pj.k oUnuA gs d:.kkfuèkku~! O;kl iwtk ds iquhr volj ij vkids ikou iknin~eksa esa bl nhughu ifrr vèke tho dk lk"Vkax n.Mor~ iz.kke Lohdkj djsaA vkt dk fnu cgqr 'kqHk vkSj eaxydkjh gSA Hkxoku~ Jh gfj ds fudV jgus okys] esjs fiz; xq: th dk fnO; tUefnu gSA vkids izkdV; ds bl ije ifo=k fnol dh ge lkjs] vkids f'k";x.k cM+h ykylk ls izrh{kk djrs gSa D;ksafd bl 'kqHk volj ij Jh xq:nso dh ikou dhfrZ dk xq.kxku djus dk lkSHkkX; izkIr gksrk gSA esjk tUe vKku :ih vaèkkdkj esa gqvk Fkk& ijUrq ije n;kyq Jh xq:nso us Kku :ih izdk'k }kjk esjs us=kksa dks [kksy fn;kA eSa vfr fud`"V thokRek gwa fiQj Hkh vkidh vgSrqdh Ñik dk iQy gS fd vki tSls egkRek dh pj.k oUnuk djus dk lkSHkkX; eq>s izkIr gqvk gSA xq: rks] viuh xq:rk ls gh xq: gSaA blfy, xq: dh Lrqfr gksrh gSA xq: iwtk] O;fDr dh iwtk ugha gS] og rks xq.kksa dh iwtk gSA vki leLr HkweaMy dks nSfnI;eku djus okys lw;Z ls Hkh vfèkd rstLoh ,oa xkSjo'kkyh gSa vkSj eSa {kqnz tqxuq ls Hkh vfèkd rqPN gwaaA Jh pSrU; egkizHkw dh ok.kh dks lkFkZd djus ds fy, izHkwikn~ th ds }kjk fn, x, vkns'k dk ikyu dj txr dks Ñ".k HkfDr dh vksj tkx`r djds vki ifrr thoksa dk m¼kj dj jgs gaSA Hkxoku pSrU; us crk;k gS % -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- tks HkkX;'kkyh gksrs gSa] mudks Hkxoku~ Ñ".k vkSj vki tSls egku xq: dh Ñik ls HkfDryrk dh izkfIr gksrh gSA vkius] vius thou dky dk lkjk le; vius ije xq: Jhy~ izHkwikn~ th dks viZ.k dj fn;k gSA vki {kek'khy gSa] gekjh xfYr;ksa ij è;ku u nsdj] gesa lqèkjus dk ekSdk feyrk gS vkSj mRlkfgr djrs gSaA fiz; xq:nso! vki rks ije firk ijekRek ls feyus esa gj rjg ls l{ke gSaA eSa vkidk dksfV&dksfV vkHkkj izdV djrh gwa fd vkius eq>s Ñ".k uke :ih uS;k ij p<+kdj bl Hkolkxj dks ikj djus dk jkLrk fn[kk;kA vkius Jh Ñ".k dh izse HkfDr :ih o`f"V djds Hkonkokuy ls ge lc dks vHk; nku fn;k gSA vr% ge vkids vfr Í.kh gSA xq: dh efgek dk o.kZu djus ds fy, vxj lkjh i`Foh dks dkxt Lo:i] lc ufn;ksa dks L;kgh o lkjs taxyksa dh ydfM+;ksa dks dye Lo:i cuk;as] rc Hkh xq: dh efgek dk o.kZu ugha dj ldrsA eq>s iwjh vk'kk gS fd esjs lnxq:nso esjs voxq.kksa dks u ns[krs gq, Hkfo"; es Hkh mruk gh Lusg ftruk fd vkt rd fn;k gS] nsrs jgsaxsA gekjs mij vki viuh Ñik cuk, j[ksa rkfd bl vkè;kfRed thou esa vkus okyh lHkh :dkoVsa Lo;a nwj gks tk,a rFkk ge vkidh vkKk dk ikyu djus esa leFkZ cusaA vkids pj.kksa esa esjk vVwV fo'okl cuk jgs ftlls eSa Jh Jh xkSj jkèkkk Ñ".k ds pj.kkasa dh lsok rFkk HkfDr tUe tUekUrjksa rd izkIr dj ldwa vkSj vkids pj.kksa esa vfUre {k.k xqtkj ldwaA O;kl iwtk ds ikou volj ij vkids LokLF; o nh?kkZ;q dh eaxy dkeuk djrh gwaA =qkfV;ksa ds fy, {kek ;kpuk pkgrh gwaA vkidh lsok dh vfHkyk"kh] jkfèkdk nsoh nklh bUnzk.kh nsoh nklh ^^t; xq:nso** eSa vius xq: ds pj.kksa esa iz.kke djrh gwa tks fd ifrr vkRekvksa ds m¼kj ds fy, vorfjr gq, gSaA tc ls eSa egkjkt th ds lEidZ esa vkbZ gw¡ rc ls eq>s dbZ vuqHko gq, gSaA yxHkx 7&8 lky igys dqN yksx efUnj ds HkDrksa dks bZ"kkZZo'k cgqr ijs'kku dj jgs FksA rc eSaus LoIu esa ns[kk fd oks yksx efUnj esa lcdks ekjus ds fy, efUnj ds vUnj vk,A eSa Mjdj Hkxoku~ jkèkkÑ".k ds foxzgksa ds le{k [kM+s gksdj cpkus ds fy, izkFkZuk djus yxh vkSj eSaus ns[kk fd jkèkkk Ñ".k ds foxzg us dgk fd dqN fpUrk er djks] dqN le; ckn] lc dqN vius vki gh Bhd gks tk,xkA oks yksx tc eq>s ekjus yxs rks eSaus LoIu esa gh egkeU=k tiuk 'kq: dj fn;k vkSj mu yksxksa ds gkFk eq>s idM+ gh ugha ik jgs FksA fiQj eSaus egkjkt th dks efUnj ds dk;kZy; esa dhrZu djrs ns[kk vkSj egkjkt th us dgk fd dhrZu -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- gekjs egkjkt th Hkxoku ds ,d 'kq¼ HkDr gSaA egkjkt th! eq>esasa cgqr lh dfe;ka gSaA vki Ñik djds bUgsa nwj djsa vkSj gesa lnSo viuh lsok esa yxk,a j[ksaA lnSo vkidh ÑikfHkykf"k.kh bUnzk.kh nsoh nklh ve`rlj ikouh xaxk nsoh nklh vkt ije lkSHkkX; dk fnol gS tks vius ije fiz; xq: ds fy, dqN fy[kus tk jgh gwaaA ,slk fpjLej.kh; lkSHkkX; izFke ckj eq>s lu~ 1996 esa feyk Fkk tc egkjkt th dk 50 oka Lo.kZ t;Urh fnol euk;k x;k FkkA ml le; egkjkt th ds ,d nks ckj gh n'kZu fd;s Fks vkSj vuk;kl gh dqN fy[kus dk eu gks x;k FkkA ij ges'kk gh Hk; cuk jgrk Fkk fd egkjkt th =qfV;ksa dks ns[kdj ukjkt u gksaA vknj.kh; lat; izHkw th] dqUrh ekrk th dks viuk Mj fNikrs gq, nh{kk ysus ds fy, dgk vkSj 1996 esa gh nhf{kr gks xbZA esjs thou esa ,d u;k eksM+ izkjEHk gks x;kA 16 ekyk,a djus yxh rFkk ,dkn'kh dk ozr HkhA ,sls rks thou esa vusdksa ozr rFkk iwtk djrh Fkh fdUrq tks 'kkfUr Ñã.kHkkouke`r esa feyh og 'kk;n dHkh ughaA iwT; egkjkt th ls feyus dh bPNk muds pj.k jt ysus dh bPNk mÙkjksÙkj c<+rh tk jgh FkhA 96&97 esa egkjkt th us esjh ,d iqLrd ^xq: Ñik ds ghjs eksrh* dk foekspu Hkh fd;kA ,sls n;ke;] d:.kk ds lkxj] vèkeksa ds ifrr ikou egkjkt th dks ueu gh ueu djus dks eu djrk gSA iwT;uh; egkjkt ds n'kZu dh tc cgqr mRdV bPNk gksrh gS] rc os n;k djds Lo;a gh n'kZu ns nsrs gSaA bldk mnkgj.k f'kdkxks esa gqvk] ogka vuk;kl gh n'kZu gq,A mèkeiqj eSa Hkh iwT; egkjkt th ds n'kZu gsrq xbZ FkhA o`Unkou esa Hkh egkjkt th ds vuk;kl gh n'kZu gks x;s] cgqr vPNk yxkA egkjkt th y[kumQ vkdj Hkh dHkh dHkh n'kZu nsrs gSaA egkjkt th ^xkSj jkèkkk Ñ".k* efUnj esa tc vkrs Fks vkSj ogka dh O;oLFkk dk fujh{k.k djrs Fks] ml le; dh jkSud vkt Hkh ;gh izkFkZuk djrh gw¡ fd vius eafnj dh mUgksaus gh Nw tkrh gSA Hkxoku ls gzn; dks bldh uhao Mkydj iYyfor fd;k gSA mldk fujh{k.k djsa rFkk vius mQij bldh ckxMksj lEHkkys ftlls fd bldk fodkl fnu&izfrfnu -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- xq: vkSj Jh Ñ".k dh Ñik ls HkfDryrk :ih cht izkIr gksrk gSA tc rd Hkxoku dh Ñik izkIr ugha gksrh] rc rd izkekf.kd izHkw dh Ñik izkIr ugha gksrhA xq: eq[k ls Jo.k dh gqbZ Jh Ñ".k dFkk g`n; esa HkfDr dk mn; djrh gSA gekkjs I;kjs xq:nso] vki lfg".kq] mnkj] Ñikyq] vèkeksa dk m¼kj djus okys] izHkwikn~ th ds fo'ks"k fiz; f'k"; gSaA vkidk fo'ks"k xq.k Li"Voknh LoHkko gS A f'k"; dh =qfV;ksa dks vki rqjUr ekxZn'kZu djrs gSaA ftlls fd og vius vkè;kfRed thou esa fiQj Mxj &exj u gksA {kek iznku djuk Hkh vkidk fo'ks"k xq.k gSA gs egkjkt th! eaS rks cgqr gh vèke] uhp ,oa ikih vkRek gwaA vkius eq>s viuk fy;k gS rks vo'; gh vkids Jh pj.kksa esa pydj Jh Ñ".k Ñik dh izkfIr gksxh] ,slh iw.kZ vk'kk gSA vkidh Ñik lnk gh feyrh jgs rFkk vkidk nqyZHk n'kZu izkIr gksrk jgsA Jh xkSj&furkbZ ,oa Jh Jh jkèkk&Ñ".k ds pj.kksa esa ;gh izkFkZuk gSA Jh egkjkt th! vkidh bl O;kl iwtk ds 'kqHkkolj ij esjk dksfV dksfV n.Mor iz.kke ,oa cèkkbZA vkids vkfoHkkZo fnol ij] eSa Jh Jh xkSj jkèkk&Ñ".k] Jh xkSj furkbZ ,oa txnxq: Jh izHkwikn~ ls vkidh nh?kkZ;q] LoLFk ,oa eaxye; Hkfo"; dh g`n; ls izkFkZuk djrh gwaA vki txr esa vusdksa vikou vkRekvksa dk m¼kj djsaA Jh Ñ".k dh ikou izsekHkfDr dh vksj ys tk;saA vki bZ'oj ds izfrfufèk gSa vkidk ;'k pkjksa fn'kkvksa esa xqaftr gks rFkk dhfrZ dh irkdk lnk ygygkrh jgsA Ekgkjkt th! viuh Ñik n`f"V lnk bl tho ij cuk;s jf[k;sxk] ftlls izHkw dh lsok] lqefju] ti rFkk HkfDr lnk fu;eiwoZd gksrh jgsA vkidk vorj.k ge tSls ifrrksa ds m¼kj ds fy, ,oa ,d ubZ fn'kk nsus ds fy;s gh gqvk gSA vkids vkfoHkkZo fnol ij ckj&ckj gkfnZd cèkkkbZZ A vkidh lsfodk ikouh xaxk nsoh nklh y[kumQ lkdqHkjh nsoh n.Mor iz.kke! lcls igys eSa vkidks] vkids tUe fnol ij 'kqHk dkeuk,a HksV djrh gw¡ vkSj Jh Jh xkSj jkèkk&Ñ".k ls izkFkZuk djrh gwa fd os vkidks nh?kkZ;q nsa rkfd bu LokFkhZ vkSj HkVds gq, thoksa dk dY;k.k gksA xq: th tc ls eSaus vkils nh{kk yh gSA eq>s cgqr 'kkfUr feyh gS vkSj esjk ikfjokfjd thou lq[ke; gks x;kA ;g lc vkidh gh Ñik dk vk'khokZn gS tks vki eq> tSls ikfi;ksa ij n`f"V Mkyrs -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- vkidh nklh lkdqHkjh nsoh y{eh nsoh nklh Jhers uo;ksxsUnz Lokfeu~ bfr ukfeusA ueLrs izHkwikn~ nsos uke ladhrZu ok.kh izpkfj.ks] fufoZ'ks"k 'kwU;okfn leLr ns'k rkfj.ksAA ije iwT;uh; Jh xq: egkjkt vkids pj.k deyksa esa vkidh bl vèke f'k";kdk lknj n.Mor iz.kke Lohdkj gksA gs xq:nso! vkt vkids bdlBosa fnO; tUe fnol ij] eSa Hkxoku~ Jh Jh xkSj jkèkk&Ñ".k ds pj.k deyksa esa lknj izkFkZuk djrh gwa fd Hkxoku~ esjs xq: egkjkt th dks nh?kZ vk;q iznku djsaA gs esjs fiz; xq:nso! vki Jhy~ izHkwikn~ th ds ije fiz; f'k"; gSa ,oa fo'ks"k Ñik ik=k gSa vkSj bl èkjrh ij vius xq: egkjkt dh izlUurk ds fy, eq> tSlh vla[; vèke thokRekvksa dks 'kq¼ HkfDr dk izpkj djrs gq, fnO; Jh Ñ".k izse iznku dj jgs gSaA gs xq:nso! vkids ikl gekjs gj nq%[k rFkk jksx dk bZykt gS] oks fiQj pkgs 'kjhj dk gks ;k eu dkA blh rjg vkids }kjk fn;k gqvk ;g esjk nwljk tUe gSA vkt ls pksng lky igys eq>s eqag dk ydok gqvk Fkk] lHkh bZykt djokus ds ckn] tc eSa gkj xbZ rks vkius eq>s vius pj.k deyksa dh Nk;k nh vkSj vkius eq>s dgk Hkxoku Jh Jh xkSj jkèkk&Ñ".k ls izkFkZuk djA ;g lc Bhd djus okys gSaA ij eq>s dgka fo'okl Fkk fd eSa Bhd gks ikmQaxh tcfd MkDVjksa dk dguk Fkk fd ;g iwjh rjg Bhd ugha gksxkA vxj gks Hkh x;k rks fiQj Hkh bldk vlj jgsxkA ijUrq vkids dgus ij eSaus Jh Jh xkSj jkèkk&Ñ".k th ls izkFkZuk dj nhA ij eSa ugha tkurh Fkh fd esjh izkFkZuk Hkxoku bruh tYnh lqu yssaxs vkSj vkidh Ñik ls tks bZykt eSaus N% eghus yxkrkj djok;k vkSj nokbZ;ka [kkus ds ckn Hkh dqN iQdZ ugha iM+kA ogh bZykt nks eghus ds vUnj gks x;k vkSj oks Hkh fcuk nokbZ [kk, vkSj eSa fcYdqy Bhd gks xbZ vkSj tc vki fons'k ls okfil ykSVs rks vkius eq>ls iwNk fd vc dSlh gks csVk\ egkjkt vkids lkeus [kM+h gwa] ,dne Bhd gwaA ;g lc vkidh gh Ñik gS vkSj vkxs D;k dgwa\ cl! esjh vkils ;gh izkFkZuk gS fd vki blh rjg esjs mQij Ñik cuk, j[ksa vkSj esjh Jhy~ izHkwikn~ th ls ;gh izkFkZuk gS fd oks esjh J¼k vkSj izhfr vkids pj.kksa esa cuk,a j[ksaA vkidh f'k";k y{eh nsoh nklh mèkeiqj -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- l ,o loZ lEiUu% rLeS Jh xqjos ue%A ftuds Lej.k djus ls gh leLr Kku dk lapkj gks tkrk gSA vKku :ih vUèkdkj nwj pyk tkrk gS] loZ xq.kksa ds vkèkkj loZ xq.k lRo] jt] re ls jfgr ,sls ln~xq:nso dks ckjEckj iz.kke djrh gwaA iwjh nqfu;k esa lukru èkeZ dk izpkj dj jgs Jhy~ uo ;ksxsUnz Lokeh th egkjkt dh t;&t;dkj gks] Jhy~ izHkwikn~ th dh t;&t;dkj gksA Jhy~ xq:nso eq> tSls ifrr thoksa dk m¼kj djus ds fy, bl i`Foh ij vorfjr gq,A xq:nso! vkids bl 61osa tUeksRlo ij eq> vèke dh Hkxoku~ Jh Jh xkSj jkèkk&Ñ".k ds Jh pj.kksa esa ckjEckj izkFkZuk gS fd esjs xq: egkjkt th dks nh?kkZfrnh?kZ vk;q nsaA eSa vius xq: egkjkt th dh lsok dj ldwaA Xk:nso! vki brus n;kyq] Ñikyq] ifrr ikou] d:.kk lkxj] HkDr oRly gSa] vkidh Ñik n`f"V dk o.kZ.k ugha dj ldrh gwaA eq> tSls vfdpu ij iM+ jgh gS fdUrq eq> esa ,slh ik=krk ugha gS fd eSa vkidh Ñik dks èkkkj.k dj ldwaA eSa vius vkidks cM+h HkkX;'kkyh le>rh gwa fd eq> tSlh vèke tho dks vkidk n'kZu fey jgk gSA èk;kuewya xqjks% ewfrZ iwtk ewya xqjks% ine] eaU=k ewy xqjks% okD;a eks{k ewya xqjks% ÑikA eSa xq: egkjkt ds xq.kksa dk o.kZu ugha dj ldrh gwa D;ksafd muds xq.k vlhe gSa vkSj cqf¼ lhfer gSA 'kkL=k Hkh Jh xq:nso dh efgek dk o.kZu djus esa leFkZ ugha gSaA Hkxoku~ dh HkfDr izkIr djuh gS rks igys xq: HkfDr fl¼ djuh gksxh] tks xq: HkfDr esa liQy gks x;k] mls Hkxoku~ dh HkfDr Lor% gh izkIr gks tk;sxhA fcuk xq: HkfDr fd;s euq"; pkgs fdruh gh riL;k] ozr] nku vkfn djsa] mls Hkxon~ HkfDr izkIr ugha gksxhA ^xksfoUn dgsu ee oS".ko izk.k* lk{kkr xksfoUn th dgrs gSa] tks oS".ko gSa] tks xq: gSa] os izk.k gSa] Jh xq:nso Hkxoku~ ds izfrfufèk gSa] ,sls Jh xq:nso eq>s Hkh N=kNk;k iznku djsaA ro Ñik d.k vkekj lEcy] ro Ñik fcuk ukfg vU; cy] Ñik dfj izHkq fn;k fpncy] nkl rksHkk izk.ke;] -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- lsfo ;su vkfe tue tueA ,b vk'khokZn ;kfp vHkktu] ro ins LFkku pkiAA vkidh Ñik d.k gh esjk lgkjk gS] vkidh Ñik ds fcuk esjk vkSj dksbZ cy ugha gSA gs esjs izHkq vki Ñik djds eq>s fpn~cy iznku dhft,A ;s nklh vkids 'kj.kkxr gksrh gSA gs xq:nso! ;s vik=k vkids Jh pj.kksa esa LFkku pkgrh gS rFkk ;s vk'khokZn ekaxrh gwa fd vki eq> ij ,slh Ñik djks tSls eSa tUe&tUekUrj vkids pj.kksa dh lsok djrh gwaA ^egke.Mys'oj egUr Jh Jh uo;ksxsUnz Lokeh th egkjkt dh t;&t;dkj gksA Jh xq: pj.k jt dh vfHkyk"kh HkfDr nsoh nklh mèkeiqj lR;orh nsoh nklh ue% mQ¡ fo".kqiknk; Ñ".k izs"Bk; Hkwrys] Jhers uo;ksxsUnz Lokfeu~ bfr ukfeusA ueLrs izHkwikn~ nsos uke ladhrZu izpkfj.ks] fufoZ'ks"k 'kwU;okfn leLr ns'k rkfj.ksAA ije iwT;uh;] izkr% Lej.kh;] vpZuh;] oUnuh;] xq: egkjkt th dh t;! esjs I;kjs xq: egkjkt] ftUgksaus vius Kku :ih izdk'k ls esjh vka[ksa [kksy nhaA muds pj.k deyksa esa ;g rqPN nklh iz.kke djrh gS tks o"kkZ dh deh ls d"V ik jgs èkkUk ds [ksrksa esa ty cjlkus okys ckny dh rjg gSA vkt gekjs fy, cgqr gh [kq'kh dk fnu gS D;ksafd vkt ds fnu xq:nso bl èkjrh ij ge tslh ifrr vl[a; thokRekvksa dk m¼kj djus ds fy, izdV gq,A tc ls eSa xq: egkjkt th ds lEidZ esa vkbZ gwaA eSaus dbZ vkèk;kfRed vuqHko fd, gSa egkjkt th ds feyus ls igys gh eq>s xq: èkkj.k djus dh bPNk FkhA ,d fnu Hkxoku~ dh Ñik ls xq: egkjkt th dk ladhrZu gekjs ?kj esa vk;ksftr gqvkA mlds ckn eq>s vuqHko gqvk fd ;gh esjs xq: th gSaA ysfdu ml le; eSa fu;eksa dk ikyu ugha djrh FkhA ml le; eq>s pk; cgqr ilan FkhA eSa fnu esa 15&20 ckj pk; ihrh Fkh A pk; ds cxSj eSa jgrh ugha FkhA ysfdu egkjkt th ds ,d ckj dgus ij gh eSaus pk; NksM+ nhA mUgha dh ok.kh esa ,slh 'kfDr Fkh ftlus esjh pk; NqM+ok nhA blh rjg gesa vkSj Hkh vuqHko gq, gSaA gekjs xq: egkjkt th ,d 'kq¼ HkDr gSaA og ge tSlh ifrrkRekvksa ij fdrus n;kyq gSa\ fiNys o"kZ esjs csVs dk -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- vkidh ifrr ,d rqPN nklh lR;orh nsoh ve`rlj ';kek fiz;k nsoh nklh Jhers uo;ksxsUnz Lokfeu~ bfr ukfeusA ueLrs izHkwikn~ nsos uke ladhrZu izpkfj.ks] fufoZ'ks"k 'kwU;okfn leLr ns'k rkfj.ksAA Jh xq:nso th ds pj.kdeyksa esa esjk dksfV&dksfV iz.kkeA lcls igys eSa xq:nso ds vkfoHkkZo fnol ij mUgsa yk[kksa cèkkkbZ;ka nsrh gwa rFkk Hkxoku~ Jh Jh xkSj jkèkk&Ñ".k] Jh Jh lhrk&jke&y{e.k&guweku vkSj Jh Jh u`flag nso&izgykn egkjkt th vkSj Jhy~ izHkwikn~ ls vkidh nh?kkZ;q dh izkFkZuk djrh gwaA vkt eSa vius vkidks cgqr HkkX;'kkyh le> jgh gwa fd Hkxoku~ us eq> rqPN ij cgqr lkjh Ñik dh gSA eq>s vki tSls lnxq: dh izkfIr gqbZ gSA vki tSls lnxq: rks iwjs czãk.M esa ugha feysaxsA xq:nso! ,slk yxrk gS fd t:j iwoZtUe esa eq>ls dksbZ ,slk iq.;deZ gks x;k gksxk ftlds iQyLo:Ik eq>s vki tsls lnxq: feysA xq: th vki gh esjs ekrk firk] cgu HkkbZ] cUèkq vkSj l[kk gSaA vkids n'kZu ek=k ls eq>s cgqr 'kfkUr feyrh gS vkSj esjh lc fpUrk,a nwj gks tkrh gSaA vkius eq> ifrr ij vikj Ñik dh gS vkSj bl vaèkdwi ls fudky dj Ñ".k pj.kksa dh HkfDr esa yxk;kA xq:nso! vxj vki gekjh ftUnxh esa ugha gksrs rks vkt Ik'kq dh HkkfUr viuk thou O;rhr dj jgs gksrsA esjh lc leL;kvksa dk gy dsoy vkids n'kZuek=k djus ls gks tkrk gSA vki n;k ds lkxj gSaa] xq:nso! eSaus tkus&vutkus esa vkids pj.kksa esa fdrus gh vijkèk fd, gksaxsA eq>s viuh ukyk;d csVh le>dj] Ñik djds esjs vijkèk {kek djukA -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- xq:nso! eSa bl ;ksX; ugha gwa fd vkids xq.kksa dk xq.kxku dj ldwaA eSa vkids pj.kdeyksa esa ;gh fouez izkFkZuk djrh gwa fd vkidh blh rjg ge lc ij Ñik cuh jgsA Hkxoku~ esjs xq:nso dks nh?kkZ;q iznku djsaA xq:nso! vkidh t;&t;dkj gksA vkidk ;'k rhuksa yksd esa iQSysA vkidh csVh ';kek fiz;k nsoh nklh mèkeiqj fotsrk nkl p{kq:fUefyra ;su rLeS Jhxqjos ue%A eSa ?kksj vKku ds vaèkdkj esa mRiUu gqvk Fkk vkSj esjs xq:nso us vius Kku :ih izdk'k ls esjh vka[ksa [kksy nhA eSa mUgsa lknj ueLdkj djrk gwaA ueLrs izHkwikn nsos uke ladhrZu izpkfj.ks] fufoZ'ks"k 'kwU;okfn leLr ns'k rkfj.ksA gs xq:nso! Jh izHkwikn~ egkjkt th ds fiz; nkl! vkidks esjk lknj fouez iz.kke gSA vki Ñik djds Jh pSrU; egkizHkw ds uke ladhrZu dk izpkj djrs gq, fujkdkj ,oa 'kwU;okn ls O;kIr leLr ns'kksa dk m¼kj dj jgs gSaA vkt esjs fy, [kq'kh dk fnu gS D;ksafd vkt ds fnu vki esjs tSls ifrrkRekvksa dk m¼kj djus ds fy, bl èkjkèkke ij izdV gq,A xq:nso! eq>ls vkids pj.kksa esa tkus&vutkus esa cgqr vijkèk gq, gSaA vki esjs vijkèkksa dks ckj&ckj {kek dj nsrs gSaA vki n;k ds lkxj gSaA xq:nso! vkids pj.k dey 'kq¼ HkfDr dh [kku gSaA bu pj.kksa dh Ñik ls ge c¼tho Hko lkxj ikj gks tkrs gSa vkSj bUgha dh Ñik ls esjk vKku nwj gks jgk gSA xq:nso! eSa viuh eu dh efyurk ds dkj.k vkids pj.kksa ls izse ugha dj ik jgk gwaA ,slh Ñik dh cwansa cjlk;s ftlls eSa vfr nhu gks tkmQ¡ vkSj lc dqN lgu djus dh eq>esa {kerk vk;saA xq:nso! eq>esa lgu'kfDr fcYdqy Hkh ugaha gSA xq:nso! ,slh Ñik djsa ftlls eSa N% osxksa dk neu vkSj N% nks"kksa dk 'kksèku dj ldwaA ldys lEeku] dfjrs 'kfDr] nsg ukFk ;Fkk ;Fk A rcs rks xkbcks] gfjuke lq[ks] vijkèk gbcs grAA -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- xq:nso! vkidh t;&t;dkj gksA vkids xq.kksa dk ;'k rhuksa yksdksa esa iQSysA gekjs I;kjs xq:nso iwjh nqfu;k esa lukru èkeZ dk izpkj djus okys egke.Mys'oj Jhy~ uo;ksxsUnz Lokeh fuR;kuUnikn egkjkt dh O;kl iwtk egkegksRlo dh t; A tUe&tUekarj esa vkids pj.k jt dk bPNqd fotsrk nkl mèkeiqj lR;orh nsoh nklh vkt Jh xq# egkjkt th ds vkfoHkkZo fnol ij eSa Jh Jh xkSj jkèkk&Ñ".k Hkxoku ls izkFkZuk djrh gw¡ fd Hkxoku mUgsa nh?kkZ;q iznku djsa vkSj ges'kk viuh Ñik mu ij cjlkrs jgsa vkSj Jh xq# egkjkt th ,sls gh iwjs fo'o esa Ñ".k HkfDr dk izpkj djrs jgsaA gekjs tSls ifrr thoksa dk m¼kj djus ds fy, gh ,slh fo'ks"k foHkwfr;ksa dk bl èkjk èkke ij izkdV~; gksrk gSA Jh xq# egkjkt th dh efgek dk o.kZu dkSu dj ldrk gS\ muds ckjs esa dqN dguk rks lw;Z dks nhid fn[kkus ds leku gSA tcls xq# egkjkt th us vius pj.k deyksa esa gesa vkJ; fn;k gS] rc ls thou dk y{; gh cny x;k gSA gesa gj le; ,slk yxrk gS fd Jh xq# egkjkt th gekjs lkFk gSaA le;≤ ij Jh xq# egkjkt th gekjk ekxZn'kZu djrs gSa vkSj gesa xyr dke djus ls cpkrs gSaA ,sls xq# egkjkt th rks fdlh&fdlh dks feyrs gSa] ftuds Åij Hkxoku dh fo'ks"k Ñik gksrh gSA mUgsa gh gekjs xq# egkjkt th tSls xq# feyrs gSaA vUr esa Jh xq# egkjkt th ds pj.kksa esa ;gh izkFkZuk gS fd ,slh gh Ñik gekjs iwjs ifjokj ij cuk, j[kuk vkSj ges'kk vius pj.k deyksa ls yxk, j[kukA ge ifrr tho gSa] blfy, vijkèk Hkh gks tkrs gSaA Jh xq# egkjkt th gekjs vijkèkks dks {kek djsa vkSj viuk vk'khokZn iznku djsaA Jh xq# egkjkt th dh t; gksA mudk ;'k rhuksa yksdksa esa iQSyrk jgsA vkids pj.kksa dh nklh lR;orh nsoh nklh iw.Mjh (gfj;k.kk) -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- lknj iz.kke! czãk.M Hkzfers dkSu HkkX;oku tho] xq:] Ñ".k izlkns ik; HkfDr yrk chtA xq: vkSj Jh Ñ".k dh Ñik ls HkfDr yrk cht izkIr gksrk gSA tc rd Hkxoku~ Jh Ñ".k vkSj vki tSls izekf.kd xq: dh Ñik izkIr ugha gksrh] rc rd HkfDr yrk :ih cht izkIr ugha gks ldrkA vkids bl O;kl iwtk ds lqvolj ij vkids dey :ih pj.kksa esa esjk dksfV&dksfV iz.kkeA eSa Jh Jh xkSj jkèkk&Ñ".k th ls ;gh izkFkZuk djrh gwaA vkidh nh?kkZ;q gks vkSj rUnq:Lrh cuh jgsA rkfd vki eq> tSls ifrr thoksa ij vgSrqdh ij Ñik djrs jgsa vkSj lnk Ñ".k uke dk ve`r fiykrs jgsaA gs xq:nso! eSa bruh vèke gwa] vkidh u rks lsok djuk tkurh gwa vkSj u gh vkidh vkKk ikyu dj ldrh gwa A fIkQj Hkh vkius eq>s vius pj.kksa esa LFkku fn;k A ;g vkidh vikj Ñik gSA vkius gesa thus dh dyk fl[kkbZA igys rks ge Ik'kqor thou th jgs FksA nh{kk ysus ds ckn le> vkbZ] ,slh gh Ñik cuk, j[kuk vkSj gekjh xfYr;ka ekiQ djukA gs xq: egkjkt! gs d:.kk ds lkxj! gs vèke tuksa ds cUèkq! eq> ij Ñik dhft,A vkidh t;&t;dkj gksA vkidk ;'k rhuksa yksdksa esa iQSysA jkxuh nsoh nklh mèkeiqj 'kfp nsoh nklh gjs Ñ".k gjs Ñ".k Ñ".k Ñ".k gjs gjs gjs jke gjs jke jke jke gjs gjs esjs iwT; xq:nsoth! bl nklh dk dksfV&dksfV vkids pj.kksa esa iz.kkeA esjs lnxq:! th vkidh efgek cM+h vikj gSA vkidh Lrqfr djus ds fy, esjs ikl u dksbZ 'kCn gS vkSj u gh dksbZ lkeF;Z gSA eSa Hkxoku dk uke tirh Fkh] ijUrq tc ls eSaus vkils ekyk yh gS] ekyk tiuk 'kq: dh gS A eSa gSjku jg tkrh gwaA eq>s ;kn gS] xq:nso th! vkius dgk Fkk] Jh Jh jkèkk&d`".k dks ,d iy ds fy, Hkh ugha Hkwykuk vkSj Hkxoku~ ls gj le; rkj ls rkj tqM+k jgs vkSj tc ls eSaus ti 'kq: fd;k gS] eq>s bruk vkUun izkIr gksrk gS fd eSa vkidks crkus ds dkfcy gh ugha gwaA igys eSa lksprh Fkh fd eSa 16 ekyk dSls dj ikmQaxh\ ysfdu tc eSa ekyk ys ds cSBh rks eq>s ,slk yxk fd tSls czgek th eq>s viuh Mksjh ls mQij [khap jgs gSa vkSj dg jgs gSa] rw ,d ckj ti 'kq: djds rks ns[kA ml fnu ls esjh ekyk 'kq: -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- èkU;okn 'kph nsoh nklh mèkeiqj eèkqfiz; nkl vkt cM+k gh 'kqHk fnu gS D;ksafd Hkxoku~ Jh Ñ".k us eq> tSlh ifrr thokRekvksa dk dY;k.k djus ds fy, vkidks èkke ls bl èkkjk ij HkstkA vkt vkidk 61oka vkfoZHkko fnol gSA esjh Jhy~ izHkwikn~] Jh Jh xkSj jkèkk&Ñ".k ls ;gh izkFkZuk gS fd vki blh rjg eq> tslh ifrrkRekvksa dk m¼kj djrs jgsa vkSj vkidk LokLF; ges'kk vPNk jgsA vki eq> tSls ifrr f'k";ksa ds deksZa ds dkj.k d"V ikrs gSaA mlds fy, ÑI;k eq>s {kek dj nhft,A eSa tUe&tUekrjksa ls bl HkkSfrd txr esa d"V ik jgk gwaA ÑI;k bl ckj Ñik djds eq>s bl ujd ls fudky nhft,A eq>s vius Jh pj.kksa dh èkwfy dk ,d d.k cuk yhft,A gs xq:nso! vki rks tkurs gSa fd eSa vkidk lcls ifrr f'k"; gwaA eSa vkids Jh pj.kksa esa ;g fouez izkFkZuk djrk gwa fd vki ÑI;k eq>s esjs vijkèkksa ds fy, {kek dj nsaA eq>s vius Jh pj.kksa dh Nkao esa HkfDr djus dk volj nsus dh Ñik dhft,A vkids Jh pj.kksa dh èkwfy dk ,d d.k vkidk ifrr nkl eèkqfiz; nkl ukxiqj t; xksiky nkl ueLrs izHkwikn~ nsos uke laadhrZu izpkfj.ks] fufoZ'ks"k 'kwU;okfn leLr ns'k rkfj.ksAA ije iwT;uh; ln~xq:nso egkjkt th ds dey :ih Jh pj.kksa esa eq> rqPN nkl dk dksfV&dksfV iz.kkeA egkjkt th~ eSa vkids tUe fnu ij J¼k :ih iq"Ik dey viZ.k djrk gw¡A xq:nso! eq>s vk'khokZn nsa fd eSa HkfDr ekxZ esa cgqr vkxs c<+ ldw¡ rFkk ek;k ds izyksHku ls cprk jgw¡A HkfDr ekxZ esa vkus -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- ckdh gj txg vki eq>s cpkrs vk;s gSa vkSj eq>s vk'kk gS fd vkxs vkus okys le; esa Hkh vki gh cpk;saxsA gkykafd eSaus vkids pj.kksa esa ek;k ds o'k esa gksdj rFkk ew[kZrkiwoZd cM+s vijkèk fd;s gSaA eSa vkxs iz;kl d:¡xk fd dksbZ vijkèk] ftlls vkidk fny nq[ks] eSa u d:¡ D;ksafd eq>s vHkh vkidh ,d vkSj vueksy bPNk iwjh djuh gS tks fd esjs dY;k.k ds fy, gS] ftlds fy, eq>s vki ckj&ckj le>krs jgrs gSaA xq:nso! eSa vkids fy, dqN ugha dj ldrkA cl] vkids pj.kksa esa esjh J¼k vkSj Hkkouk gS ftlds dkj.k eSa lalkfjd ek;k ds paxqy ls cpk gw¡A ckdh eSa vkids tUe fnu ij vkidh yEch mez ds fy;s lnk jkèkkjkuh rFkk Ñ".k Hkxoku ls izkFkZuk djrk gw¡ fd vki cgqr yEch mez rd bl èkjkèkke ij jgsa rFkk eq> tSls ifrr rFkk rqPN vkSj vgadkjh c¼ vkRekvksa dk lnk dY;k.k djrs jgsaA eSa viuh rqPN ok.kh dks ;gha fojke ns jgk gw¡A gjs Ñ".k ! vkids pj.kksa dk rqPN nkl t; xksiky nkl gfj}kj fxfjèkkjh nkl ifrrkuka ikousH;ks oS".kosH;ks ueks ue% AA eSa Hkxoku ds leLr oS".ko HkDrksa dks lknj ueLdkj djrk gw¡A os dYi o`{k ds leku lcksa dh bPNk;sa iw.kZ djus esa leFkZ gSa rFkk ifrr thokRekvksa ds izfr vR;Ur n;kyq gSaA Å¡ vKku frfejkUèkL; KkukUtu'kykD;kA p{kq:Uehfyra ;su rLeS Jh xqjos ue% AA eSa ?kksj vKku ds vaèkdkj esa mRiUu gqvk Fkk vkSj esjs xq: us vius Kku :ih izdk'k ls esjh vka[ksa [kksy nhaA eSa mUgsa lknj ueLdkj djrk gwaA gs xq:nso! gs fuR;kuUnikn egkjkt! vkidks esjk fouez iz.kke gSA vki Jhy~ izHkqikn~ dh bPNk iwfrZ ds fy, vkSj lalkj ds ifrr yksxksa ds fy, bl lalkj esa (fujkdkj ,oa 'kwU;okn dk <ksax iQsSyk gqvk gS] bls feVkus ds fy,) gfjuke ladhrZu dk izpkj dj jgs gSaA ifrr yksxksa dk m¼kj dj jgs gSa] ,sls Jh xq: egkjkt dks esjk dksfV&dksfV n.Mor iz.kke gSA gs xq:nso! eSa Hkxoku Jh Ñ".k dh HkfDr djus ds fy, ?kj ls fudydj izkekf.kd xq: dh [kkst djus yxkA exj eq>s dksbZ ,slk ugha feyk tks esjs eu dh HkfDr djus dh bPNk iw.kZ dj ldsA vkidks -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- lc Hkkj rqEgkjs pj.kksa esaA vc eSaus bl thou dk lc Hkkj xq:nso! rqEgkjs pj.kksa esa lkSai fn;k gSA ,sls ije n;kyq xq:nso f=kHkqou esa dgha ugha feysaxsA gs xq:nso! vkids tUefnu ij vkidks cgqr&cgqr gh cèkkbZ gSA gs xq:nso! vki thvks gtkjksa lky rkfd vkids xq:nso Jhy~ izHkqikn~ egkjkt th dh bPNk iwfrZ ds fy, gfjuke ladhrZu dk izpkj dj ldsaA gs xq:nso! eSa vkidk xq.kxku fdl eq[k ls dj ldrk gwa\ ;g lkspdj eSa vius dye dks fojke nsrk gwaA vkt èkU; eSa èkU; vfr] ;|fi lc fofèkghu] fut tu tkfu Ñ".k eksfg] lar lekxe nhuAA tUe&tUekarj rd vkidh pj.kksa dh èkwfy dk vfHkyk"kh nklkuqnkl fxfjèkkjh nkl jke thou nkl t; xq:nso ! eSa vius I;kjs xq:nso dks 'kr&'kr iz.kke djrk gw¡ tks fd bl lalkj :ih Hko lkxj ls eq> tSlh vla[; thokRekvksa dk m¼kj dj jgs gSaA bl lky dh O;kl iwtk ij eSa dksfV&dksfV lk"Vkax n.Mor iz.kke djrk gw¡A vki ftruk nwljs thoksa dks izse nsrs gSa] mruk lalkj esa dksbZ Hkh nwljk ugha nsrk gSA Jhy~ izHkwikn~ th ds ckn vki gh ,d ek=k lcdks I;kj djrs gSa rFkk ge lcds nks"kksa dk Hkh lqèkkkj djrs gSa rkfd ge 'kh?kz gh Hkxon~~izkfIr dj ldsaA bl lalkj esa cgqr thokRek,a gSa] ij vkidh d`ik ls HkfDr djus dk iw.kZr;k lqvolj fdlh dks gh feyrk gSA xq:nso! vkius ftl izdkj ls LoIu esa vkdj ges'kk ladV esa mRlkg c<+k;k rFkk ekxZn'kZu fn;k gS] ,slk rks dHkh fdlh vU; xq:tu rFkk muds f'k";ksa ds eè; ugha feyrkA vkidk ge yksxksa ds lkFk bl izdkj jguk] tSls vki rks fcYdqy gh lkèkkkj.k O;fDr gSa] ij tcfd vki Hkwr] orZeku rFkk Hkfo"; lc tkurs gSa rFkk le; vkus ij viuh fpUe; 'kfDr;ka Hkh fn[kkrs gSaA vkids }kjk dh xbZ fnO; yhyk,a Hkh dsoy vkidh d`ik ls gh dksbZ le> ldrk gSA -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- vkidk csVk vkids pj.kksa dk lsokfHkyk"kh jke thou nkl gfj}kj vP;qr pSrU; nkl vKku frfejkUèkL; Kkuk×tu'kykd;kA p{kq#Uehfyra ;su rLeS Jhxqjos ue%AA eSa ?kksj vKku ds vaèkdkj esa mRiUu gqvk Fkk vkSj esjs xq# us vius Kku :ih izdk'k ls esjh vk¡[ksa [kksy nhaA eSa mUgsa lknj ueLdkj djrk gw¡A ue% ¬ fo".kq&iknk; Ñ".k izs"Bk; Hkwrys] Jhers uo;ksxsUnz Lokfeu~ bfr ukfeusA ueLrs izHkqikn nsos uke ladhrZu izpkfj.ks] fufoZ'ks"k 'kwU;oknh leLr ns'k rkfj.ksAA eSa Ñ".kÑik JhewfrZ Jh Jhen~ uo;ksxsUnz Lokeh fuR;kuanikn egkjkt dks lknj iz.kke djrk gw¡] tks Hkxoku Jh Ñ".k ds fnO; uke dh 'kj.k ysus ds dkj.k bl i`Foh ij Hkxoku dks vR;Ur fiz; gSaA gs xq#nso! Jhy izHkqikn ds nkl! vkidks esjk fouez iz.kke gSA vki Ñik djds uke ladhrZu dk izpkj dj jgs gSa rFkk fujkdkjokn ,oa 'kwU;okn ls O;kIr leLr ns'kksa dk m¼kj dj jgs gSaA ije iwT; vpZuh; oUnuh; izkr%Lej.kh; xq#nso ds pj.kksa esa bl nkl dk iz.kkeA xq#nso! vktds bl ikou volj ij vkidks cgqr&cgqr cèkkbZ gksA vki bl e`R;qyksd esa ftl izdkj ifrrksa dk m¼kj dj jgs gSaA Hkxoku ls ;gh izkFkZuk gS fd vki bl dk;Z esa liQy jgsaA esjs tSls ifrr nkl dks ujd ls mBkdj ftl rjg m¼kj fd;k gS] blds fy, ;g nkl vkids pj.kksa esa tUe&tUekarj rd vkHkkjh jgsxkA bl nkl dks vuqHko cgqr gq, gSaA eSa vkids xq.kxku djus yk;d ugha gw¡] fiQj Hkh vkidh Ñik ls eSa vkidk xq.kxku dj jgk gw¡ vkSj viuk vuqHko crk jgk gw¡A esjh nh{kk ds 3&4 fnu ds ckn jkr dks eq>s LoIu vk;k fd eSa fdlh dkj.ko'k vius ?kj okil pyk x;k gw¡A vpkud eSa ns[krk gw¡ fd xq# egkjkt esjs ?kj esa vk;s gq;s gSaA esjs ?kjokys eq>s NksM+us dks jkth ugha gSa] ysfdu esjs xq# egkjkt eq>s ysus ds fy, cSBs gq, FksA eSa vkuk pkg jgk Fkk] ysfdu esjs ?kjokys eq>s ugha NksM+ jgs FksA bèkj esjs xq# egkjkt dg jgs gSa] ¶dgk¡ x;k og cnek'k\ cqykvks mldksA -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- ,sls xq# dks èkkj.k djds esjk thou èkU; gks x;kA xq#th dh Ñik ge ij cgqr jgh gSA mudh Ñik ls ;gk¡ vkdj esjh cgqr chekfj;k¡ Bhd gks xbZA Hkxoku ls ;gh izkFkZuk gS fd esjs Åij bl izdkj xq#th dh Ñik cuh jgs vkSj eSa mudh Ñik ls thouHkj Hkxoku dh fu"dke lsok djrk jgw¡A t; izHkqikn t; xq#nso vkids pj.kkfJr vP;qr pSrU; nkl gfjvkse nkl ,oa lR;orh nsoh nklh vkids Jh pj.kkjfoanksa esa esjk dksfV&dksfV iz.kke Lohdkj gksA ge rqPN tho] lkèkkj.k tho xq# nso dh efgek dk o.kZu djus ;ksX; gh dgk¡\ exj xq#th dh vlhe Ñik ls dqN vuqHkoksa dk o.kZu xq#nso Ñik ls eSa djus tk jgh gw¡A xq#nso! bl rqPN vkRek ij Ñik djds bl ew<+ cqf¼ ij Ñik djsaA xq#nso! ftl LFkku ij vki fojkteku gksa] ml LFkku dh efgek dk eSa D;k o.kZu d:¡\ ml Hkwfe ds èkU; HkkX; gSaA oks Hkwfe Hkh eaxye; gks tkrh gS] tgk¡ ij lk{kkr ije~ izHkw ds HkDr ^esjs xq#nso* fojkteku gksaA dgha u dgha LokFkZ fNik gS] ijarq xq#nso gh ,sls egku gS fd og ge f'k";ksa ij fu%LokFkZ Ñik djrs gSaA la;e] J¼k] lkèkuk rhuksa fey cus dk;kA xq# lsok] xq#HkfDr] psruk] ikj djkos ek;kAA ^^xq# pj.kksa esa gh izhr c<+s** eqfDr dh csy esjs xq#oj HkfDr LrEHk ij p<+sA xq# pj.kksa esa gh izhr c<+sAA dqN Hktu d:a] dqN è;ku d:a] dqN Hkkxor dk eSa iku d:aA dqN eu esa mHkjs lqân; Hkko] dqN eSa viuk mRFkku d:¡A dqN ,slh Ñik djks xq#oj] eu esa ,slh fur J¼k c<+sA xq# pj.kksa esa gh esjh izhr c<+sAA fut nks"kksa dks fpfUgr d:a] vkSjksa ds dsoy xq.k gh ns[kw¡A fpfUgr nks"kksa dks nwj d:¡ vkSj ldy fo'o ls izse d:¡A dqN ,slh n;k djks xq#oj] lq[k&nq%[k esa lerk Hkko c<+sA xq# pj.kksa esa gh izhr c<+sAA eSaus ;g thou xaok fn;kA cl ek;k esa gh fyIr jgkA vki feys dqN Kku feykA xq# eU=k dqN è;ku feykA dqN ,slh Ñik djks xq#ojA xq#lsok dk gh jax p<+sA xq# pj.kksa esa izhr c<+sAA esjs lnxq# lk{kkr bZ'oj ds izfrfufèk gSa] xq#nso iSxEcj vkSj nsonwr gSaA esjs xq#nso f'k"; dk izkjCèk cny ldrs gSaA xq#nso fo'o ds fe=k gSa vkSj txr ds fy, dY;k.ke; gSA ihf<+r ekuo tkfr ds èkzqorkjd gSaA esjs xq#nso] esjs xq#nso! -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- gfjvkse nkl lR;orh nsoh nklh mèkeiqj jsorh nsoh nklh xq# egkjkt th ds pj.kksa esa ge n.Mozr iz.kke djrs gSaA xq# egkjkt th dh Ñik ge lc f'k";ksa ij lnk cuh jgsA xq# egkjkt th dh ok.kh dks ge f'k";ksa dks eu esa mrkjuk gSA ge f'k";ksa dks HkfDr esa lnk yhu jguk pkfg;sA ge yksxksa dks HkfDr ds vykok vkSj fdlh ckr ij è;ku ugha nsuk pkfg;sA xq# egkjkt th dgrs gSa fd igys viuh cqjkb;ksa dks ns[kks] vius dks lqèkkjksa] ckn esa nwljksa ij è;ku nksA xq# egkjkt th dks Hkxoku dh rjg ekuuk pkfg;s D;ksafd ogh ge dks mPp HkfDr rd ys tkuss okys oSdq.B rd igqapkus okys gSaA ge lc vijkèkh gSaA xq# egkjkt ge yksxksa ds fy, ,d ifjokj cukrs gSaA txg&txg ls yksx vkrs gSa] gesa HkfDr esa yxkrs gSa] gekjh cqjkb;ksa dks NqM+kus dk iz;kl djrs gSaA HkDrksa dh laxr esa ge yksxksa dh HkfDr vkSj vkxs c<+rh gSA xq# egkjkt th gj f'k"; ij Ñik djrs gSaA tSls Hkxoku&nsoh&nsork iwjs czãk.M esa Hkze.k djrs gSa] oSls xq# egkjkt th gj f'k"; dh ijs'kkuh dk è;ku j[krs gS rkfd muds f'k";ksa ij dksbZ eqlhcr u vk;sA mudks HkfDr esa vkxs c<+us dh izsj.kk nsrs gSaA ge lc HkVds gq;s f'k";ksa dk xq# egkjkt th ds pj.kksa esa n.Mozr iz.kkeA vkidh csVh jsorh nsoh nklh y[kuÅ nkeksnj nkl ue% vkse~ fo".kqiknk; Ñ".k izs"Bk; Hkwrys] Jhers uo;ksxsUnz xksLokeh bfr ukfeusA ueLrs izHkqikn nsos uke ldhrZu izpkfj.ks] fufoZ'ks"k 'kwU;oknh leLrns'k rkfj.ksAA -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- 'kk'or~ n.Mor~ iz.kkeA vkt ds bl vkfoHkkZo fnol ij vkidks 'kr~&'kr~ ueuA I;kjs lnxq# th! vkf[kj vkius [kkst gh fy;k] bl fojkV czãkaM esa mu eS=kh iw.kZ lPpsrukvksa dks] ftuds vUnj vkè;kfRedrk dh bruh izxk<+ vHkhIlk (bPNk) gS] tSls T;ksfr dk lw;Z ls] cwan dk lkxj ls] jkèkk dk Ñ".k ls] lqxaèk dk gok ls] i`Foh dk vkdk'k ls] {kqnz dk fojkV ls] HkDr dk Hkxoku lsµ feyu vfLrRo dh lgt ,oa vuwBh ?kVuk gS] bl l`f"V esa thou pØ dks txr ds jax&eap ij izse HkfDr o leiZ.k dh dyk }kjk vfHkuo ,oa lukru nksuksa gksus dk volj feyrk gSA gs lnxq#! vxj vkidh n`f"V ge thokRevksa ij u iM+rh rks ge lHkh bl nq%[k :ih lalkj esa HkVdrs jgrsA vkidh Ñik ls gh gesa Bkdqj th dh 'kj.k feyh gSA eSa vkt Hkh mu fnuksa dks ;kn djrk jgrk gwa tks vkids lax jgdj xqtkjs FksA geusa vHkh vkils fuEu gh ik;k gS vkSj cgqr dqN lh[kuk gSA tc lu~ 1990 esa izFkeckj vkids lkFk o`Unkou x;k FkkA ogka Ñ".k&cyjke efUnj esa Bkdqj th ds n'kZu fd, vkSj mUgha ds gksdj jg x,A vkidh Ñik esa gh o`Unkou okl Hkh feykA o`Unkou ds mu eèkqj {k.kksa dks ;kn djds vUnj gh vUnj jks mBrk gw¡A mu {k.kksa dks eSa C;ku ugha dj ldrkA ftl izdkj yksgs dks pqEcd ds lkFk j[ks jgus ls yksgs esa Hkh dqN pqEcdh; 'kfDr vk tkrh gS] mlh izdkj vkids lax jgus ls thou esa vkè;fRed 'kfDr dk izlkj Lo;a gh gks tkrk gS tks tho dk okLrfod y{; gSµÑ".k izse dh izkfIr gksrh gSA Bkdqj th ls ;gh izkFkZuk gS fd ge izR;sd o"kZ vkids tUe fnu dks g"kksZYykl ls eukrs jgsa vkSj vki ge c¼thoksa ij Bkdqj th dh Ñik cjlkrs jgsaA ge leLr ifjokj eatjh] ine~ ykspu nkl] o`Unk dh vksj ls vkidks tUefnu dh âkfnZd 'kqHkdkeuk,a o leLr HkDrx.k dks iz.kke o gjs Ñ".k] t; Jh jkèks] èkU;oknA vkids pj.kksa esa 'kr~ 'kr~ ueu] nkeksnj nkl (lksuhir) vkfn y{eh nsoh nklh iwtuh;] ije vkjkè;] oUnuh; Jh xq# egkjkt ds pj.kksa esa eq> vèke nklh dk n.Mor iz.kkeA iwT; xq#nso! vkids 61osa vkfoHkkZo fnol ij âkfnZd 'kqHkdkeuk;sa HksaV djrh gw¡A Jh Jh xkSj jkèkk Ñ".k ls izkFkZuk djrh gw¡ fd vki nh?kkZ;q gksa vkSj vkidh vgSrqdh Ñik eq> ifrr nklh ij ges'kk cjlrh jgsA xq#nso! eSaus dHkh lkspk Hkh ugha Fkk fd ,sls fnO; Kku nsus okys Jh xq# egkjkt eq>s feysaxs vkSj vkids pj.kksa dh jt izkIr djus dk eq> vèke nklh dks lqvolj izkIr gksxkA ijUrq] xq#nso! vki rks ifrrksa dk m¼kj djus okys gSaA -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Jh xq# egkjkt! ge vkidks 'kqHk dkeukvksa ds vfrfjDr D;k ns ldrs gSa\ vkids gksrs gq, gesa fdlh ckr dh fpUrk ugha gSA blh ij ,d Hktu dh ykbZu ;kn vkbZ gSµ ¶gekjs gSa Jh xq#nso gesa fdl ckr dh fpUrk pj.k esa j[k fn;k tc ek; gesa fdl ckr dh fpUrk¸ vUr esa izR;sd tUe esa eSa vkidh pj.k èkwfy dh vfHkyk"kk djrh gw¡A vkSj O;kl iwtk ds 'kqHk volj ij vkids LoLFk thou dh izkFkZuk djrh gw¡A vkidh lnk gh t; gksA vkids pj.kksa dh nklh vkfn y{eh nsoh nklh f[ktjkckn (iatkc) lR; l:i nkl ije iwT;] izkr% Lej.kh;] vpZuh;] oanuh;] Jh xq# egkjkt ds pj.kksa esa rqPN lsod dk dksfV&dksfV iz.kkeA Jh xq#nso loZizFke vkids 61osa vkfoHkkZo fnol ij Jh Jh xkSj jkèkk Ñ".k ds Jh pj.kksa esa ;gh izkFkZuk gS fd og vkidks nh?kkZ;q nsa vkSj gesa T;knk ls T;knk vkids pj.kksa dh lsok izkIr gksA xq#nso! tc ls izFke ckj vkids n'kZu djus dk lkSHkkX; izkIr gqvk gS] rc ls tSls thou dk y{; gh cny x;k gSA vkids thou dk gjiy gekjs tSls ifrrksa ds m¼kj ds fy;s lefiZr gSA iwT; xq#nso! eq>s ;kn gS tc izFke ckj vkids n'kZu fd;s rks eu esa vfHkyk"kk gqbZ fd vkids 'kqHk pj.k gekjs ?kj esa iM+as vkSj vkius vius bl nkl ij Ñik dh vkSj gekjs ?kj ij vkius 'kqHk pj.k Mkydj ,d HkO; lRlax fd;k tks fd ges'kk gekjs eu esa clk jgsxkA Jh xq#nso! vkius gesa ,d u;k vkè;kfRed thou nsus dh Ñik dh gSA tc eSa izFke ckj nh{kk ds fy;s vèkeiqj èkke vk;k Fkk rks fdlh dkj.ko'k nh{kk dk dk;ZØe ugha gks ldk rks eu cgqr mnkl gks x;k vkSj eSaus 'kiFk yh Fkh fd vxj eq>s vkils nh{kk ugha feyh rks eSa lkjk thou fcuk xq# ds gh jgw¡xkA ijarq] xq#nso! vki rks n;k ds lkxj gSa vkSj vius lkjs HkDrksa ds Åij viuh Ñik cjlkrs gSaA vkius vxys gh o"kZ eq>s nh{kk nsdj vius pj.kksa dh jt izkIr djus dk lqvolj iznku fd;kA iwT; xq#nso! vkius eq> ifrr ij tks midkj fd;k gS mldk ½.k ge dbZ tUe ysdj Hkh ugha pqdk ik;saxsA -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- xq# pj.k jt dk vfHkyk"kh lR; l:i nkl f[ktjkckn (iatkc) jke I;kjh nsoh nklh vkids pj.k deyksa esa esjk dksfV&dksfV iz.kke! xq#nso! esjs ikl u Kku gS] u HkfDrA fiQj eSa vkidh Lrqfr dSls d:¡\ eSa Hkxoku ls izkFkZuk djrh gw¡ fd vkidh vk;q cgqr nh?kZ gks rkfd vki izHkqikn egkjkt ds vèkwjs dk;Z dks lEi dj ldsaA egkjkt! vkidh vikj Ñik us eq>s vkSj esjs ifjokj dks euq"; thou dk y{; crk fn;k gSA fiNys 17 o"kks± esa vkius dk'ehj ?kkVh ds u tkus fdrus thoksa dks lqèkkjk gS\ vkidh Ñik ls lkjs tEew&d'ehj jkT; esa Ñ".k HkfDr dh T;ksfr izTofyr gSA vkius tEew] dVjk] mèkeiqj rFkk jkeuxj esa Ñ".k HkfDr ds dsanz LFkkfir fd;sA vkius gfj}kj] gY}kuh rFkk dbZ vkSj LFkkuksa ij dsanz LFkkfir djds izHkqikn egkjkt ds fe'ku dks vkxs c<+k;kA mèkeiqj esa fnO; eafnj dk fuekZ.k djds Ñ".k HkfDr dk jl ?kksy fn;k gSA xq#nso! vki tSls xq#] vgsrqdh Ñik ls gh feyrs gSaA vkt ls ianzg o"kZ iwoZ eSa mèkeiqj esa vkidh Ñik ik=k cuhA vkidh Ñik gekjs leLr ifjokj ij jghA mèkeiqj ls tEew vk;sA ;gha] eSa vkSj esjk ifjokj lqHkk"k uxj esa jgrs Fks vkSj 'kfDr uxj ds dsanz esa tk;k djrs FksA vc nqxkZuxj jgrs gSa vkSj Mªhe flVh ds dsanz esa vkjrh ds fy, vkrs gSaA izHkw! vkids xq.kksa dk c[kku djus dh eq>esa {kerk ugha gSA vkius Ñik djds Ñ".k isze :ih ve`r fiyk;k gSA bl ½.k dks dSls mrkj ldrh gw¡\ xq#nso! ge ij viuh d`ik cuk;s j[kukA vkidh nklh jke I;kjh nsoh nklh nqxkZuxj] mèkeiqj :ik nsoh nklh :ik ekrk dh rjiQ ls n.Mor iz.kkeA ge xq# egkjkt dh lsok] vkJe esa HkDrksa dh lsok rFkk Hkxoku jke vkSj Ñ".k th dh HkfDr bl dkj.k djrs gSa D;ksafd gesa blls larks"k feyrk gS rFkk fny izlUu jgrk gSA blls gekjk Hkxoku -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- ;g i=k :ik ekrk dh vksj ls fy[kk tk jgk gS D;ksafd og Lo;a vf'kf{kr gSA :ik ekrk lnk xq# egjkt dh Ñik pkgrh gS vkSj dgrh gS fd nwljs xq# egkjkt ds ckjs esa lkspuk Hkh ?kksj vijkèk gSA :ik ekrk vius xq# egkjkt ds pj.kdeyksa esa ureLrd gSA :ik nsoh nklh tEew jRuekyk nsoh nklh gjs jke] gjs jke jke jke gjs gjs vknj.kh; xq# egkjkt ds pj.kksa esa esjk iz.kke vkils nh{kk ysus ds ckn esjs bl thou dks ,d y{; izkIr gqvkA xq# 'kj.k ysuk gj fdlh izk.kh ds fy, t:jh gSA xq# ds fcuk gekjk thou vèkwjk gSA xq# ds fcuk gekjs thou dk m¼kj ugha gks ldrkA ¶xq# fcuk xfr ugha¸ xq# nh{kk ysus ds ckn] eq>s vius xq# egkjkt ls cgqr Kku izkIr gqvkA eq>s ,slk yxk fd esjs vanj] thou esa mtkyk vk x;kA eSa pkgrh gw¡ fd xq# egkjkt dh Ñik ge ij lnk cuh jgsA ;g xq# egkjkt th dh Ñik gh gS fd vkt ge bl eqdke ij gaSA eSa rks xq# egkjkt ds pj.kksa dh èkwy ds leku gw¡A ;g xq# egkjkt dh Ñik gS fd vkt eSa Hkxoku dh lsok dj ik jgh gw¡A Hkxoku dh lsok djus ls lPpk lq[k feyrk gSA gesa dke] Øksèk] yksHk] eksg dks R;kx nsuk pkfg,A xq# nh{kk ysus ds ckn eq>s cgqr vuqHko gqvkA xq# gh gesa fn'kk fn[kykrk gSA xq# gh gesa Kku iznku djrk gSA xq# gesa lPpk ekxZ fn[kkrk gSA eSa vius xq# egkjkt dks dksfV&dksfV iz.kke djrh gw¡A jRuekyk nsoh nklh eqV~Bh] tEew lkSHkkX;orh nsoh nklh lrxq# egkjkt dh t; gks! xq#nso egkjkt! vkids pj.kksa esa bl nklh dh vksj ls dksfV&dksfV iz.kke gS vkSj tUe fnu dh cgqr&cgqr cèkkbZ gSA -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- vki gh ge lcds vPNs lrxq# gSaA vki tSlk eSaus vkSj dksbZ xq# ugha ns[kk D;ksafd vki] lcdks lgh jkLrk fn[kk dj mudks] mudh eafty rd igq¡pkrs gSa vkSj lcdks fcYdqy 'kq¼ cuuk fl[kkrs gSaA xq#nso! ge ifrrksa ij n;k djds vkius gesa viuh 'kj.k esa fy;k gSA gekjs irk ugha dkSu ls iq.; deZ Fks fd gesa vki tSls egku xq# feysA vki gh gSa] tks fuLokFkZ Hkko ls nqfu;k dks Hkxon&izse ckaV jgs gSa vkSj mUgsa Ñ".k Hkxoku vkSj xkSjkax egkizHkq dh HkfDr esa yxk jgs gSaA vc rd ge HkVd jgs FksA vc gesa dgha tkdj] xq#nso egkjkt th ds pj.k deyksa dk vkljk feykA vc gesa viuh N=k&Nk;k ls dHkh vyx er djukA ge ij viuk I;kj vkSj vk'khokZn cuk, j[kukA ge vkids lgkjs gSA ge ifrrksa ij viuh d#.kk n`f"V cuk, j[kukA t; xq#nso] t; xq#nso] t; xq#nsoA vkidh ,d rqPN nklh f'k";k] lkSHkkX;orh nsoh nklh tEew m¼o nkl lrxq#nso egkjkt dh t;! xq#nso egkjkt ds pj.kksa esa bl rqPN lsod dh rjiQ ls J¼k lfgr iz.kke gS rFkk vkidks tUe fnu dh cgqr&cgqr cèkkbZA eSa xkSjkax egkizHkq th ls vkSj Hkxoku JhÑ".k ls izkFkZuk djrk gw¡ fd vkidks yEch&yEch vk;q nsaA gekjh vk;q Hkh vkidks nsa vkSj ges'kk LoLFk j[ksa vkSj vki ij izHkqikn th dh Ñik ges'kk cuh jgsA rkfd ge tSls ifrr rFkk HkVds gq, yksxksa dks vkidk I;kj rFkk vk'khokZn feyrk jgsA vki ,d lPps ekxZn'kZd gSa D;ksafd vki Hkxoku ds 'kq¼ HkDr gSaA vki lalkjHkj esa Hkze.k dj djds yksxksa esa Hkxorizse ckaV jgs gSaA mUgsa Hkxonf'k{kk ns jgs gSaA ftUgsa thou dk y{; ekywe ugha vkSj vaèkdkj esa th jgs gSa] mUgsa Kku dk nhid fn[kk jgs gSaA eSa cgqr HkkX;'kkyh gw¡ fd eq>s vki tSls xq# egkjkt feysA 'kk;n esjs iwoZtUe dk FkksM+k iq.; gksxk] ftlds dkj.k eq>s vki tSls xq# feysA vkius eq> tSls ifrr dks viukdj eq> ij cgqr midkj fd;k gSA eSa rks bl yk;d ughaA fiQj Hkh vkius eq>s viuk;kA eq>s fo'okl ugha gksrk fd eSa ,d brus cM+s xq# egkjkt th dk f'k"; gw¡ tks ,d lPps lar gSa vkSj Hkxoku ds 'kq¼ HkDr gSaA xq# egkjkt th! vkidh N=kNk;k esa vkdj esjs eu dk Mj] oge lc nwj gks x;k gSA vc eSa fuMj gksdj HkfDr djrk gw¡A xq# egkjkt th! tcls eSa vkidh 'kj.k esa vk;k gw¡A esjh fpUrk&ijs'kkuh gksrs gq, Hkh ugha gksrh D;ksafd eSaus lc dke Hkxoku ij NksM+ fn;k gS vkSj vkids crk, gq, jkLrs ij pydj HkfDr dj jgk gw¡A -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- vkidk ,d rqPN lsod m¼o nkl xksj[k uxj] tEew jke ewfrZ nkl egkjkt th dh efgek dk o.kZu djus ds fy, esjs ikl 'kCn ugha gSa vkSj u gh eSa ml yk;d gw¡A fiQj Hkh dqN 'kCn fy[kuk pkgqaxkA cpiu ls gh esjs eu esa loky mBrs Fks fd eSa D;ksa brus lkjs nq%[kksa dks >sy jgk gw¡\ D;ksa brus ladV gSa esjs thou esa\ D;ksa eSa cqjh vknrksa ls vkSj chekfj;ksa ls ihfM+r gwa\ D;k bldk dksbZ var ugha\ brus lkjs èkeZ gSa] iaFk gaS] laiznk; gSa] fdldks pquw\ blhfy, Hkxoku ls ;k nsohnsorkvksa ls izkFkZuk djrk Fkk fd thou thus dk dksbZ lPpk jkLrk fey tk, rkfd eSa larks"k 'kkarh vkSj fpjvkuan izkIr dj ldw¡A ,sls gh vKku ds vaèkdkj esa th jgk FkkA ysfdu Hkxoku dh vgSrqdh Ñik ls IYF iQStiqj ds HkDro`an ls feyk] 'kfpuaUnu izHkq tks egkjkt th ds fiz; f'k"; gSa] mudk Hkh egkjktth dh Ñik ls lax izkIr gqvkA egkjktth ds ;s f'k";o`an dk lax esjs thou esa ,d u;h cgkj yk;kA ,d u;k eksM+ feykA muls vfUre y{;&Ñ".kHkfDr ds ckjs esa tkuus dks feyk] izHkqikn th ds izfr vkÑ"V gqvkA lius ds flok mudk n'kZu vlaHko FkkA ysfdu iQjojh 2006 esa egkjktth us eq> ij vgSrqdh Ñik djds n'kZu ns fn;kA xaxkj ij'k gSys ik'pkrs ikouA n'kZus ifo=k djks ,bZ rksekj xq.kAA xaxkth esa ugkus ds ckn tks vuqHko ugha gqvk] ogh egkjkt th ds n'kZu djds gqvkA nqfu;k esa rFkkdfFkr lkèkq&xq# rks cgqr gSa] ysfdu dks;ys dh [kku esa ghjs tSls nqyZHk] vfrnqyZHk gaS] oSls gh egkjkt th ds tSls lPps xq#] 'kq¼ HkDr Hkh vfrnqyZHk gaSA os ,d uSf"Bd czãpkjh gSa] cpiu ls gh Hkxoku dh HkfDr ds izfr vkÑ"V jgsA ,d lPpk xq# ikus ds fy, vkSj HkfDr ds fy, mUgksaus tYnh gh ?kj dk R;kx dj fn;kA lar dks feys lar] Bx dks feys BxA ,sls lar :ih egkjkt th dks Hkh izHkqikn tSls lPps lar feysA egkjkt th us mudh cM+h lsok dh] fu%la'k; muds mins'kksa dk ikyu fd;kA igys ls gh 'kq¼ HkfDr ds y{k.kksa dks ns[kdj izHkqikn th us mudsk laU;kl nh{kk dhA vius xq# egkjkt th ds izfr vuU; J¼k ds dkj.k os mudk euksfHk"V tkurs FksA ckn esa mldh rjg mUgksaus viuk dk;Z] izHkqikn th dh vkKk dk ikyu fd;kA cgqr lkjs d"V mBkrs gq, egkjkt th -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- ¶dke vkSj bZ";kZ dks thrs fcuk dksbZ HkfDr esa vkxs ugha c<+ ldrk¸ ;gh egkjkt th dh lcds fy, f'k{kk gSA egkjkt th viuh ok.kh ls vkSj vkpj.k ls T;knk ls T;knk ti djuk] Hktu djuk fl[kkrs gSaA egkjkt dgrs gSa ¶bruk ti dj dh ân dj nsA ;ejkt Hkh viuk [kkrk jn~n dj nsA¸ ¶vius nks"kksa dk fparu djuk gh vius vkidks ifj'kq¼ djuk gSA¸ ;gh ckr egkjkt th ges'kk fl[kkrs gS tks dkiQh HkDrksa ds fy, ykHkizn gSA "Maharajji is not a general person, but the massenger of Lord & has come here for us" dqN fojys gh egkRek gksrs gSa tks thou dh lkjh lq[k&lqfoèkk NksM+dj nwljksa ds dY;k.k ds fy, d"V Hkqxrrs gSaA nh{kk nsdj O;fDr ds ikiksa dks vius Åij ysuk vkSj cnys esa vfrnqyZHk Ñ".k HkfDr iznku djuk] ;g vlkèkkj.k ckr gSA egkjktth lcdks fl[kkrs gSa fd Purity is the force, books are the utility is the principle basis and preaching is the essence. blfy, egkjkt 'kq¼rk vkSj book distribution ds lkFk&lkFk izopuksa ij vkSj izpkj dk;Z ij cM+k tksj nsrs gSaA tc egkjkt th izHkqikn th dk glorification djrs gS rks ges'kk ,d izlax ds ckjs esa crkrs gSa fd ,d fnu egkjktth us izHkqikn th ls iwNk fdµvki Hkxoku ds 'kq¼ HkDr gksrs gq, Hkh vkidks chekfj;ksa dk d"V D;ksa >syuk iM+rk gS\ izHkqikn th us tokc fn;k ¶;s lc rqEgkjs dkj.k gS] rqEgkjs lcds iki deks± ds dkj.k gSA¸ oSls egkjkt th 'kq¼ HkDr gksus ds dkj.k cpiu ls gh mUgksaus dqN Hkh iki deZ ugha fd;s gSaA os rks lhèkk Hkx~on èkke ls vk;s gSaA os [kqn ifrr ikou gksrs gq, Hkh bl izlax ds ekè;e ls [kqn dks ifrr crkrs gSaA ;gh 'kq¼ HkDrksa ds vanj dh nhurk dk y{k.k gSA ,slh nhurk ;k nhu Hkko gh Hkxoku dks vkÑ"V djrk gSA blhfy, egkjktth Hkh Ñ".k ÑikewfrZ gSA egkjktth lHkh dks vkRek dh utj ls ns[krs gSaA egkjktth lcds izfr izsse d#.kk] n;kHkko j[krs gSaA pkgs og mudk }s"kh gh D;ksa u gks\ lcds m¼kj dh fpark djrs gSaA blhfy, egkjktth us ,sls&,sls vkJeksa dh] eafnjksa dh LFkkiuk dhA tgka ij 'kq¼ HkfDr gksrh gksA Hkxoku dh izzsee;h lsok gks rFkk ;gh ckdh thokRekvksa dks vkÑ"V djrh gSA bu vkJeksa esa vkus&tkus okyksa dks jgus&ihus dk dksbZ [kpkZ ugha yxrkA pkgs og dksbZ Hkh gks D;ksafd egkjktth tkurs gSa fd bllsa vkus okys yksx fu% ladksp HkDrksa dk lax djsaxs] HkfDr tkusaxsA vkJeksa dh eafnjksa dh vkt deh gS Even in ISKCON also but it's truth. ,sls Jhxq#egkjkt th ds pj.k deyksa esa dksbZ 'kj.k D;ksa ugha ysuk pkgsxk\ vxj og viuk dY;k.k pkgs rksA egkjktth tSls 'kq¼ HkDrksa dh 'kj.k xzg.k djus ds fy, ujksRrenkl Bkdqj tSls egku HkDrksa us D;k&D;k ugha fd;k\ ysfdu Jhxq# egkjktth us esjs tSls ifrrksa ij ,sls gh vgSrqdh Ñik djds 'kj.k ns nhA egkjkt th viuh Ñik dh cjlkr (og Hkh vgSrqdh) ges'kk djrs jgrs gSa] ysfdu eSa ujkèke ml Ñik dh ,d cwan ek=k xzg.k djus ds yk;d ugha gw¡A xq: egkjkt th dh lsok esa jke ewfrZ nkl iQst+iqj -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- lu~ 2002 dh ckr gS] eSa xzqi lsaVj] curykc ls vius ?kj dh vksj tk jgh FkhA fd esjs dkuksa esa lRlax dh vkokt iM+hA gkFk esas bruk lkeku Fkk] ij fiQj Hkh dkuksa esa tc lRlax dh eèkqj vkokt iM+h rks eSa vkokt dk ihNk djrs gq, ml txg igqap xbZ] tgka lRlax gks jgk FkkA ogka cSB dj lRlax dk Hkjiwj vkuan fy;kA tSls gh lRlax lekIr gqvk rks esjk eu cspSu gks x;k fd bl lRlax ds ckjs esa vkSj irk d:aA fiQj yksxksa ls fey dj irk fd;k vkSj igqap xbZ ogka viuh eafty ijA ogka tk ds eu dks vVwV 'kkafr feyh vkSj eSaus ogka tkuk 'kq: dj fn;kA eq>s ,slk yxus yxk] bl vkJe esa gh esjh lkjh nqfu;k gSA vkJe esa tk ds eSa vius lkjs nq[k&nnZ Hkwy xbZA ,slk djrs&djrs djhc ,d lky chr x;kA vkJe esa tkrs&tkrs esjh vkLFkk vkSj Hkh xgjh gksrh pyh xbZA ,d fnu esjs eu esa fopkj vk;k fd bruk le; gks x;k lRlax esa tkrs gq,A D;ksa u nh{kk ys yh tk, D;ksafd dgk Hkh x;k gS fd gj dke dks 'kq: fnyksfnekx ;k eu ls djuk pkfg,A fiQj D;k Fkk] mèkeiqj tk ds eSaus nh{kk xzg.k dh vkSj vius eu dks vkSj etcwr cuk fy;kA nh{kk ysus ds ckn esjk eu vkSj lRlax esa cu x;kA esjk eu vc lalkj esa yxrk gh ugha FkkA bl chp esa chekj iM+ xbZ 2 eghuk] Admit jgh] Last esa Doctor us dgk] vkidks bruk Sugar gS] Hyper tension (BP) gS] vkidk Operation ugha gks ldrk] tkvks ?kjA ml oDr esjs vka[kksa ls ikuh cgus yxk] eq>s bruh ijs'kkuh FkhA nnZ ls cqjk gky Fkk jksrs&jksrs vius jkèkk&Ñ".k dks ;kn fd;k vkSj Doctor dks dgk fd eq>s ,d fnu dk le; ns nksA vxj dy Sugar Control ugha gqvk rks eSa [kqn gh pyh tkÅaxhA 'kke gksrs gh eSaus ekyk tiuk 'kq: fd;k vkSj vkf[kj esa fljkgus ds ikl ekyk j[krs gq, vius jkèkk&Ñ".k dh ;kn djds iQfj;kn dhA gs jkèkk&Ñ".k Hkxoku th! gs xq# egkjkt th! vxj esjk vkiesa t+jk Hkh fo'okl gS rks dy esjk Sugar Control esa gksuk pkfg, vkSj esjk Operation Bhd&Bkd gks tkuk pkfg,A lqcg mBdj Sugar Test djok;k rks ik;k eSaus] esjk Sugar 105 gSA Doctor us Hkh peRdkj ns[kk vkSj vxys fnu esjk Opeation Hkh liQy rjhds ls gks x;kA rc ls esjh vkLFkk jkèkk&Ñ".k Hkxoku esa vkSj xgjh gks xbZA rqylh nsoh nklh ou rykc iq.Mjhd fo|kfufèk nkl egkjk"Vª dh lar ijaijk ls fufeZr okjdjh laiznk; ls esjk ifjokj ijaijk ls tqM+k gqvk gSA fiQj Hkh eSa thou esa dqN dfe;k¡ eglwl djrk FkkA okjdjh laiznk; ds dhrZu] uke ladhrZu ds ekè;e ls vkè;kfRed iq"Vh djus dk iz;kl 'kq: FkkA ysfdu vkfRed lekèkku ugha FkkA -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- mèkeiqj esa tc xq#nso dk n'kZu vkSj lRlax dk ykHk gqvk rks lHkh oSpkfjd leL;k;sa lekIr gks xb± vkSj vo.kZuh; vkuan dh vuqHkwfr izkIr gqbZ vkSj ikfjokfjd leL;k;sa xq#nso ds pj.kksa ij lkSai nhaA vkt iQSt+iqj lsaVj ds ekè;e ls ges'kk lRlax dk ykHk gksrk gSA xq#nso dh Ñik ls 'kfpuUnu izHkq vkSj HkDrx.k bl ,fj;k esa Ñ".k izse dk izpkj dj jgs gSaA tc Hkh xq#nso ;gk¡ vkrs gSa rks HkfDr dk lkxj mNyus yxrk gSA Ñ".k izse dk v[kaM lzksr iznku djus okys xq#nso ds pj.kksa ij ¶lk"Vkax iz.kke¸ ¶gjs Ñ".k¸ iq.Mjhd fo|kfufèk nkl ;koy] ftyk tyxkao egkjk"Vª dUgS;k nkl ¬ vKku frfejkUèkL; Kkuk×u'kykd;kA p{kq:fUefyra ;su rLeS Jh xq:oss ue%AA tc eSa igyh ckj iQSt+iqj esa vk;kA rc eq>s cgqr vdsyk yxk FkkA eSaus lkspk gh ugha Fkk fd eSa ;gk¡ ij pkj lky rd fMxzh djus ds fy, jg ikÅ¡xk ;k ughaA ij dqN le; ckn eq>s Hkxoku us ¶Jhy~ izHkqikn vkJe¸] iQST+kiqj esa tkus dk volj iznku fd;kA os esjk bLdkWu ls tqM+us dk igyk fnu FkkA rc ogk¡ ij rqylh vkjrh] xkSj vkjrh vkSj dhrZu gks jgk FkkA lHkh dkWyst LVwMsaV~l Hkxoku ds lkeus ukp jgs Fks] vkjrh xk jgs FksA ;s lc ns[kdj esjs eu dks cgqr vkuan feykA ogk¡ izopu esa eq>s lquus dks feyk fd Hkxoku~ dkSu gSa\ muds lkFk gekjk D;k ukrk gS] ge dkSu gSa\ fiQj fnlEcj 2005 ls eSa fu;fer :i ls gjs Ñ".k eafnj] iQST+kiqj esa tkus yxkA ,d fnu izopu esa esjs f'k{kk xq# 'kphuUnu izHkq crk jgs Fks fd ¶tho dk m¼kj rHkh laHko gS] tc oks fdlh izkekf.kd xq# dh 'kj.k xzg.k djsA¸ rcls eq>s Hkh yxus yxk fd eq>s Hkh xq# 'kj.k esa tkuk pkfg,A rc esjs eu esa ,d loky vk;k fd bl tUe esa eq>s dksbZ izkekf.kd xq# dSls feysaxs\ fiQj eSa lPps ân; ls Hkxoku ls izkFkZuk djrk Fkk fd eq>s izkekf.kd xq# ls feyk nasA dqN fnuksa ckn ;s irk pyk fd ^i-iw- Jhy uo ;ksxsUnz Lokeh -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- egkjktth ls feyus ls igys eSa cgqr fcxM+k gqvk Fkk] LokFkhZ FkkA ij tSls gh igyh ckj egkjkt th ds n'kZu iQjojh 2006 esa fd;s rks eu dks cM+h 'kkafr feyhA tSls fd vkpk;Z o.kZu djrs gSa fdµ n'kZus ifo=k dj] ,bZ rksekj xq.kA ijarq] esjs xq#nso ds n'kZu dk ,slk vHnqr izHkko gS fd n'kZu ek=k ls gh ifrr ls ifrr O;fDr Hkh loZ izdkj ds ikiksa ls eqDr gks tkrk gSA xq#nso ds izopu cM+s gh izHkko'kkyh Fks] ftudk o.kZu eSa 'kCnksa ls ugha dj ldrkA xq# egkjkt dks Hktu lezkV Hkh dgrs gSaA mlds ckn esjs thou dks ubZ fn'kk feyhA rHkh ls ¶JhÑ".k izse izkIr djuk¸ ;s esjs Hkh thou dk ije y{; cu x;kA xq#th us lcdks vkbZlØhe izlkn esa nh vkSj mèkeiqj vkus dk vkea=k.k fn;kA tc ,d ckj eSa lks;k gqvk Fkk] rc ¶gjs Ñ".k eafnj] mèkeiqj¸ esjs lius esa vk;kA egkjkt th Hkh lius esa vkrs FksA rc ls eu esa mèkeiqj tkus dh rhoz bPNk mRi gqbZA fiQj ân; ls izsj.kk feyus yxh fd e`R;q ds vkus ls igys gh xq#nso dh 'kj.k esa tkuk pkfg,A tc eSa igyh ckj mèkeiqj x;k] rc eu esa 'kadk Fkh fd eq> tSls ikih dks xq# dh 'kj.k feysxh ;k ugha\ ij xq#nso rks brus Ñikyq vkSj n;kyq gSa fd mUgksaus eq>s bl ?kksj vaèkdkj ls fudkyus ds fy, vkSj vius Kku :ih izdk'k ls esjh vk¡[ksa [kksyus ds fy,] eq>s viuh 'kj.k esa fy;kA ml fnu ls eSa Hkxoku~ dk nkl] dUgS;k nkl cu x;kA lalkj ds lHkh thoksa dks pfkg, fd os fdlh izekf.kd xq# dh 'kj.k esa tk;s D;ksafd 'kq¼ HkDr dh laxfr djds rFkk mls xq# cuk djds gh HkfDr dh pje flf¼ rd igqapk tkrk gS] tSls fd Hkxoku JhÑ".k xhrk esa mins'k nsrs gSa fd izkekf.kd xq# gh Kku iznku dj ldrk gS D;ksafd mUgksaus lR; dk n'kZu fd;k gSA esjs xq#nso Hkxoku ds brus 'kq¼ HkDr gSa fd mudk FkksM+k lax Hkh thoksa dks HkfDr iznku djrk gSA mèkeiqj ds ckn xq#th dk lax djus ds fy;s eSa vius xq#HkkbZ;ksa ds lkFk ^eqEcbZ* vkSj o`ankou esa x;kA mlds ckn xq#nso viuh Ñik djus ds fy, fiQj ls iQjojh 2007 esa iQSt+iqj esa vk;sA ;gk¡ vkus ds fy, xq#nso us 11 ?kaVs dk liQj dkj esa fd;k tks fd cgqr d"Vdkjd gSA chp esa jkLrk Hkh [kjkc FkkA bruk d"V lgu djus ds ckn Hkh xq#nso us vius fu;ksftr dk;ZØe esa dksbZ cny ugha fd;kA xq#nso ,d fnu] jkr dks izopu djds 1%00 cts iQStiqj esa vk;sA rc eq>s yxk fd xq#nso lqcg eaxy vkjrh esa ugha vk;saxsA nwljs fnu tc eSa eaxy vkjrh djus ds fy, eafnj esa x;kA rc xq#nso 4%30 cts eafnj esa vk;sA rc eq>s xq#nso dh dBksj riL;k ds ckjs esas fo'okl gqvkA xq#nso dh Ñik izkIr djus ds fy, eSaus vius ekrk&firk dks iQSt+iqj esa cqyk;kA ftl fnu mUgksaus xq#nso ds n'kZu fd;sA mlh fnu jkr dks lius esa ¶izHkqikn¸ th us esjh ekrk th dks n'kZu fn;sA izHkqikn th gkFk Åij djds g¡l jgs FksA eSa [kqn dks cgqr HkkX;'kkyh le>rk gw¡ D;ksafd eq> ij ,sls xq# dh Ñik gS] tks fliQZ 'kkL=k dh ckrsa crkrs gSaA xq#th lk{kkr~ Hkxoku ds izfrfufèk gSaA xq# th dks vusd Hkk"kkvksa dk Kku gSA xyrh gksus ij xq#th mls lqèkkjus esa cgqr rRij gSaA -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- vki Ñik djds Jh pSrU; egkizHkw ds lans'k dk izpkj dj jgs gSa rFkk fujkdkjokn ,oa 'kwU;okn ls O;kIr leLr ns'kksa dk m¼kj dj jgs gSaA dUgS;k nkl egkjk"Vª 'kkdqEHkjh nsoh nklh ue% ¬ fo".kqiknk; Ñ".k izs"Bk;s Hkwrys] Jhers uo;ksxsUnz Lokfeu~ bfr ukfeusA ueLrs izHkqikn nsos uke ladhrZu izpkfj.ks] fufoZ'ks"k 'kqU;oknh leLr ns'k rkfj.ksAA ije iwT;] vknj.kh;] vpZuh;] oUnuh;] Jhy uo;ksxsUnz Lokeh egkjkt th dh t;&t;dkj gksA eSa vius I;kjs xq# egkjkt th ds pj.k deyksa esa lknj n.Mor iz.kke djrh gwa tks fnO; uke dh 'kj.k ysus ds dkj.k Hkxoku dks vR;Ur fiz; gaSA iwT; egkjkt th! vkt vkidk tUefnu gS vkSj bl 'kqHk ikou volj ij vkidks] esjh ,oa gekjs iwjs ifjokj dh rjiQ ls gkfnZd cèkkbZ gksA eSa le> ugha ik jgh gwa fd eSa bl volj ij vkidks D;k lefiZr d:¡A egkjkt th! esjs ikl nsus ds fy, dqN Hkh ugha gSA fiQj Hkh eSa Hkxoku ls ;g izkFkZuk djrh gwa fd esjh mez Hkh vkidks yx tk;s rkfd vki T;knk ls T;knk izpkj djsa vkSj vkus okys u;s HkDrksa dk dY;k.k gks ldsA eSa vkSj gekjs iwjs ifjokj dks izFke ckj 1995 esa eksfj.Mk esa vkids n'kZu djus dk lkSHkkX; izkIr gqvk Fkk vkSj vkius gesa ti djus ds fy;s izsfjr fd;k FkkA ysfdu ge vius cqjs deks±s ds dkj.k ti u dj ldsA egkjkt th ls ge dbZ ckj feys rks egkjkt th us gesa ges'kk ti djus dks dgk fiQj eSaus 3 ;k 4 ekyk djuh 'kq: dj nhA ,d ckj egkjkt th p.Mhx<+ Jh lsBh th ds ?kj vk;s gq, Fks rks ge Hkh ogka ij x;sA egkjkt th us fiQj ti djus dks dgk rks eSaus egkjkt th ls ,d 'krZ j[kh vkSj 16 ekyk ti djus dk oknk fd;kA 'krZ esa eSaus] egkjkt th ls dgk fd igys vki gekjs ?kj esa (f[ktjkckn] iatkc) esa vius pj.k Mky nks rks egkjkt th us ;g 'krZ Lohdkj dj yh vkSj eSaus Hkh ml fnu ls 16 ekyk dk tki 'kq: dj fn;k vkSj eq>s ml fnu ls ti djus esa vkuan vkus yxkA fiQj 2003 esa xq# egkjkt th }kjk esjh nh{kk gks x;h vkSj eq>s ,d u;k tUe feykA fiQj egkjkt th dh eq>s cgqr Ñik feyhA -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- xq# egkjkt th dks ,d ckj fiQj ls bl ikou volj ij y[k&y[k cèkkbZA eSa pkgrh gwa fd vki viuh bl csVh ij o gekjs iwjs ifjokj ij viuh Ñik dh èkkjk ,sls gh cgkrs jgas o gesa bl tUe&ej.k ds pØ ls NqVdkjk fnyk;sas rkfd gesa fiQj ;g tUe nksckjk u ysuk iM+sA vkids pj.kksa esa esjk dksfV&dksfV iz.kkeA vkidh viuh ifrr csVh] 'kkdqEHkjh nsoh nklh] f[ktjkckn (lhek xqIrk) vkfn 'kfDr nsoh nklh Jhers uo;ksxsUnz Lokfeu~ bfr ukfeusA ueLrs izHkqikn nsos uke ladhrZu izpkfj.ks] fufoZ'ks"k 'kwU;oknh leLr ns'k rkfj.kSA ije iwT;] vpZuh;] izkr%Lej.kh;] fiz; lrxq: nso egkjkt th] vkids pj.k deyksa esa bl nklh dk lk"Vkax iz.kkeA vkidk vkfoHkkZo fnol gS bl 'kqHk o ikou volj ij vkidks] esjh ,oa esjs iwjs ifjokj dh vksj ls gkfnZd cèkkbZA Hkxoku Jh Jh xkSj jkèkk&Ñ".k vkidks nh?kkZ;q iznku djsa] ftlls vki esjs gh leku ikih thokRekvksa dk dY;k.k djrs jgsaA bl ikou volj ij eSa viuk ,d vuqHko fy[k jgh gwaA lu~ 1995 esa eq>s izFke ckj vkids n'kZu djus dk lkSHkkX; izkIr gqvk Fkk vkSj eSaus vkidh Ñik ls 16 ekyk ti izkjaHk dj fn;kA ijarq esjs cqjs deks± ds izHkko ds dkj.k dqN le; i'pkr gh eSaus ti djuk NksM+ fn;k vkSj dsoy ,d ekyk djus yxhA dqN le; rd ,slk gh pyrk jgkA fiQj lu~ 2001 -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- mlds ckn ,slk peRdkj gqvk fd ?kj vkus ij esjh 16 ekyk rks 'kq: gks gh xb±] lkFk esa pkj fu;eksa dk ikyu Hkh gksus yxk vkSj nks o"kZ ckn 2003 esa d#.kk dj vkius eq>s nh{kk nsdj u;k tUe iznku fd;kA cl] vkils dsoy ,d gh izkFkZuk gS fd esjs ifjokj ij Hkh viuh vgSrqdh] dh Ñik djsaA ftlls ge lc Ñ".k izse izkIr dj ldsa vkSj okfil Hkxo¼ke tk ldsaA lu~ 2006 esa vkidh Ñik ls ,d peRdkj vkSj gqvkA tc Jhy~ izHkqikn th us ,d eafnj esa iqtkjh cudj eq>s LoIu esa n'kZu fn;sA eSa vius iwjs ifjokj ds lkFk eafnj xbZA rc Jhy~ izHkqikn th us eq>ls iwNk fd MkDVj lkgc (jUrh nso nkl] iwaMjh) ugha vk,\ fiQj izHkqikn th us lcdks izlkn fn;k] ij eq>s ,d vyx ls Hkjh gqbZ Vksdjh izlkn ds :i esa nhA bl LoIu ds ckn dqN fnuksa rd eSa cgqr gh jksekafpr jghA Jh xq# egkjkt! ,d ckj fiQj vkidks bl ikou volj ij cgqr&cgqr cèkkbZ o 'kqHk dkeuk,sa vkSj eSa pkgrh gwa fd vki bl nklh ij o esjs iwjs ifjokj ij viuh Ñik mlh izdkj cuk;s j[ksa o gesa bl Hkolkxj ls NqVdkjk fnyok,saA vkids pj.kksa esa dksfV&dksfV iz.kkeA vkidh csVh vkfn 'kfDr nsoh nklh vEckyk dSUV (gfj;k.kk) vferk xqIrk dey ykspu nkl ije iwT;uh;] izkr% Lej.kh;] oUnuh; Jh xq#nso ds pj.k deyksa esa n.Mor iz.kkeA xq#nso! vkids vkfoZHkko fnol ij eSa vkidks 'kqHk dkeuk;sa vfiZr djrk gwaA Jh xq# egkjkt vkidh tks vikj Ñik eq> nq"V ij gqbZ] eSa mldk o.kZu ugha dj ldrkA fiQj Hkh eSa vius dqN vuqHko] tks vkidh Ñik }kjk eq> ij gq,] dgrk gwaA lcls igys vkidks d:.kke;h Ñik eq> ij 1995 esa eksfjaMk esa gqbZA bl igyh eqykdkr esa gh vkius ,slh Ñik cjlkbZ fd eSa mldks laHkky ugha ik;kA vkius egkea=k dk ti djus dks dgk] ijarq ;g ikih eu ti esa ugha yxrkA esjh cM+h cgu lR;orh nsoh nklh tc Hkh feyrhA ;gh dgrh] rw yx tkA ,sls lar ckj&ckj ugha feyrsA eSa mldks ;gh tokc nsrk fd eSa pk; I;kt ugha NksM+ ldrkA ij esjk lkSHkkX; le>ks ;k vkids }kjk dh gqbZ Ñ".k ÑikA tc vki 2001 esa p.Mhx<+ vk;s rks vkidh la;ksx o'k ogka dbZ fnu :duk iM+kA tgka Hkh vkidk izksxzke gksrk] ge vo'; ogka tkrsA fiQj vkids ifo=k pj.k gekjs fuokl LFkku f[ktjkckn esa iM+sA vkius ogka lRlax fd;k o ge viuk lcdqN -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- eSa rks Jh Jh xkSj jkèkk Ñ".k th ls ;gh izkFkZuk djrk gwa fd Hkxoku esjh mez Hkh vkidks nsaA vki bl èkjrh ij jg jgs nq"Vksa dk dY;k.k djrs jgsaA tSlh Ñik vkius gekjs leLr ifjokj ij dh gSA vki lHkh ifjokjksa ij ,slh gh Ñik djrs jgsa] ,slh gekjh vfHkyk"kk gSA vUr esa vkidks ,d ckj fiQj vkids vkfoZHkko fnol ij dksfV&dksfV 'kqHkdkeukvksa lfgrA vkidk nq"V lsod dey ykspu nkl f[ktjkckn (iatkc) xkSj ukjk;.k nkl xq# nks v{kjksa ^xq* ,oa ^#* ls feydj cuk gS ^xq* dk vFkZ gS vaèkdkj ,oa ^#* dk vFkZ gksrk gS izdk'kA lR; rks ;g gS fd xq# gh og 'kfDr gS] og lÙkk gS tks vfo|k ls vko`r gq, Kku dks fujko`r djrk gSA rHkh tho dks Lo:i Kku vFkok fut fuR;rk dk cksèk gks ldrk gSA blh cksèkxE; lR; dks tkuuk gh ^izdk'k* gSA xq#&Ñik fcuk thou vaèkk Hkh gS vkSj efyu Hkh gSA ogh fnO; n`f"V ,oa lkFkZd fn'kk nsrk gSA xq# dsoy izopu nsdj] f'k"; dks ea=k nsdj ,oa iz.kkeh ysdj gh pqi ugha cSBrsA os vius izk.koYyHk dks vU; ds ân; esa izfrf"Br djus ds fy, ^lsok* f'k{kk nsrs gSaA l¼eZ ds fo"k; esa Lo;a vkpj.k dj f'k{kk nsrs gSaA Jh xq#nso d#.kk&okfj }kjk lalkj :i nkokuy&xzLr tho dk ifj=kk.k djrs gSaA muds fpÙk dks fueZy ,oa 'khry djrs gSaA Kku o`f¼ ds fy, f'k{kk dk lgkjk fy;k tkrk gSA èkuh cuus ds fy;s m|ksx] O;olk; viukus iM+rs gSaA Bhd blh izdkj J¼k vkSj fo'okl ds vfHkoèkZu esa tks thfor rRo gh lgk;d fl¼ gksrk gS] og gSµ^xq#*A vkfRed izxfr viuh esèkk] ikS#"k ,oa lafpr vFkZ ls vlEHko gSA ;g dsoy xq#Ñik ls gh izkIr gks ldrh gSA vkfRed izxfr dk vFkZ&^fut&Lo#i* dks tkuuk ,oa mlesa fLFkr gksukA lHkh thou Lo:ir% lr~] fpn ,oa vkuUn:i gS D;ksafd ge lc vkuUn (ijekRek) ds gh va'k gSaA vr% tSlk va'kh gksxk] va'k dh izÑfr Hkh mlh rjg gksxhA ysfdu Lo:i 'kfDr ds tkx`r u gksus ds dkj.k tho Lo:i ifjp; ls vufHkK vfo|k :i Hkolkxj esa iQalk i'kqor~ thou ;kiu djrk jgrk gSA ifj.kke Lo:i f=kfoèk rki ls xzflr jgrk gSA ti] ri] ;ksx] ;K ,oa Kku ls bl rki ls eqfDr vlEHko gSA dsoy xq# lkfuè; vFkok gfj nklksa dh pj.kèkwfy gh ek=k mik; gS tks vfo|k (ek;k) ls fudkydj ek;kfèkifrnkl (Ñ".knkl) cuk ldrk gSA blds vfrfjDr vU; dksbZ mik; gS gh ughaA -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- vius xq# ds izfr izxk<+ HkfDr rFkk mudh f'k{kkvksa dk iw.kZ J¼k ds lkFk vuqlj.k djuk lPps f'k"; ds eq[; xq.k gSaA blh J¼k ,oa xq#HkfDr ds dkj.k vfr'kh?kz vkè;kfRed mUufr rFkk lkèkuk iQfyr gksrh gSA xq#&HkfDr ls xq# dh Ñik vkSj vUrr% vkuUn dh izkfIr gksrh gSA Jhy~ izHkqikn us dgk gSµ^Hkxoku ds vkfoHkkZo frfFk ds leku gh Hkxon~&HkDr (xq#nso) dh tUefrfFk Hkh ifo=k gSA bl fnu mRlo dk vuq"Bku vko';d gSA* xq#iwtk dk fnu lPps f'k"; ds fy, fo'kq¼ vkuUn dk fnu gSA ,d ek=k xq# gh f'k"; ds lkalkfjd eksg&ik'k ds caèku dks fNUu&fHkUu dj nsrs gSaA xq# ds ekè;e ls gh thou ^Lo* dk Kku izkIr dj] e`R;q vkSj 'kksde; thou ls 'kk'or~ ijekuUn ds thou esa izos'k dj ldrk gSA xq# okLro esa tho ,oa Hkxoku~ ds eè; dh dM+h gSaA tho ij d#.kko'k&fo'ks"kdj foeq[k tho ij Ñik djus ds fy, Hkxoku~ us vius izfrfufèk Lo:i xq# dks e`R;qyksd esa Hkstk gSA xq# nsohèkke ds lsod&Hkxoku gSaA euhf"k;ksa dk dFku gS fd xq# dh Ñik] mudk Li'kZ] n'kZu gh peRdkj dj ldrk gSA ij bldk ;g vFkZ ugha fd f'k"; fcYdqy fu%'ps"V cSBk jgsA xq# ekxZ n'kkZosxsa] ckèkkvksa] tkyksa dks gVk;saxs] ij HkfDr ekxZ ds dY;k.kdkjh lksiku&fofHkUu lsokvksa esaµik¡o rks f'k"; dks gh j[kuk iM+sxkA xq#&f'k"; esa dsoy izse dk lEcUèk ugha] vuq'kklu dk lEcUèk Hkh gksuk vko';d gSA vuq'kklu ds fcuk izse dk lEcUèk LoPNUnrk vkSj euekuh yk nsrk gSA dsoy vuq'kklu gks] izse lEcUèk u gks] rks oSeuL; vkSj Hk; mRiUu gks ldrk gSA vr% izse vkSj vuq'kklu nksuksa lkFk&lkFk gksuk pkfg,A tSls&tSls f'k"; dk vUr%dj.k ifj"Ñr gksrk tk;sxk oSls&oSls mls vius xq# esa ifo=krk dk vkHkkl gksrk jgsxkA f'k"; ds vUr%dj.k dh 'kqf¼] ifo=krk] fnO;rk vkSj mTtoyrk ds vuqlkj mls vius xq# esa efgek] T;ksfr] izdk'k dk n'kZu gksrk gSA tSlk f'k"; dk psgjk gksxk] mlh izdkj niZ.k esa fn[ksxkA xq# niZ.k gSa tks f'k"; dks mldk psgjk fn[kykrs gSaA izR;sd f'k"; ds ân; esa lnk xq: dk okl jgrk gSA ;fn f'k"; viuk lEcUèk cuk;s j[k lds rks mudh vkRek lnk f'k"; ds fudV jgrh gSA rc os gj le; fopkjksa] Hkkoukvksa ,oa okLrfod thou esa f'k"; dk ekxZ&n'kZu djrs gSaA f'k"; Hkys gh muls nwj pyk tk;] fdUrq mudh vuqdEik lnk f'k"; ij cuh jgrh gSA 'kkL=k dgrs gSa] ;fn xq# ds izfr f'k"; dh Hkkouk] J¼kiw.kZ gS ,oa xq# ij mldk vxkèk fo'okl gS] rks ftl izdkj ty dk izokg mPp Lrj ls fuEu Lrj dh vksj gksrk gS] mlh izdkj xq# dh Ñik f'k"; dh vksj cgus yxrh gSA euq"; vlhe vUèkdkj esa Mwck gSA blfy, xq# dh lgk;rk ds fcuk mlds fy, HkfDriFk ij liQyrkiwoZd pyuk eqf'dy gSA vius voxq.kksa ,oa =kqfV;ksa dks nwj djus ds fy, mls ,d xq# dh vko';drk gSA rLeS Jh xqjos ue%A vkidk f'k"; xkSj ukjk;.k nkl bykgkckn (mÙkj izns'k) -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- ije iwT;uh; JhYk~ uo;ksxsnz Lokeh th egkjkt] bZLdku] mèkeiqjA n.Mor~ iz.kke! eSa Jh xq# egkjkt th ds ikou tUe fnol ij gkfnZd cèkkbZ rFkk Jh pj.k deyksa esa naMor iz.kke djrk gw¡A ftudh vlhe Ñik ls eSa dqN fy[kus dk iz;kl dj jgk gw¡A loZizFke eSa vius vki dks cgqr lkSHkkX;'kkyh ekurk gw¡A u tkus esjs iwoZ tUeksa ds fdrus iq.; mn; gq, gksaxs] rc tkdj eq>s vki tSls 'kq¼ oS".ko ls nh{kk ysus dk lkSHkkX; izkIr gqvkA egkjkt th! vkidk ,d ek=k mís'; gS fd fdl izdkj tho bl Hkocaèku ls eqDr gks rFkk vius okLrfod ?kj Hkxon~èkke tk ldsA ;gk¡ ijefirk Jh Ñ".k cM+h mRlqdrk ls ge Hkwys o fcljss gq, thoksa dh izrh{kk dj jgs gSaA egkjkt th! vki dsoy Hkkjr esa gh ugha] iwjs lalkj esa Hkxoku Jh pSrU; egkizHkq dk lans'k fo'ks"kdj ds dfy;qx ds rkjd egkea=k dks tu tu rd igqapk jgs gSa rFkk Hkxoku Jh pSrU; egkizHkq dh Hkfo";ok.kh dks lkFkZd djus dk iz;kl dj jgs gSaA bl ckj lsok dqat vkJe] n;kypDd] fot;iqj ds lapkyd Jh cyjke izHkq th ds vuqjksèk ij] egkjkt th vki }kjk 04-03-07 dks xkao fot;iqj esa txUukFk feJ mRlo cM+s èkwe èkke ls euk;k x;k] ftlesa cM+h la[;k esa yksxksa us Hkkx fy;kA lRlax] dhrZu o izopu] egkjkt th! vkids }kjk gq;ss] yksxksa us mldh cgqr ljkguk o iz'kalk dh gSA lHkh yksxksa us 'kkafriwoZd <ax ls vkidk lRlax o dhrZu lquk vkSj ckn esa ,d fo'kky HkaMkjk gqvk] ftlesa gtkjksa yksxksa us izlkn xzg.k fd;kA egkjkt th! lRlax ds ckn eSaus dbZ yksxksa ds fopkj lqusA tkus okys dbZ yksxksa dks [kqn ckrsa djrs gq, lquk fd vkt rd geusa (mUgksaus) ,slk lRlax o dhrZu dHkh ugha lquk vkSj mudk dguk Fkk fd cgqr FkksM+s le; esa gh egkjkt th us tks lans'k fn;k] og lkr fnu dh lIrkg dFkk esa Hkh ugha feyrk] tks LFkkuh; dFkk okpdksa }kjk fn;k tkrk gSA mudk ;g Hkh dguk Fkk fd egkjkt us Hkxoku dh HkfDr ds vykok@flok; nwljh dksbZ ckr dh gh ughaA vktdy tks Hkkxor lIrkg dFkk pyrh gS] dsoy uke ek=k dh gh gksrh gSA egkjkt th! vki tSls 'kq¼ oS".ko ds Jh eq[k ls igyh ckj lRlax o dhrZu lqudj og yksx èkU; gks x;s rFkk ,sls lRlax vki }kjk djokus dk iz;kl djrs jgsaxsA egkjkt th! tSlk fd vki tkurs gh gSa fd fot;iqj lkEok o fo'ukg {ks=k esa fujkdkjokn dk cM+s T+kksj&'kksj ls izpkj&izlkj gks jgk gSA txg&txg vkJe [kqy jgs gSaA yksxksa dk lukru èkeZ ds izfr lgh funsZ'ku u gksus ds dkj.k fo'okl ?kVrk tk jgk gS vkSj ,sls dk;ZØe bu {ks=kksa esa gksrs jgsaxs rks og fnu nwj ugha] tc xkao&xkao esa gjs Ñ".k egkea=k dh gh xwat gksxh rFkk Hkxoku Jh pSrU; egkizHkq dh f'k{kkvksa rFkk txrxq: Jhy~ izHkqikn th egkjkt ds lans'kksa dks yksx è;kuiwoZd lqusxsa] le>saxsA egkjkt th! eSa eancqf¼] vKkuh rFkk ifrr gw¡A dbZ ckj vkidh vkKkvksa ds izfr mYya?ku dj nsrk gw¡A fiQj Hkh egkjkt th! vkidh eq> ij vlhe Ñik gS vkSj mlh Ñiko'k eSa HkfDriFk ij pyus dk -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- egkjkt th! ftl izdkj vtqZu us Hkxoku JhÑ".k ds Jheq[k ls xhrk dk lans'k dsoy ge tSls ifrr yksxksa ds dY;k.k ds fy, gh Jo.k fd;k FkkA mlh rjg vki Hkh egkjkt th Hkxoku JhÑ".k ds l[kk gS rFkk Hkxonxhrk dk lans'k iwjs lalkj esa iSQyk jgs gSaA ,slk egku dk;Z dsoy ogh dj ldrk gS ftls Hkxoku JhÑ".k dk lax izkIr gks D;ksafd vki lalkj ds izR;sd tho dk dY;k.k pkgrs gSaA vUr esa] egkjkt th! vkids Jh pj.kdeyksa esa naMor~ iz.kke djrk gw¡ rFkk vk'kk djrk gw¡ fd esjs fy[kus] dgus esa dksbZ xyrh gks xbZ gks rks eq>s vki] viuk Ñi.k nkl ekudj {kek dj nsaxsA gjs Ñ".kA vkidh f'k"; Ñ".kyky nkl Hkxorh uxj] tEew jkeLo:i nkl esjh vksj ls vkidks tUefnu dh cgqr&2 cèkkbZA egkjkt th eSa yxHkx pkj lky ls efUnj ls tqM+k gw¡ ysfdu esjh nh{kk dks nks lky gq, gSa 'kq#vkr esa fliQZ ,d ;k nks ekyk djrk Fkk ysfdu fliQZ jfookj dks efUnj t:j tkrk Fkk egkjkt th eq>s 'kq: ls xUnh vknrsa Fkha chM+h&flxjsV] pk; cgqr ihrk FkkA vkidh Ñik ls ,d fnu eSaus yxHkx nks ekyk 7 cts ds djhc esjh vk¡[k yx xbZ rc eSaus lius esa Hkxoku txUukFk th ds n'kZu fd;s rHkh eSusa Vh-oh- yxk;k tks eSaus lius esa ns[kk Hkxoku txUukFk ds n'kZu eSaus Vh-oh- esa fd;sA HkkSfrd bPNk;sa esjh cgqr T;knk gSaA Hkxoku Jh Jh xkSj jkèkk Ñ".k Hkxoku esjh bPNk;sa iwjh djrs x;sA ftl ;ksX; ge gks gh ugha ldrsA xq# egkjkt ge cgqr uhp vkneh gSaA tc esjh nh{kk gksuh Fkh rc eq>s efUnj ls iQksu vk;k fd xq# egkjkt us ,d fnu igys cqyk;k gSA ysfdu eSa dHkh mèkeiwj esa x;k gh ugha FkkA esjh vka[kksa esa vkalw vk x;s vkSj nwdku ls NqV~Vh ysdj eSa pyk vkSj vdsyk Hkxoku dh n;k ls vkids pj.kksa esa ,d fnu igys igq¡p x;kA egkjkt th! mlds ckn ftruh esjh bfUnz;ka lksp Hkh ugha ldrh Fkh og dke Hkh esjs lkeus iw.kZ gks x;ss vkSj ge bfUnz; r`fIr ds fy;s uke tirs jgs vkSj eaxyk vkjrh vkrs jgs gsA xq# egkjkt! ge vkè;kfRed n`f"V ls cgqr fxjs bUlku gSA Hkxoku] izHkwokn vkSj vkidh n;k ls] eq>s HkVds gq;s eqlkfiQj dks] vkius HkkSfrd vkSj vkè;kfRed n`f"V ls cgqr lgkjk fn;k gSA xq# egkjkt th! ;fn dksbZ leL;k gksrh gS rks esjs eka&cki] nksLr] fj'rsnkj] Jh Jh xkSj jkèkk Ñ".k Hkxoku] Jh Jh txUukFk] cynso] lqHknzk egkjkuh gSA Jhy~ izHkwikn dh Ñik ls vkidh vkKk dk ikyu djus dh dksf'k'k djrk gwaA gs xq# egkjkt! eq>s vk'khZokZn nsa fd eSa vki dh vkKk dk ikyu lgh rjhds ls dj ldw¡A vkidk Ñik vfHkyk"kh jkeLo:i nkl ve`rlj -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- xq#nso ds pj.kksa esa n.Mor iz.kke! esjk uke lR;Lo:i nkl gSA eSa ve`rlj dk jgus okyk gw¡A eSa vkt viuk vuqHko fy[kus tk jgk gw¡ fd fdl rjg eSa HkfDr esa vkSj xq:nso ds lEidZ esa vk;k\ esjk igyk uke jktk Fkk vkSj esjk lax xq.Mksa ds lkFk FkkA eSa fnu Hkj ;gh lksprk fd fdl rjg iSlk dek;k tk; vkSj viuh bfUnz;ksa dh r`fIr d:¡\ esjs eqgYys esa ,d esjk nksLr jgrk Fkk] og cgqr vPNk gSA og jkst efUnj tkrk Fkk vkSj eq>s dgrk fd pyks] esjs lkFk efUnj pyksA ij eSa jkst tqvk [ksyrk vkSj 'kjkc ihrk FkkA eSa dHkh efUnj ugha tkrk FkkA ,d fnu dh ckr gS fd esjs nksLr (jke fdadj nkl) uss dgk fd tUek"Veh ds miy{; esa Jh xq: egkjkt th ièkkj jgs gaS vkSj egkjkt th dk Hkkxor lIrkg dk dk;ZØe gSA ve`rlj vkSj bl dk;ZØe dks vPNk cukus ds fy, vki lc HkkbZ;ksa dk lg;ksx pkfg, rks eSaus dgk fd eSa vkidh D;k lgk;rk dj ldrk gw¡\ mlus dgk fd vki efUnj esa vkuk vkSj ru&eu&èku ls lsok djukA rks eSaus dgk] vPNk rks rqe islss ds fy, dg jgs gksA esjs eu esa fopkj vk;k fd ;g ,sls gh iSls Bxus ds fy, vk;k gSA eSa dHkh fdlh xq: esa fo'okl ugha djrk FkkA fiQj Hkh nksLr ds dgus ij eaSus mleas èku dh dqN lsok dk esjs eu esas fopkj vk;k fd fdlh fnu efUnj py dj ns[kk tk; fd iSls dk vxj jksx Hkh yx jgk gS fd ,sls gh Bxus dh O;oLFkkA igys rks esjs dks jfo dgrk Fkk fd efUnj pyks esjs lkFkA eSa dgrk Fkk] esjs ikl VkbZe ugha gSA ,d fnu esjs eu esa vk;k fd vkt jkr dks ns[k dj vkrs gSa fd fdl efUnj esa jfo tkrk gS\ jfo dh eSa bartkj djus yxk D;ksafd ml fnu esjs nksLr os Fks] ftuds lkFk esa tqvk ls [ksyrk FkkA brus esa jfo vius dke ls vk;k vkSj og vius C.A.ds ikl tkrk FkkA eSaus dgk fd jfo! rw esjs dks dgrk Fkk] efUnj py] ysfdu eSa efUnj ugha tkrk FkkA ysfdu vkt esjs ikl VkbZe gS vkSj eSa efUnj tkuk pkgrk gw¡A jfo us dgk] vkt esjs ikl VkbZe ugha gSA eq>sa t:jh dke ls C.A. ds ikl tkuk gSA eaSus dgk! HkkbZ] vkt esjs ikl VkbZe gSA dy 'kk;n] gks u gks rks vkt pyks] dqN nsj lkspus ds ckn jfo dgrk gSA Bhd gS] eSa pyus ds fy, rS;kj gw¡ vkSj ge efUnj dks py iM+sA vHkh n'kZu }kj cUn Fkk vkSj eSaus izHkqikn ds foxzg dks ns[kkA jfo us n.Mr iz.kke fd;k vkSj eq>s Hkh dgk fd izHkqikn th dks n.Mor iz.kke djks] tSls iz.kke jfo us fd;kA eSaus Hkh oSls fd;k] eq>s ,slk yxk tSls izHkqikn esjs ls dqN ckr djuk pkgrs gSaA izHkqikn dks ns[kus ek=k ls ,slk yxk fd tSls fd eSa igys lks jgk Fkk vkSj vc tkxk gw¡A brus esa 'ka[k èofu gqbZ vkSj lHkh HkDr yksx }kj ds lkeus [kM+s gks x;s n'kZu}kj [kqys] HkDrksa us dhrZu izkjEHk fd;k] vkjrh gqbZ] lHkh yksx ukpus yxsA jfo us esjs dks Hkh ukpuss dks dgk] ysfdu eSa 'kekZus yxkA fiQj Hkh eSa FkksM+k&2 ukpus yxkA esjs dks dkiQh vPNk eglwl gqvk fd ;gka ij HkfDr gSA vkjrh ds ckn jfo us esjs dks crk;k fd ;g foxzg izHkqikn dk gS vkSj ;g gekjs nknk xq: gSaA fiQj jfo us esjs dks bUnzvuqt nkl izHkw th ls feyok;kA muls fey dj esjs dks vkSj vPNk yxkA mUgksaus esjs dks HkfDr ds fo"k; esa crk;kA blh rjg ,d fnu esjs dks jfo lqcg eaxy vkjrh ys x;kA esjs dks vkSj vPNk yxkA -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- ;g vuqHko eSa blfy, crkus tk jgk gw¡ fd ftlls HkfDr esa o`f¼ gks vkSj xq: egkjkt ds pj.kksa esa gekjk fo'okl vkSj iDdk gksA HkfDr esa vkus ds i'pkr nh{kk ds ckn ,dckj esjs firkth dh rch;r dkiQh [kjkc gks xbZ vkSj mudh ßn; xfr :d x;h vkSj ftlls mudh e`R;q gks xbZA bl nkSjku eSa dkiQh ek;k ds ?ksjs esa vk;k vkSj Jh xq: egkjkt th us esjs dks vglkl djok;kA ,d jkr eSus liuk ns[kk fd ;ejkt ds nwr esjs dks idM+ dj ys tk jgs gSa ysfdu eSaus tkus ls budkj dj fn;kA os dgus yxs] rwus deZ gh ,sls fd;s gaS] blhfy, ge rq>s idM+ dj ys tk jgs gSaA mUgksaus esjss iSjksa esa jLlh Mky dj ?klhVuk 'kq: dj fn;kA tc oks dejs ds njoktas rd ys vk;s rc eq>s xq: egkjkt dk è;ku vk;k vkSj eSus xq: egkjkt dks iqdkjuk 'kq: fd;kA xq:nso eq>s cpk;ks&cpk;ksA rc eSaus njoktas ds lkFk lh<+h dks t+ksj ls idM+ fy;kA ,d ;enwr idM+ dj [khap jgk gS vkSj nwljk dksM+s cjlk jgk gSA brus esa njokts+ ds ihNs ls rst izdk'k esa xq: egkjkt izdV gksrs gSa vkSj dgrs gSa] gs ew[kZ! rq>s izHkqikn us lqèkjus dk ekSdk fn;k gSA vjs rw bl lqugjh volj dks vius gkFk ls [kks jgk gS blfy, ;enwr rq>s idM+ dj yss tk jgs gSaA rq>s Hkxoku us oS".kokas dh lsok dk ekSdk fn;k gS vkSj rw O;FkZ fo"k;h yksxksa dk lax djds vius fy, ujd dk }kj [kksy jgk gSA rc eSus xq: egkjkt ls {kek ekaxh vkSj ;enwrksa us xq: egkjkt ds dgus ij eq>s NksM+ fn;kA rc esjh uhan [kqyh vkSj esjs 'kjhj ls ilhuk cg jgk FkkA vc rks esjh ,d gh bPNk gS fd Jh xq: egkjkt dh vgsrqdh Ñik ls esjk thou xq:th dh lsok esa lefiZr gks vkSj xq: th dh Ñik ls Hkxoku dh Ñik feys vkSj eq> ifrr dk thou lkFkZd gks] esjh ;gh vfHkyk"kk gSA gjs Ñ".k lR;:i nkl ve`rlj cyjke nkl ue% ¬ fo".kqiknk; Ñ".k izs"Bk; Hkwrys] Jhers uo;ksxsUnz Lokfeu~ bfr ukfeusA ueLrs izHkqikn~ nsos uke ladhrZu izpkfj.ks] fufoZ'ks"k 'kwU;oknh leLr ns'krkfj.ksAA ije iwT;uh; xq: egkjkt th ds pj.kksa esa eq> ifrr dk dksfV&2 n.Mor iz.kkeA -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- gs xq: egkjkt! esjh ;gh vfHkyk"kk gS fd vki eq> ifrr dks vius pj.kkas ls yxk dj j[ksaA vkidh t;&t;dkj gksA Hkxoku Jh Ñ".k vkidks nh?kkZ;q nsa rkfd eq> tSlh ifrr vkRekvksa dk m¼kj gksrk jgsA vki ge ifrrksa dk m¼kj djus ds fy, gh bl èkjrh ij vorfjr gq, gSaA gs xq: egkjkt! vkidk ;'k rhuksa yksdksa esa iQSysA vkidk nklkuqnkl cyjke nkl tkyUèkj ';ke lqUnjh nklh egkjkt th! vkidh nklh ';ke lqUnjh nklh dk ckjEckj iz.kkeA egkjkt th vki dh t;&t;dkj gksA vkids xq.kksa dk ;'k rhuksa yksdksa esa iQSysA egkjkt th! eSa viuk vuqHko vkids lkeus izdV djus tk jgh gw¡A tc esjs iq=k dks mèkqeiqj esa jgus tkuk Fkk rks esjs LoIu esa igys gh ;g vk x;k FkkA eq>s vkils feyus ls igys vkids n'kZu LoIu eas gq,A eSaus vius LoIu eas o`Unkou ds lkjs efUnj ns[ksA Jh Jh jkèkk&Ñ".k Hkxoku~ vkSj vkids n'kZu fd,A eq>s ,slk yx jgk Fkk fd eSa mQ¡ps&mQ¡ps efUnjksa esa tk jgh gw¡] vkSj vkdk'k esa mM+ jgh gw¡ vkSj esjs pkjkas vksj ikuh gh ikuh FkkA eSa ml ikuh esa Mwch tk jgh FkhA eq>s vk'p;Z gqvk fd ,sls D;ksa gks jgk gS\ rc vkius dgk] ^^fdlh ckr dh fpUrk er djksA lc dqN vPNk gksxk vkSj vius iq=k dh fpUrk er djksA HkfDr esa yxsxk] Hkxoku dh lsok djsxk] fiQj esjh uhan [kqy x;h rks vius ?kj esa FkhA bl LoIu ds ckn lc dqN oSlk gh gqvk tks eaSus LoIu esa ns[kk Fkk vkSj mlds ckn dVjk esa vkids n'kZu gq,A vkils feyh vkSj eSa ti djus yxhA blds ckn ls vkids vkSj Hkxoku th ds n'kZu eq>s gksrs gh jgrs gSaA ;g vki dh Ñik gSA vki dh t; gksosA lnk ls vkidh nklh ';ke lqUnjh nklh tEew -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- vkids pj.kkas eas esjk ckjEckj iz.kkeA esjs ikl u rks Kku gS] u HkfDr] fiQj eaS vkidh Lrqfr dSls d:¡\ eSa rks cl vki dh nh?kkZ;q ds fy, Hkxoku ls izkFkZuk dj ldrh gw¡A xq: egkjkt! vkidh Ñik ls esjs lHkh d"V nwj gks jgs gSaA vc rks LoIu eas Hkh vkids n'kZu gksrs jgrs gSaA xq: th! vkids midkjksa dk cnyk eSa dHkh ugha pqdk ldrhA vkidh t; gksA vkidh fot; gksA Jh Jh xkSj jkèkk&Ñ".k ls vkidh yEch vk;q dh Hkh[k ekaxrh gw¡A ^^gjs Ñ".k** vkidh nklh osxorh nsoh nklh ve`rlj oSdq.B je.k nkl Jhers uo;ksxsUnz Lokfeu~ bfr ukfeusA ueLrs izHkqikn~ nsoss] uke ladhrZu izpkfj.ks] fufoZ'ks"k 'kwU;oknh leLr ns'k rkfj.ksAA ije iwT;uh;] izkr% Lej.kh;] vpZuh;] oUnuh;] xq: egkjkt ds pj.k deyksa esa bl rqPN nkl dk iz.kkeA vkids bl ije ifo=k vkfoHkkZo fnol ij tks izlUurk eq>s gks jgh gS] mldk o.kZu djus esa eSa loZFkk v;ksX; gw¡A xq:nso! vkius eq> vKkuh ew[kZ dks viuh vgSrqdh Ñik dk nku fn;k gSA xq:nso! bl nkl ij vki viuh Ñik cuk, j[ksa ftlls eSa iFkHkz"V u gksmQ¡ vkSj Ñ".k lsok esa yxh jgw¡A vki lcls eSa dqN vius vuqHko ckaVuk pkgrk gw¡A fiNys o"kZ tc eSa izFke ckj o`Unkou x;k Fkk rks xq: egkjkt th ogha FksA xq: egkjkt th fdl rjg vius f'k";ksa dk è;ku j[krs gSa\ bl yhyk dk eq>s ogka vuqHko gqvkA blh rjg yxHkx 2 o"kZ igys dqN bZ"kkZyq O;fDr;ksa ds lEidZ esa vkus ds dkj.k esjk eu v'kkUr lk jgus yxkA vius iki&ÑR;ksa ds dkj.k esjs eu esa ;g Hkze iSnk gks x;k fd eSus xq: egkjkt th ls nh{kk ysdj D;k lgh fu.kZ; fy;k gS\ mUgha fnuksa jkr dks eq>s Jhy~ izHkqikn~ Loiu esa vk, vkSj mUgkasus eq>ls dgk fd rqeus ;gka nh{kk yh gSA fcYdqy lgh gS vkSj vxj rqe vius xq:nso dh vkKk ds vuqlkj pyksxs rks fuf'pr gh dY;k.k gksxk] blus dksbZ la'k; ughaA -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- vki lcksa ds vk'khokZn dk vkdka{kh oSdq.B je.k nkl tEew psruk nsoh nklh tc ls eSa egkjkt th ds pj.kksa esa vkbZ gw¡A rc ls esjs thou esa jks'kuh gSA egkjkt th ds pj.kksa esa vkus ls igys eSa dbZ txg HkVdh] ijUrq esjs eu dks 'kkafr dgha ugha feyhA ij tcls eSa egkjkt th ds pj.kksa esa vkbZ gw¡] rcls eu dks ,d larks"k lk gSA eq>s tc Hkh dksbZ d"V gksrk gS] eSa egkjkt th dk lPps eu ls Lej.k djrh gw¡ vkSj u tkus dgk¡ ls eq>s ml rdyhiQ ls fudyus dk lekèkku fey tkrk gS\ Lo;a esa ,d 'kfDr lh vk tkrh gS vkSj egkjkt th dk flej.k djus ls esjs lkjs d"V] esjh leL;kvksa dk vius vki gh lekèkku gks tkrk gS vkSj xq: egkjkt th dh Ñik ls fcxM+s dk;Z Hkh cu tkrs gSaA xq# Jhy~ uo;ksxsUnz th egkjkt th dh lknxh ,oe~ ekxZn'kZu djus dk rjhdk ,slh izsj.kk nsrk gS fd balku eksg ek;k ls gV dj muds }kjk crk, x, ekxZ] ;kfu Jh Ñ".k HkfDr esa yhu gks tkrs gSaA esjk (psruk nsoh nklh dk) xq: pj.kksa esa dksfV&dksfV iz.kkeA gjs Ñ".k gjs Ñ".k] Ñ".k Ñ".k gjs gjsA gjs jke gjs jke] jke jke gjs gjsAA psruk nsoh nklh dBqvk t; nqxkZ nsoh nklh egkjkt th! vkids pj.k deyksa esa esjk n.Mor iz.kkeA egkjkt th! eSa vius vuqHko vkids pj.kksa esa izFke ckj izdV djus tk jgh gw¡A vkids pj.kkas esa esjk ckjEckj iz.kkeA eSa vkids pj.kksa esa dSls tqM+h\ ;g eSa izdV djrh gw¡A loZizFke eSa jRukoyh ekrk ls feyhA mUgksaus tks eLrd ij fryd yxk;k Fkk] mlls eSa izHkkfor gqbZA eSaus iwNk ¶vkius ;s fryd D;ksa yxk;k gS¸\ ekrk th us crk;k] fryd yxkus dh ,d egkurk gSA eLrd ij yxk;k tkrk gSA og Jh gfj ds pj.k dey gSa vkSj tks ukfLrdk ij yxk;k tkrk og rqylh iÙkk gksrk gSA eSa izHkkfor gqbZ] eSaus ekrk th ls dgk] gesa Hkh fryd -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- egkjkt th! eSa viuk loZ izFke vuqHko vkids lkeus izdV djus tk jgh gw¡A tc eq>s igyh ckj mèkeiqj tkuk Fkk] rc tUek"Veh FkhA esjs ikl dksbZ iSlk ugha FkkA eSa cgqr jks;h rks eaSus fdlh pht dh ijokg ugha fd;kA vius diM+s iSd fd;sA eSaus lc dqN gfj vkSj vki ij NksM+ fn;kA bruh ckfj'k gqbZ] esjh cqvk ml ckfj'k esa vk;hA mlus eq>s cSx cukus dks dgkA eq>s iSls nsdj dgk] esjs fy, cSx cuk nsukA eSaus cSx dk diM+k iQSad fn;k vkSj mèkeiqj ds fy, fudy iM+hA eq>s ,slk yxk tSls Lo;a jkèkkjkuh og iSls ysdj ml ckfj'k esa vk;h gaSA ;g esjk igyk vuqHko FkkA ;g Hkh vkidh Ñik FkhA vkidh ,slh Ñik cuh jgsA vkidh ifrr nklh t; nqxkZ nsoh nklh tEew jkekuqt nkl ;g nkl tcls vkJe NksM+dj x`gLFk vkJe okfil vk;kA rc ls gh ,d vfXu ân; esa tyrh jgrh FkhA esjk vc D;k gksxk\ ek;k :ih lalkj esa okfil fxjus ls nq[kh thou O;rhr djus yxk] ysfdu xq#nso dh Ñik ls lHkh Dys'kksa ls NqVdkjk fey x;kA gekjs xq#nso dh yhyk ,slh gS fd ge le> ugha ldrsA nsf[k, ge lHkh izk;% vius&vius xq#nso dh iz'kalk djrs gSa] ysfdu eSa ;gk¡ ;g vuqHko iz'kalk ds fy, ugha vfirq okLrfod lPpkbZ crkus ds fy, dj jgk gw¡A tks esjs lkFk ?kfVr gqbZ gSA vki Hkh vuqHko dh lR;rk ds ckjs esa irk dj ldrs gSa tcfd tgk¡ eSa nsok th ds ikl x;k FkkA esjh muls igys dHkh HksaV ugha gqbZ vkSj u gh os xq#nso dks tkurs gSaA ;gka ;g ckr gekjs le>us okyh -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- xq#nso dh yhyk eq>s 30-12-2006 dks flj ij xaHkhj pksV yxrh gSA nks txg fLVp yxrs gSa] fiQj vLirky ls NqV~Vh feyrh gSA ?kj okfil vkdj eq>s esjh iRuh dgrh gS fd geus nsok th ds ;gk¡ ekFkk Vsdus tkuk gSA ge cqèkokj ds fnu tkrs gSaA ogka vn~Hkqr ?kVuk gksrh gS] ogk¡ ds nsok th us eq>ls iwNk dh rqe ij rks rhu&rhu 'kfDr;k¡ gSa rks rqe bèkj&mèkj D;ksa tkrs gks\ fiQj mUgksaus pksV ds ckjs esa iwNk fd D;k pksV yxus ls igys rqe vius xq# ls feyus x,\ mUgksaus rqEgkjs daèks dk lgkjk fy;k gksA rc eSaus crk;k fd gk¡ nsokth! txUukFk jFk ;k=kk esa egkjkt th dh Ñik feyh FkhA tc egkjkt th jFk ;k=kk lekIr dj lrlax ds fy, O;kl vklu ij cSBs Fks rks esjs daèks vkSj flj ij egkjkt th dk vk'khokZn feyk FkkA nsokth us crk;k fd mlh le; rqEgkjs xq# us lkjh ladV gj fy;k FkkA eSa vkSj esjh iRuh gSjku jg x, fd budks dSls irk fd egkjkt gesa feys\ mUgksaus vkxs crk;k] esjh iRuh dks Hkh mUgha dh Ñik ls thounku feyk gSA lks ;g Ñ".k nkl vkils ;gh izkFkZuk djrk gS fd gekjs xq#nso tSlk bl nqfu;k¡ esa dksbZ n;kyq ugha gSA T;knk u dgrs gq, ;gh fy[krk gwa fd xq#nso ds pj.k dey gh ,dek=k lkèku gSa fd ftuds }kjk ge 'kq¼ HkfDr lsok izkIr dj ldrs gSaA gs xq#nso! ge lc ij n;k dhft, rFkk gesa vius pj.kksa dh Nk;k nhft,A vkidk ifrr nkl jkekuqt nkl ve`rlj] iatkc |